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Kahlia1981 06-01-2009 06:08 AM

Emma, although it is probably too late. My hope is that you didn't SI anymore. *hugs you*

Lucy, sorry you were unable to sleep. It's a bit of a nasty (sometimes circular) situation. *offers you hugs*

Dayna, hope you are okay at this present point in time ... after all, that's all we can really look at isn't it ?? *hugs you*

Damnation. 06-01-2009 06:10 AM

Emma: The fact that you have no energy left to harm more is probably a good thing. But if they need stitching, then you really ought to go and get them seen to properly. As for my mood, eh. God knows

Kahlia: Well, I was ._.; *hugs back*

Kahlia1981 06-01-2009 06:16 AM

Dayna : I'm assuming from that [and your mood symbol] that things aren't so good now. *hugs you tight* I sincerely hope that they improve.

Damnation. 06-01-2009 06:17 AM

Kahlia: I've no idea what set it off, either >_< *hugs back* I was alright earlier, and now it's just...wannagoandgiveinagain

Kahlia1981 06-01-2009 06:41 AM

Dayna : That can be really hard. I damaged myself during an incredibly lucid dream and now all that I can think about is making it bigger/deeper/more like a worthy answer for all the evil in me. Sorry, didn't mean to be selfish and take the conversation towards me ... I was originally just trying to offer some understanding and gentle support. *offers you hugs and a choice of stuffed animals to cuddle*

Damnation. 06-01-2009 06:42 AM

No no, it's fine, I understand what you mean (and have done the same sort of thing once or twice myself). I still keep thinking I should go back to my GP, but I just don't know if I can .__.;;

Kahlia1981 06-01-2009 06:46 AM

Aye, understood. Excuse my forgetfulness [sp?] (please), how long have these intense mood swings been going on Dayna ?? Please try and stay safe.

Damnation. 06-01-2009 06:52 AM

Um...a good few weeks now. I think they started around mid December/couple of weeks before Christmas. Around about that sort of time. Really, since I first started posting in here, I think

Kahlia1981 06-01-2009 06:59 AM

Hmmm ... I thought that might be the case. It really doesn't sound good. It's hard enough to cope with the severe emotional rollercoaster for a couple of days let alone a couple of weeks ... Maybe it is time to see your doctor again. It sounds like you need a bit or support irl as well as through us here on RYL.

You know the really good thing about having a virtual psych ward ?? For me it means that I don't have to put up with the supercilious doctors and nurses who have their heads so far up certain doctors arses that they are unable to think anything other than what that particular doctor would like them to think. Whoa ... GD it felt good to get that out.

Damnation. 06-01-2009 07:10 AM

The thing is, what's stopping me is my housemate. I can't go out alone, unless I'm only going down the road for a minute (that and plus I can never remember how to get to the doctors alone =D), but I haven't been able to talk to her. I know she'd want me to, but it's just...gah. I can't do it. I clam up, mumble, stare at my feet, etc etc. And I don't know why, but the typical 'Oh Däyna...why didn't you tell me?' reaction irks me, too.

And heh, I can agree with you there. I have a different GP now (thank ****!) but the first one I had when I moved up here was a complete dick. I mean, seriously. I told him I was having suicidal thoughts when I went to see him a few years ago, and his attitude was along the lines of 'so what do you want me to do about it?'

Kahlia1981 06-01-2009 07:24 AM

OMFG that reaction irks me as well !! And I fully understand what you mean about not being able to tell your housemate ... I get the same way. My gut instinct is that maybe if it's possible you should write something down for your housemate (perhaps with an added caveat of don't you dare ask me why I didn't tell you - just kidding) which would avoid that having to do things personally immediately. Idk if it would help, just a suggestion ... feel free to take it or leave it as you wish.

Heh ... one of the pdocs here is just so full of snide and supercilious comments. He is of the "if they SI then all they can have is BPD which is not a real illness" breed. Sorry to anyone sufferring from BPD, that isn't my opinion on the illness, but a common one shared among the psych community here. He really gets my goat. Mind you, having said that ... I have renamed the pdocs at the hospital here. One of them I will only call by his first name ... which he really hates. I believe that I told him once that calling him "Dr x" would assume that I had some respect for him, and since I didn't I wouldn't waste the energy or breath calling him that. One of the others I call Dr Death. I have been known to call him that when talking to the nursing staff and also to his face. He isn't really all that bad but I'm pretty sure that death is sitting in his office every day waiting for him to carc it.

