How are you, Laura?

*Huggles Laura*

I'm worried as I was Skyping Allison (A mutual Friend) and texting Felicia , and said to Allison " I'd rather Skype Felicia and Text Allison" and she broke down in tears and hung up .........I am horrible.

Mark, You are not horrible. It is not horrible to prefer seeing and hearing your fiance and texting your friend rather than the other way around! Could you text your friend and explain what you meant by it?

Speaking of you and your fiance, Mark, I demand pictures of you two! :D
(FB or RYL either way... I'm not picky just demanding!)

I suppose this is me checking in... hey all.

Today is a rough day. I'm not even sure what I'm so upset about to be honest with you. I can feel another panic attack coming on and it makes me angry with myself. I just want to get through today in hopes of tomorrow being better.

Crimson , there will be pictures :) 11 days :D :D

I can't Text Allison , we are sepourated (sp) but an oceon . She is in the U.S.A.

Hi Hurricane , I'm Mark *Hugs if okay?*

*hugs* hugs are good. sometimes they say what words can't. Nice to meet you.

Email then perhaps? *hugs*

*hugs Hurricane and offers tea*

Mark, do you have facebook? Add me! PM or text me if you do and i'll let you know my name.

Hurricane, do you know why you feel panicky? I hope you feel better soon.

I've just cut myself a little. I'm not counting it as a slip up because it's not to the right extent. I don't really feel able to cut as deep as I want to for some reason. I'm not bothered about wasting the 10 months i've been through, I just want some relief. I wish I had enough medication to overdose on.

*hugs all*

*hugs all*

Mark well done on 2 weeks :) really proud of you.

Hi to the new people I'm Oliver *waves*

I managed to go to asda today and not buy pills, that is a really big thing for me.

*Hugs Oliver* Thats Amazing mate ! So cool!

Well done, Oliver!

*hugs Oliver* Well done! Proud of you!
*hugs Laura, Mark, Lindsay*

*hugs Lindsay, Crimson and Mark* thanks guys. how are you all doing?

I've got my phone next to me trying to call the crisis team but i'm scared. They will probably be out on a visit and i'll disturb them, plus, they have just done my review which means they think i'm ok now.

Is it wrong that I brushed my teeth then tasted my blood and liked it , I am sick I swear.

I'm becoming really obsessed with death again, my suicide plan is all in place, it has been for a few months now and the date is getting closer. I feel a sort of calmness that it is coming, I keep listening to sad music and looking up funeral stuff which keeps me calm, I can't wait for this pain of life to be over.

*hugs poisonedapple and enjoys the tea* Thanks lovely.

one_step_closer, Not really sure why I feel the panic. I got through the day without any major incidences though, so I'm considering it a success.

Also, you all can call me either hurricane or Heidi. Either way is fine.