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frenchhorn 26-04-2011 04:20 PM

*hugs all who want hugs*

I'm all moved into my new flat and its really nice, I have lots of space.
The crisis team came to see me yesterday, they said we hae a kind of contract where I don't OD while I'm with them, sort of gives me more pressure, but I have a plan to OD next week when I am home from my parents house.

I still don't have internet in my flat yet, I'm in uni atm, but shall be sorting it ASAP.

Doikers 26-04-2011 05:30 PM

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Louise*

*Spots and Hugs Laura*

shadowedsoul 26-04-2011 07:03 PM

cuddles all, curls up into a ball.

SoMuchMore 26-04-2011 07:48 PM

*hugs mark back*

*hugs everyone else*

Doikers 26-04-2011 07:59 PM

*Squishes Jill Hard*

*Massive Hugs Laura*

How are you girls?

PoisonedApple 26-04-2011 08:01 PM

*sits in the corner and picks at bits of paper*

Doikers 26-04-2011 08:08 PM

I have been fantasizing pushing blades right into me for a few days I worked up the nerve , lost the plot last night and tried it twice , :( I Told my Social worker and now am waiting on a cancellation to meet the Psych....

Doikers 26-04-2011 08:08 PM

*Hugs Crimson* Whats up hun?

PoisonedApple 26-04-2011 08:13 PM

I haven't been at the point of bothering to shave in a week or so... Figured it'd be fine to go to this "black tie" party at work in a black suit w/ a silver shirt and black and silver tie... noooooo they want to have us dressed up (an attorney is dressing us up in dresses). i am self conscious enough as is without having to wear a dress and i dunno if i can talk t into letting me just wear what I planned to...
Thought picking apart paper was a constructive-ish outlet for the moment.

Doikers 26-04-2011 08:49 PM

Go In a suit Crimson hun , I shave every so often and know how hard it can be and how triggering to run blades across yourself *Squishes*

shadowedsoul 26-04-2011 08:53 PM

squishes mark back. hmm im feeling really stressed out of other. i had some really stuiped thoughts today when i went out, wanted to run in front of a train, or jump off a high building. my head is so fu!ked up today its scaring me.

Doikers 26-04-2011 09:03 PM

*Hugs Jill* I know that stuff , tbh I am there right now too, I hope you stay safe hun :)

PoisonedApple 26-04-2011 09:10 PM

*super squishes Mark*
Thank the Gods! They misspoke... T is covering us in "tissue paper dresses"... ugly but not terrifying.

Doikers 26-04-2011 09:16 PM

*Hugs Crimson* Yey!! They sound ............weird lol but Yey at any rate!

shadowedsoul 26-04-2011 09:17 PM

hugs mark, you too hon. crimson that sound kind of cool, and fun. hope you have fun hon

Mors Certa 26-04-2011 11:00 PM

The thoughts are coming back, I can't seem to stop entertaining them, in some fashion it is calming to think about, stops the anxiety, or at least pushes it back a little. I don't know what to do with these thoughts, I know how dangerous it can be to let them sit in my head and simmer, but I also know how painful it is without this comfort. I definitely belong in the ward when I am feeling this way, it is the only safe place, protect me from myself. Sorry to be a blight on the festive mood, I just don't know what to do anymore, don't think these thoughts are right, but they are so strong.

Doikers 26-04-2011 11:17 PM

*Hugs Jeff*

*Hugs my wardies night*

PoisonedApple 26-04-2011 11:35 PM

*hugs Jill, Mark and Jeff*
The "dress" was atrocious... If they email us the pics they took I'll have to share in here. I think I pulled off sane and happy in them. I won the "Where's Waldo?" Gold Star Award for finding next to impossible to find files LOL :) It was fun. Complete with the attorneys serving us a 3 course meal, rolls and drinks (soda, water and sparkling apple cider rather than champagne).
On a sad note I found out at the end of the party (when she was leaving for the day) that a coworker that I worked closely with when I volunteered before I was hired (known her for 5 yrs now) has a brain tumor and they're operating soon so no one knows if she'll survive it let alone be back to work...

Have you tried writing it all down Jeff? Kind of a way of putting it all outside of yourself?

Good night Mark!

Laura2.0 27-04-2011 12:39 AM

*hugs Jeff*
*hugs mark* good night
*hugs crimson* sounds like you had a great time.

I just came homw from work an hour ago.
Posted on the ED forum yesterday, cause of some fvcked up eating habits. They say I should talk with the psych about it in 3 weeks. It's going to be my first appointment. So scared. Whats going to happen with me there?

Cazki 27-04-2011 12:59 AM

I'm annoyed :( had a crap morning. Had an appointment today (at a training thing which the job centre reffered me to sometime ago. It was at 11.30 am this morning i got there just before 11.20 am. I waited for my consultant in another room. All of a sudden i saw her, but instead of calling me she just used her hand to say come here. Anyway when i went to her desk with her she started bloody moaning at me. She said why are you late Ian!? I wasnt late at all, she said the appointment was for 11.00 am but its not because it says on the paper that she gave me 11.30 am. She was just so rude to me and unproffesional.

Then she looked at her computer and said why didnt you attend this activity i said i completely forgot which is my fault i know but that the woman spoke to me and asked me why i didnt attend and i said that it slipped my mind she said to me thats ok not to worry. But then my consultant said il be speaking to the jobcentre, great i bet my money will be stopped now! Brilliant! I'm signing on tomorrow and im going to tell them how rude my consultant was and that she had a go at me for being late when i wasnt. Totally ridiculous! I wasnt even bloody late! I wasnt rude to her at all. I'm just really annoyed though. Before i sign on im going back up to see my consultant to show her the piece of paper she gave me with the appointment time on. Its an agreement you have to sign. Sorry this was so long.

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Mark* I'm so sorry about the thoughts your having, please keep safe. We are all here for you.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Jeff*


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