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You can do this sweetheart, we believe in you :]
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Thanks Helen. Now I just need to believe in myself.
On the positive side I rang CATT and they are going to come around and do a home visit. I still think I'm going to end up in hospital and I don't want to. I'm really scared.... |
*hugs phoenixescape, helen, and kahlia* Hope all of you are doing okay...
I can't sleep. Dunno why really, too much thinking I guess. |
Can i sneak in here for a little while? really could use somewhere where i can be safe?
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^ Of course :]
Really busy day. Which is so fantastic when you're already struggling. Nearly done everything I've needed to though. Can I give up now? |
^ Hope you manage to sit down and relaxe with a nice cup of tee or hot chocolate or whatever you wnat.
Cant seam to catch hold of my self at the moment just flying betwean here and A&E, just wish they would put me in hospital so i can get my head soated do'nt know how much more i can take? *ciries* I know i should know better |
it depends on wether you are going too a general ward [psychatric general ward] or too a specialist self harm unit, the best idea is too look around at your life what friends you have then your family try finding what the think of you then listen too the answers see how you feel about what they,ve said and you,ll be suprised how this makes you feel, then when your feeling like picking up a sharp just think about what your family and friends have said and this may help .........peace out x
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Hey guys. Kicking around again because I don't feel safe right now and I look like an absolute mess.
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I went to bed last night at 9pm, was asleep by 9.20. Was the earliest I've fell asleep in ages. Had an extremely bad night & now I'm awake again. Can't get back to sleep either :( My head's even worse rather than better, something tells me it's going to be a very long day. Am possibly seeing a friend today who's worried about me, but I don't really want to open up to her or even go out 'to have a laugh' :'(
Hope everyone else is doing ok *cuddles for all* |
*hugs helen* I'm sorry you are having a bad night. I understand what it's like to not want to open up to someone who is worried, it's definitely a tough situation. Maybe it won't be so bad tho, who knows, maybe you will have a good time/have a laugh with her.
I am feeling incredibly unsafe right now, but too tired to actually do anything. Stopping the thoughts would be nice though... |
*massive hugs for Helen and Laura*
Please stay safe and look after yourselves guys ): I burst into tears randomly this morning, while everyone was in bed and there was nothing I could do about it. It just kept going and going until I felt sick. Right now I still don't feel great... or safe. |
*hugs for you both* Please try keeping safe.
Still struggling. I slept from 9pm-12pm oopsie. Well I did wake up a few times to be fair. But it's kept me safe I guess and I needed the sleep. Stilll struggling but my head seems to be bit better today. |
*hugs everyone*
*hugs* helen, glad you are feeling a little better. |
maybe if i hid e here i wojnt need to r4eally go
tired |
Today's gotten so much worse. Can't even begin to describe it. Then I let my friend in - bad move, she's now crying over me. :'( Don't deserve her. Don't deserve her to care about me so much that's she's so upset because I'm struggling so much. Also my best friend is going back into hospital tomorrow no thanks to me :/
:'( *cuddles all* Romp you okay honey? xxx |
May I just sneak into a little corner in here, don't want to be alone but don't want to be with anyone either, the distraction just isn't helping tonight, I don't know what to do with myself to keep myself safe tonight..
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I've just been discharged from IP and I tell you I'd rather die then end up in there again. The staff are mostly d*cks and the doctors release you into the world still suicidal. I'm over it.
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*hugs Kahlia tons* I'm sorry sweetheart x
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*Cuddles Kahlia* xxx
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Arwen!!! How are you? *cuddles*
Has anyone heard from Dayna recently? Am bit worried about her. I did PM her the other day but no answer so far :( |
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*Pounces on Helen* Hello sweetness :) I'm okay thanks, how are you?
I've been wondering about Dayna too. Actually, I haven't seen a lot of people in here that used to be in a lot... I know I've only really been lurking the VPW recently, but I have been reading and keeping up-to-date with you lovelies <3 xxx |
*falls over* I'm glad you're okay darling. I'm not doing so good, really struggling at the moment :( I know what you mean, everyone seems to have disappeared on us. I can only account for Jade (Tears of Solitude) as she's left. I think most have left/in hospital/really busy??? lol
Lurking is fun. I'm more a lurker than a poster at the moment... |
me is checking myself back in, warmth, food and a bed sounds heaven, some one else can look after my probs for a while
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Just wanted to say thanks for the hugs
I still feel like sh*t. *hugs everyone then curls up in a corner* |
I f***ed up bad.
again. I'm going to hide in the corner now, ok? |
is there a spare corner somewhere? or even a basement closet or something? i just wanna hide somewhere, i dont care how uncomfortable it is, its gotta be better than reality! AAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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*hugs scarlettangel* you can come hide in the corner with me
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*cuddles everyone* because it sounds like we need them.
.... Everything is so screwed up. *runs away so that nobody has to deal with me* |
everything's a mess. in all honesty, its seriously messed up. and i don't think that's about to change :( i definately didn't help the matter either, by falling back to my old patterns of coping :'(
i hate everything |
:'( **** it ALL.
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curls up in a corner
i dont want to resist the urge anymore........im so sick of fighting it |
im with you mammamia, **** it all. what the hell is the point. =/
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Hey guys, sorry I haven't been around for so long. How are you all doing? You have been in my thoughts. I hope everyone is doing ok.
On the outside I'm progressing - I'm working part time and putting a lot of effort into appearing ok. On the inside it's like holding everything in is making it go sour. Love to you all xx |
*hugs everyone*
Sorry I've been away but I've been IP again. |
*cuddles everyone*
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*hugs banana*
*hugs kahlia* I'm sorry to hear that your had to go IP again. Hope you are alright hun. *hugs helen* i don't understand what's going on with me anymore. I hate me, but I haven't SI'd... I don't care enough to SI... kinda worried that i'll break down and do something more... but maybe i won't. I can never tell. |
*leaves hugs*
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*cuddles everyone*
I had my meds changed while I was IP but they are refusing to change my dx. They wouldn't listen to me so I took in a letter from my last pdoc. They were trying to label me BPD because I need psychology and psychiatry - but if I had BPD I would only need psychology (according the their definition) so I'm tempted to come off my meds and let them see me as I really am. It drives me bananas. Bloody pdocs. Sorry for anyone that got offended by that by the way. |
hugs kahila hope everything gets sorted soon.
struggling big time. i know im on a downward spiral but i dont care anymore i just dont sobs. |
I feel like I'm hitting my head against a brick wall constantly >.<
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*hugs Helen*
*hugs everyone* |
I actually give up, no wait, I gave up a long time agao. WHY AM I STILL HERE?
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*cuddles Helen* ~ I often ask myself the same question
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I've hit rock bottom and i cant see any point anymore, very unsafe so scared and anxious all the time
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*hugs Kahlia lots* We'll find the answer one day I'm sure.
*hugs frenchhorn* |
*hugs Imogen*
*cuddles Helen* *hugs everyone* I've been placed on an old drug that isn't helping and am taking twice as much prn meds as I was told to take. I'm going to see my GP tomorrrow because he's the only place I have to turn to. I'm really nervous about it :( |
I have so much to do and I don't want to do anything.
Scrap that. I really want to do it all - I want to do my assignments, have a bath, call about jobs etc. But I'm too ****ing lazy. |
*hugs Arwen* ~ I hope the lazy feeling passes soon and you are able to accomplish your tasks
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...I wish I was in a real one...
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