Seriously though, if you are either going to be a GP or a pdoc you need to have at least a little respect for both the emotions of those you are going to treat and the truthfullness [please excuse my disgusting spelling] of the person sitting across the desk from you.

Would you like me to get off my soapbox now lol.

Damnation. 06-01-2009 07:27 AM

Wtfs, since when has BPD not been real?! Christ almighty, you've got to wonder how some of these people actually got their jobs ._.;;. So go on then, if it's not a real illness, allegedly, what does he think it is? *Half expecting the reply to be 'a figment of the imagination' or something*

<__<;; We should revolt against the bastardly doctors

Kahlia1981 06-01-2009 07:41 AM

That was kind of what my calling him by his first name was the start of. He can't be my pdoc when I'm IP though unless my private pdoc says he can. My pdoc knows the interactions and atmosphere between me and that doctor. I would not be surprised if "a figment of their imagination" was exactly his response ... I think it just means "put the person in the too hard basket so that we don't have to treat them" to them ... could of course be wrong. A long time ago they gave me the BPD dx and then started refusing treatments and refusing to actually take me seriously when I started having hallucinations and so forth because he had put me down as (and I quote) "BPD with a tendency towards compulsive lying and severe attention seeking behaviour". My father cracked the shits because I was getting more and more unwell and none of the public doctors were doing anything about it - some of them went so far as to tell me that I was getting my symptoms out of textbooks - and put in a ministerial injunction. We got a full copy of my hospital records (all 5 volumes) and I got two seperate private assessments. Initially the head of the psych ward (who I do actually respect to some degree even if I don't like him) couldn't give me a dx. He took a half hour to decide that he would have to agree with the previous doctors because he couldn't get deep enough ... [As a side note, I saw him before being given ECT this year and he had definitely changed his mind to a dx of schizoaffective disorder (bipolar type)]. The private pdoc said it was definitely not BPD and my parents decided that I needed a private pdoc because the public system "were too busy greasing each others palms".

Sorry Dayna ... I got a little carried away there. It's been simply ages since I've really allowed myself to even think about that time, let alone have a good old-fashioned rant about it. I'll try and keep that under control from now on however.

Kahlia1981 06-01-2009 07:43 AM

Oh, can we burn them at the stake ?? Lol. Idk why but that has always sounded like fun. I do realise that it's a terrible way to die, but maybe that is what makes it so enticing for someone like the pdocs in the hospital here ...

Damnation. 06-01-2009 07:44 AM

Jesus Christ, that's terrible >__<

But obviously don't feel you have to keep quiet about it. I mean, isn't part of the point of this place to rant n get stuffs off your chest? As for burning at the stake, sounds good to me XD

Kahlia1981 06-01-2009 07:58 AM

Yay *dances insanely around ward*. We're going to have a burning. I'll start collecting my kindling, lighters and so forth. LOL.

Thanks for reading my rant by the way Dayna ... I think you are right and RYL is good for getting rants out and stuff off your chest ... I just get a little worried about massively talking down the hospital in case it stops someone else from going in for help. That could just be the way my mind works though.

Damnation. 06-01-2009 08:00 AM

Wooo! *Dances with*

No need to thank me. And yeah, I can see where you're coming from. Ah crap. I'd write a longer reply, but firstly, my mind's just died on me, and secondly, it's 7am, meaning I've got to get to bed. Anyways, you take care, stay safe and stuffs, and I'll do the same. See you tomorrows, if you're on *waves*

Kahlia1981 06-01-2009 08:03 AM

Okay Dayna. Have a good days sleep. :D Stay safe!

mouse in darkness 06-01-2009 11:03 AM

*Pokes head out of denial tent "yeah company" jumps out giving hugs*

As Kalia knows we both share the same feelings about that particula individual (sorry can't say it or I migt say something I will regret) and others. Can I join in on the roasting please?:-D

*Hands out chocolate and hugs. Goes back into denial tent*

Hope all are well

Accidentally Abstract 06-01-2009 11:17 AM

I'm literally looking on the megabus website & looking at random places to go just to get out.
& I don't know why or what my plan is or if I intend to go or if I do, cmoe back.
Oh fun, hahahaha.

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