Hey Laura, how are you?

*hugs Mark* how are you?
*hugs Lia*

went to a spacialist today. i was there for 1hour and 30min, it was exhausting.
She gave me 2 questionairs to fill in, there were some really funny questions.

i hate mrs dalloway >.> hafta write paper on... but scenes in=argh =s

*hugs Lia, Mark, Heather, Laura, Louise, Lindsay*

Hey Heather. Everything all right?

*Hugs Oliver* Are you feeling any calmer?

*hugs Lia* how are you?

I'm still pretty stressed still, but trying not to think about it too much

Okay Oliver, but I'm here if you need me.

I'm all right, considering coming back. I don't know, I was happyish and I still have some of that, but I miss you guys and think a stint here may help.

*Hugs Katiee*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Louise*

*hugs Mark, Lia, Ian, Heather, Laura, Oliver, Louise, Lindsay, and everyone else*

*waves to all the new people* hi! i'm Laura!

I've been okay. Been going around and visiting people from uni.. trying to make my break before graduate school go by faster I guess.

I keep wanting to come on here and post, but something keeps stopping me... not sure what it is exactly. Don't feel like I completely belong anymore I guess (and it's not anyone's fault... I'm not complaining at all.. you guys are all fantastic. It's more a "me" thing then anything else... I'm a lot different from when I first posted here back in '09 heh... that's just how things go I guess). But yeah, that's mainly why I've just been lurking and reading.

Anyway, I hope everyone is staying safe. Oh and I made a blueberry lemon cake the other day. It was so good! *passes out non-calorie pieces to the ward*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Laura* Cake for breakfast! Yum :)

I'm going to kill myself. I'm going to kill myself. I'm going to kill myself. I'm sorry but I just can't do this any more.

*big hugs* to those I know and *waves* to those wardies who have come onboard since I have last been on here.

Sorry I haven't been posting but there has been so much negative stuff going on that I'm barely managing to hold myself together. I'm extremely exhausted, depressed, suicidal, sleep deprived and bordering on psychotic but hey, that's life. And my GP decided to leave me for four days without a medication that you cannot stop abruptly for my physical pain.

Anyway any more information is available on the last page of my thread if anyone is interested. Take care all.

*huggles Lindsay* how are you now?
*hugs Angel21*
*cuddles Kahlia*

*Hugs Lindsay* PLEASE reach out , Even if it's just to me. I will try and help. *Squishes*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Waves to Angel* You can beat this hun :)

*Hugs Laura*

*walks in and leaves hugs in jars on the table*
*goes into padded room and locks self in*
*falls apart*

*holds out super glue for everybody to put themselves back together*
*lays in grass*

*hugs everyone*

I can't take any more emotional pain. I HAVE to get my brother to understand this and kill myself.

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

*Hugs Lindsay*