Thank you, I'll probably need it. I should be in bed, being responsible. Ha.

How are you doing?

I'm not doing so great, really bad urges to OD, just trying to keep myself distracted, but emotions and mood swings are really bad

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

*Hugs Oliver* I'm sorry your not doing great *sits with you*

Well done for not just giving in, it takes strength. I hope your emotions manage to settle down, keep distracting yourself and hopefully you will get tired and just be able to sleep. That's my favourite distraction.
*hugs*

*hugs Ian and Mrs Pan*

*hugs Ian, Mrs Pan & Oliver*
Good night all!
See ya in the morning!

*crosses fingers for Mrs Pan*

Thank you, nanight

*hugs Crimson* night

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Taz*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Mrs Pan*

*hugs everyone*

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you hun?

*hugs all*
'Morning!

hugs everyone

*hugs Louise* How are you?

*cursl up* ************

*Hugs Crimson* How are you?

*Hugs Louise* How are you also?

*Hugs Oliver* Whats up Mate?

*hugs Mark* I'm doing okay today. You?

*sits and offers Oliver a plushie* Wanna talk about it?

*hugs Mark and Crimson*

basically I went to my GP today and we talked about a lot of things and it came up about me going back to uni in september and I have told her in the past that I was unsure about going back this year and hadn't made a decision. Now though I have made the decision to go back this september, but the decision wasn't made about me, I said to myself I'll go back because everyone expects me to (my family, teachers, the odd friend, fellow students) basically I said yes to please others. and I told my GP this today and she asked what I really feel, which is I don't think I can go back because I'm not coping now how am I going to cope with essays, practice, rehearsals etc and she said she would speak to my psych's consultant about assessing me and saying i am medically unfit to go back and she said I need to think about it from my perspective and be honest with myself about how I'm not ok. but I know I HAVE to go back this sept cos everyone thinks i am, especially my mum who thinks i am ok now and i cant let her down again.

sorry rambled on there

*Squishes Oliver Tight*

*hugs Oliver* If you do in fact go back to uni this September, how about doing the work in bite size pieces? Do 15 minutes of an essay then doing something else for 15 minutes then 15 more minutes of the essay, etc, etc for example? I find working in small bits makes it less over whelming.
Though I would also like to point out what your doc is probably thinking... If you are trying not to let her down and then you try when you aren't ready to go back and you get worse that would let her down more than if you were to be sure you were ready before hand. Have you talked to your mom about it?