Wooooooooow :D I know you can make it sweetie, am sooooooooooo proud of you ^_^ I'm nearly two weeks free lol. Hope the pain is better soon :(

Thanks Helen. I'm proud of myself, I never thought I could give SI up. Congratulations on being nearly two weeks free. I hope the pain improves soon too ... It sucks being in pain all the time.

*runs around the ward hugging people at random and waves to Arwen in quarantine*

*hugs everyone (as much for their comfort as for my own)*
I just realised I havent taken my meds. Im waiting for the crash back down to rock bottom. Oh well.

Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

*hugs Alexx*

thankyou :'(

No worries Alexx - would you like the tissues ? *hugs you tightly*

*sniffle* thankyouuu.
I dont even know whats wrong with me. I have a fake smile pinned to my face because my grandparents are here

*hugs Kahalia back* thank you everyone is down at the moment it seems not just me, which sadly makes me feel less alone *hugs to all on the ward, even zowie in quarantine*

ahh crap, im not doing good again. everthing has truned to ****. just want to hide untill it goes away. crys hits back of head hard againts wall. ****

New medication and I'm happy i'm on it. But until it starts to work; if it DOES, i'm feeling ****. Happy i've changed medi, **** cause I feel ****. The good thing is this medi hasn't made me ill in the two days i've taken it. One medi I had made me ill on the first day. This one isn't giving me nightmares either. I'm feeling nothing from it so far. So waiting until it kicks in.

I'm feeling so close to the others right now. Wanna go to bed and talk to them, even though I can't... Sad I can't. I wanna talk to them so badly.

And i'm stupidly happy I walked away from the kitchen without any food.

*offers hugs to all even Arwen in quarantine*

*sits in window sill looking outside at the night*

I am feeling slightly more numb than yesterday, but hopefully things will be getting better soon. It wasn't as much of a struggle to fight the urges to cut again today as it was yesterday, so that's a good sign...

*presses forehead against the glass*

I'm tired, so I think I'll go to sleep soon.

*hugs Ashley*

infection is spreading fast, organs are beginning to malfunction and shut down. not sure how long i've got.

i love you all, and if i'm not back, thank you all for your love and support. you've made the past while a lot easier.

hugs and love

Shayne ~ I'm sorry to hear that *hugs you*

My mood has dropped and is still dropping. TsvTux has been helpful in helping me to take care of myself because he realises how much I've been fighting. I just hope the mood stops dropping soon.

*leaves hugs for all*

*Massive hugs to Shayne* I'm so sorry to hear about this.

&& *Hugsss* to Kahlia too! I hope your moood picks up again soon :)

*hugs Miss_Angelus back*

I feel down like I've hit rock bottom but I'm still falling. Just got to waiting for the landing. At least I don't feel anxious about it now though.

*hugs Shayne* i'm so sorry to hear that *cuddles*

*hugs Kahalia* i'll see you at rock bottom!

*Massive hugs all aroundd!*

Kahlia && shadowedseraph I hope you don't hit rock bottom. Reach out, grab hold, and claw yourself back up back to the good feelings :)