Kat: *Hugs back* LMAO, that too!

*Hugs Mary Anne* Going to sleep sounds like a fine idea to me. I'm knackered x_o

I'm Lucy *shakes hand*.
& yours?

Thank you. I somehow managed to get it all done in the space of about 5 minutes flat because I suddenly got into a bit of a manic-esque mood. Weird, lol.
I told the person about me buggering off to Oxford & about how the other day I wanted to kill myself, but like, I'm not that bad now. I just.. I just get really down sometimes. & yeah. Just do weird, off the wall things. It's okay though. I said I'll talk to my GP tomorrow morning, which I will.
I just wanted to make everything stop. & I figured that that was through suicide, but she said I should pause instead of stop & take myself into a ward. I didn't like that. >.< Scary. I'm not mad. I'm not that unstable. I'm fine.

*hugs all*

sorry for not bigger replies.. i'm exhausted.. just wanted to let everyone know i've read all there posts here and am thinking of you all.. take care.

*leaves more hugs and cuddles*

*hugs back* xxx

dflgkjsrgkljrkldj Who the ****ing hell thinks it's smart to pass a link around with SEVERE pictures of SI, if it makes you sick?! Okay, so the guy didn't know that I SI until I told him NOT TO ****ING DO THAT but...Christ >__<;;

^ *sends cuddles* =[

Thanks *hugs back*

I'm so screwed up. I'm actually CRAVING nytol. I've gone one night without it and it was hell. And now I'm craving for some nytol. What. The. ****.

I feel really pooey :( *curls up in corner*

You and me both, Emma *hugs*

My best friends, other friend has been bitching about me on facebook. I know it is stupid but I am supposed to spend the whole weekend with him. I don't want to. Before this I couldn't see how to get through a weekend without serious harm, hell I can't even see how I will find the energy to drive to Nottingham. Now, I just don't see the point in even trying. He clearly doesn't want me there, but my best friend doesn't get MI and will just tell me to ignore him and come anyway. I just want to spend the weekend in bed and hopefully stop breathing or something. I have just had enough. Anyone ever get to the point where even harming seems like too much of an effort? :(

>___< *Hugs Emma tightly* Sorry, I don't really know what to say

Emma I can understand that. I have been there befor, it is not fun.*hugs*

Sorry for the lack of replies I am off in another world. Sorry again.

*Hugs and hot chocolate with marshmellows in it*

Oh God. I have forgotten how to harm...again. The one thing I cared about and had left. Run out of room on my 'favourite' spot. I need to harm properly, but it is not 'pinging' as it should. I suck, I can't even harm properly. I don't know what to do. :crying:

*panicing*

Holy crap... just got told the house is going back on the market... omg omg omg omg. Looks like we're going to have to look for another place. We have no money though. This is just ****. We can't afford to live anywhere else. I hate this. And knowing my luck it's going to interfere with uni... I'm going to look into changing one subject into off campus so that means it's one less day going into uni. So with all the inspections (that we will have to do) and all the time cleaning and blah all that **** it won't interrupt me going into uni. As for THEIR inspections.. great.. will have to figure out a plan coz if I'm home studying I'm going to be kicked out of there so people can come and look... ohhhh... panic attack.... dammnn.

Hello Lucy *waves* I'm Arwen xx

*Hugs Emma and katie*

*hugs everyone*

I saw my uni mental health co-ordinator this afternoon and was honest about how I have been feeling. She made me an appointment with the doctor there and then for 6.50pm, so 25 mins time. I don't want to go, he won't believe me, it won't help. I don't want to be back on meds. But she made me promise and offered to go with me. I said I would be fine, now I'm not so sure I can do it :(

good luck with the doctors appointment....will be thinking of you.
much love and hugs xx