free huggles and cuddles here!!

i dont know if any advice i give will be good but i'll try :)

*cries-sobs in relief on brother's shoulder*

*huggles you*

*glares at Emma then laughs and hugs her*
Je ne sais pas*shrug* I'm just rather indescribable... Flat and so out of sorts... Maybe kind of lost, I don't know, it's really hard to explain... Last session was yesterday so that's probably got something p do with it though...

*settles back on to Jeff*
I'm sorry you're a little shaky but I'm sure you've got pleanty of support there and you sure have it here, just remember that.

*throws phone across the room* ugh! Been on hold for I don't know how long now... Just want to change my address so my meds make it to where they're supposed to(my mail box... Wouldn't be good to be without, unfortunatly)...

would a hug help at all?

I'm not so good at this, so be patient with me...

I want to thank my husband Philip for backing me up when I pushed Mors Certa. Philip was already doing research for me so I could keep pushing and maybe do some shock treatment.

THANK YOU PHILIP

*jumps on Emma* Love you darlinnnnnnng <3

I feel seriously seriously ****. I would like to cut myself to pices. It won't solve anything and most likely make me feel ten times worse. I hate him for this. I HATE HIM!!! He's not even worth it.

I want to cry and as per ****ing usual I CANT!!!!

Plus its results day tomorrow and I'm getting ****ing anxious even though I can't do a sodding thing about them now. I screwed this year up, mainly because of my 'dad' and due to attempting sucidce 4 times, and everything else I did to self destruct. I ****ed my exam because of a certain bitch and stressing about reporting it.

I really feel like yelling at everything >.<

*wishes she could sob*

would you like a hug?

You're very good at the gig thing Soph :-) *hugs*

Still. On. Hold.
Ice finished cleaning the kitchen, taken the trash out, washed the floors, picked up a lot of what's in the living room... I need to finish that and vacuume and dust but as I am not feeling like cleaning (rather just do nothing and feel ****) but am doing it so when my caseworker shows up tomorrow it doesn't look like I've felt **** for weeks and not done anything... I'm sitting for a bit before I finish *shrug*

Please Soph :sad:

*pounces her daddy with a giant bear hug* forgive you for what?

***YAY*** love hugs

what did you mean can I forgive you?
forgive you for what?

for leaving when you needed me

*hangs head in shame* but doesn't let go of *hugs* nor does he move shoulders as they are being used

*creeps in*


*goes to cupboard beofre anyone can see her* i don't need or want suppiort. i just need to be in a dark place b myself.

oh... it's ok... I am actually kinda glad you left, cuz if you hadn't have left to get help - I think you probably would have left.... permanently (if you know what I mean) :-/

*pats on cupboard door*

I am glad that you made it in there ok, sniffle if you need something

*starts to cry*
ugh... not again... why am I doing this?

*hugs daughter tighter*

*pulls away*
I don't wanna "pull you down" with and I have a tendancy to do that to people that are around me when I am depressed.
*runs and huddles in a corner and rocks self while sobbing*