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MammaMia 12-09-2008 02:56 PM

Hugs everyone lots and lots

Zowie, welllllllllllll done!!!!!!!!!!!! Pics of your tattoos are a must ;)

shadowedseraph 12-09-2008 02:57 PM

*looks out from under her blankie and offers cuddles to all that are there* i hate today, but my brother is brining my baby nephew to see me, so hopefully a\ll will be better then

MammaMia 12-09-2008 03:02 PM

He'll melt you inside I'll bet. My nephew means the world to me <3 He's nearly 13, just a matter of days to go :o

Haha isn't this funny? I keep dreaming about someone who's fell out with me and her partner is always in these dreams though he hasn't argued with me as such. LOL the first one was them attempting to kill me but I managed to kill them instead. Then this morning it was their excuses as to why we fell out. My god it was hilarious. Cannot stop laughing.

Stuipd people. Stuipd dreams. Stuipd feelings. Stuipd stresses, worries, urges.


shadowedseraph 12-09-2008 03:05 PM

Aww my nephew is nearly 10months and yeah he makes me all gooey, but dont tell anyone it'd ruin my image ;) *hugs Hells* things like dreams are often weird!

MammaMia 12-09-2008 03:12 PM

I won't tell anyone hehe. It's an aunty thing I think :)

He still melts my heart, doesn't know how he does it but he blates cares about me haha.

*hugs shadowed* Thank you hun, yeah they are werid, mine get super werid.

Auburn Shadow 12-09-2008 03:30 PM

*hugs everyone*

Kahlia1981 12-09-2008 04:03 PM

My nephew and nieces make me go gooey - - - as does my god-daughter. But do you know what sometimes scares me ? I start thinking that I'm not good enough for them . . . that they shouldn't have to grow up with such a f*cked up aunty/godmother. Then I just get back into thinking about how I should be dead. :crying:

I really feel like I'm letting every one down . . . that I'll never be good enough, that nothing I do will ever be good enough. I've made 17 days SI free, but almost gave in to the urges several times today. I wish I didn't have to go through this any more. I wish I was a better person.

The following content has been hidden - Reason : Triggering - suicidal talk
I want to kill myself. I deserve to die. No-one should have to be around me, I am such a failure . . . a horrible person. Nothing I do will ever be good enough. I can't live like this any more. I need to get out of here.

*curls up in the corner with "King Stephen" (the teddy-bear) and cries* :crying:

MammaMia 12-09-2008 04:14 PM

*hugs everyone*

I blew my cover. Dammit.

MammaMia 12-09-2008 04:15 PM

*hugs Kahila lots and lots*

Kahlia1981 12-09-2008 04:20 PM

*cuddles Helen back*

I can't think of another way out . . . I can't see any way out of this. What the heck can I do ?? Is it just time to start running away from everyone and everything ??


MammaMia 12-09-2008 04:31 PM

Don't run sweetie, the problems/**** will always end up catching you up :(

You're doing so so so so well.

1ofmany 12-09-2008 05:16 PM

I want to help al you wounderful people but don't feel like I can the way that I am at the moment.

blue_cloud 12-09-2008 06:39 PM


Originally Posted by rageagainstthemachine (Post 1076447)
You're welcome =), how are you feeling atm?


not so good if i am honest but under a close watch from the community team :ermm:
found out this afternoon i have torn the ligaments in my ankle and its going to be a long run to get it fixed
The following content has been hidden - Reason : might trigger, self harm and suicide
makes me wonder if i should even bother, everything make me think i should just end it right now i am tired of this, but i expect tonight will just be the same cycle of cutting crying and pill taking i hate me

thank you for caring
i am sorry for taking up space and not offering support i am pretty useless right now
if anyone would like a hug i can manage that

shadowedseraph 12-09-2008 09:29 PM

*hugs Kahalia and Diamond noob as well as Hells* life is shitty at the moment for all of us but we have each other *more hugs and chocolate cookies*

Mors Certa 12-09-2008 10:19 PM

After 2 weeks in, I am finally allowed the opportunity to look at a computer. This will be my only opportunity, but here goes. I am inpatient at state hospital now. Long term facility, don't have any idea how long that means. Access is highly limited and frustrating beyond belief. Know that I am safe, don't have a choice, and I will be out when I can. Do not look for my name in the obit Susan, it is not there.

blue_cloud 12-09-2008 10:32 PM

MY BIG BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so good to see you
sorry to hear your stuck in hospital but i am glad you are safe
*cuddles jeff*

risenfromperdition 12-09-2008 10:32 PM

*hugs everyone*
*curls up with teddy*

MammaMia 12-09-2008 11:10 PM

*hugs everyone*

I wish I could offer more but I don't want to be hyprocritcal right now *snuggles*

Kahlia1981 12-09-2008 11:11 PM

I'm still here and another morning has dawned. Life still sucks. All I have now is hope that things will improve.

Thank you everyone for the hugs and cuddles. Although I feel like I can't do anything to repay you I can offer hugs and cuddles back.

*hugs everyone who wants a hug*

The following content has been hidden - Reason : Triggering - suicide talk
I'm scared I'm going to do something stupid and try to end my life. I feel like there is absolutely no alternative.

Thank you all for caring. I'm sorry that I'm such a failure and no use to anybody.

Peace to everyone.

anarchistl0ve 13-09-2008 12:34 AM

:( * i feel like doing..that* eveeeeeryone is going out n doing stuff, noo i cant we dont have any money to do such

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