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Damnation. 13-07-2009 02:46 AM

Urk.

Stomach hurts. Been hurting a lot. Keep getting spacey. Haven't been spacey for aaaaaaaaaaaages so bleh, why's my mind suddenly trying to go void again? Have had to keep fighting it off for like three or four days now

~Kaytee~ 13-07-2009 08:03 AM

I emailed my old lecturer about my marks. She said she didn't have my essay and would I mind emailing it again. Thing is.. I never did it. What do I say? :/ Feeling a bit all over the place at the moment and very confused about everything. Think I might hold off on the alcohol lol.

*cuddles todlich* hope your ok :(

glad your surviving hannah, its a start *cuddles*

zowie 13-07-2009 01:13 PM

*Hugs Kat* Well done for cutting down on the alcohol, I know how hard it is, so I'm proud of you :) And I'm sure your mum understands about the hug, she loves you so she's not going to take it too much to heart.

Hana - Well done! That's three of us trying to be good girls :P I know it wont last for me, as soon as I have more money I'll be straight down the offie or the pub! *Hugs back*

Dayna - What have you done before that has stopped the void? If you've gone a long time without being spacey, there must be something you've done to stop it? Keep fighting.


*Hugs Katie* Do you mean you never did the essay or never sent it to her? If you never sent it to her, just send it to her now and keep quiet. If you haven't actually done the essay, I think you're going to have to come clean. If you have a good excuse for not doing it, make sure you tell her.

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I had really horrible dreams that were really triggering. Just waking up made me feel better. I don't feel triggered...much...anymore, but can't get those stupid dreams out of my head.
I have to go to the Jobcentre today, but I really really don't want to leave the house on my own...Feeling paranoid about the spies. But I guess I'll have to go if I want money. I think I'll stop into a pub on the way to ask about a job vacancy they have. I've been there twice to ask, but the landlord was never there. Third times a charm right?

*Hugs all round*

~Kaytee~ 13-07-2009 01:18 PM

Yeah I never did it.. it's just.. I had another big essay due the same time and I had forgotten about the essay.. although I did email the person 'looking after me' about it like 2 weeks before it I think but never heard back then forgot about it. I'm not trying to look for excuses or anything, I will admit I never did it. I just.. I've never not done an assignment before :( I guess I will just tell her what happened *sigh*

*hugs arwen* dreams are horrid, glad your feeling better though. Good luck heading out. Third time is definately a charm so I hope there's something for you there. Take care :)

shadowedseraph 13-07-2009 02:26 PM

*hugs zowie* good luck on getting out and i agree third times the charm for that pub :)

*hugs BigBear* be brave and tell her what happened im sure she'll be understanding

*hugs to all others on the ward*

What i want to know is how come i dont feel any better, i've been like this for a month now and its just not happening *curls up in a corner and bangs head into the wall*

zowie 13-07-2009 02:44 PM

**** **** ****. I was meant to go for an interview at the Jobcentre at 11:30 to discuss keeping my JSA. I've missed it. I'm praying they'll let me do it when I go to sign on later, if not I'm going to be turned down for the next two weeks' payments.
****.

shadowedseraph 13-07-2009 04:28 PM

*hugs zowie* keep calm hunny, explain to them how difficult it is to leave the house and how your feeling at the moment and im sure you'll be ok *more hugs*

Eclectica 13-07-2009 05:02 PM

Today... I'm just not here, I don't think. But the good news is I actually slept last night, though I was in a bit of a mild panic attack all night for no reason, I don't think, unless it was about the past few days. I'm still scared n ****.

I've also stopped eating so much. So I'm trying to stop being so unfit.

Strawberry.Bananas 13-07-2009 05:03 PM

*crawls back in and hides under blanket in a dark corner*

zowie 13-07-2009 06:23 PM

Phew. I called them up and explained, and they gave me an appointment at 2:30. I got there in time, had the interview and singed on.
One downside: Went to the pub with the vacancy and she said it was filled at the weekend! Arrrghh! I went there twice to be told the landlord wasn't there, but not to worry as the applications close on the 20th. I feel really paranoid that she just looked at me and said the position was filled because she didn't like the look of me.

CrazyHayley 13-07-2009 07:52 PM

Hey all, sorry but I'm not up to individual replies, but I wanted to partake in a group hug and let you know I am paying attention to whats going on. My day of rest and hoping to reduce my M.E symptoms today didn't go according to plan as my best mate needed me to help her find out what spirit was in her flat -and not an alcoholic one! lol. So thats drained me. Anyhoo, got to visit family tomorrow so hopefully I'll be bag giving hugs and happy and recharged on wed....til then.....

*GROUP HUGGLE!!*

shadowedseraph 13-07-2009 08:08 PM

*hugs Ecelctica* hope you get more sleep soon honey

*hugs vicki* whats up sweetie?

*hugs zowie* glad everything went ok at the js! sorry to hear about the pub, i dont think it was you though.

*joins in crazy haley's group huggle* hope you enjoy time with your family :)

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I'm in a s****y mood my voices are back with avengance i can't seem to shake my depression and i want to cut. I think my parents are getting fed up with me

shadowedsoul 13-07-2009 08:56 PM

argh!!!!! ****sake i give up. what the hell is the point. might as well be dead.

Damnation. 13-07-2009 10:13 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by zowie (Post 1744381)
Dayna - What have you done before that has stopped the void? If you've gone a long time without being spacey, there must be something you've done to stop it? Keep fighting.

Well when I'm not spacey, I ain't really fighting it. Dunno how to describe it. I only really have to concentrate on fighting it when I do feel spacey. Does that make any sense? :/

shadowedsoul 13-07-2009 11:24 PM

damnit i want to cut, cant resits the urges this time, why the hell do i have be so tempmental, and so argumentive, damn me, jill you are a frigging screw up. quit being so god dam bitchy. argh!!!! i hate me so much. cries

Kahlia1981 14-07-2009 12:34 AM

*hugs all*

Hi everybody. Sorry I've been so quiet recently but I've been unable to type due to the shoulder surgery. I'm now allowed to move my arm a little bit and have been pushing the boundaries and learning what my shoulder can do. At this stage I cannot do anything that requires lifting my arm. On the good side next week on Monday I should get my cast off for good, of course depending on the results of the x-ray. Getting the x-ray is going to be a painful experience as it requires them to place my arm in several positions that will put my shoulder in positions it doesn't like. If I don't get my cast put back on I'm going to miss my glow-in-the-dark wrist.

I had a really bad day a little while back when I received from the police a letter and a fine for the car accident I had when I had a seizure while driving. For the first time in almost 11 months I felt like cutting. I very nearly did cut but somehow managed to get through with the help of my flatmates. We have decided that I should contest the fine through the court system because the accident was caused by a medical condition and I was not in control of my own body and therefore the accident was out of my control.

I'm sorry for writing so much about myself and not replying to everybody individually but know that I am thinking of you all and I read as much as I can. I hope that things improved to everybody.

*goes around to everybody in the ward, even those hiding in corners and in the the smoking corner and also in the denial tent, and gives them a nice warm hug and leaves behind hot chocolates for those in the cold climate and nice cold drinks for those suffering from heat issues.*

~Kaytee~ 14-07-2009 06:14 AM

Well good news. I get to do the essay so I won't fail :D So I will be popping in but won't be posting much. I get till Monday to do it :D And it's great coz I'm seeing a friend on Thursday whos course kinda overlaps so I'm going to ask if I can borrow some books.

Kahlia don't be sorry about writing about yourself. Hope you can get the cast off :D and I hope its healing alright :) Well done for not cutting :D *cuddles* you've done so well :D Take care of yourself!

Kahlia1981 14-07-2009 06:39 AM

Katie - that's good news about the essay. I hope you do well. I also hope my arm is healing right ...

PapaBear 14-07-2009 09:15 AM

I've been camping with my horses for the past couple days, as a birthday gift to myself, and as a way to unwind from all the stresses at home and at work. Viejo and Charlie really enjoyed getting out of the paddock and I enjoyed just getting out and being with nothing but the two of them.

Been kind of on the manic side of happy, but pretty good and stable otherwise.

*MASSIVE HUGS to everyone, and positive energies as well*

Kahlia1981 14-07-2009 12:41 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by theycallmejazz (Post 1746116)
I've been camping with my horses for the past couple days, as a birthday gift to myself, and as a way to unwind from all the stresses at home and at work. Viejo and Charlie really enjoyed getting out of the paddock and I enjoyed just getting out and being with nothing but the two of them.

Been kind of on the manic side of happy, but pretty good and stable otherwise.

*MASSIVE HUGS to everyone, and positive energies as well*

That sounds like a lot of fun. Thanks for the hugs and positive energy, I really need both right now.

*hugs all*


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