Crimson , Please PM that link to me if thats okay?

*Hugs Lia*

*hugs everyone* how are you all?

I am doing awful, I hope you all don't mind me posting, I don't know what else to do besides sitting in a corner and crying, the thoughts and emotions are too much,

*offers hugs to anyone who wants/needs them*

It's kind of weird. My fiance and I are facing bankrupcy by the end of the month, and will be homeless and living on the street (no homeless sheter will take us) when we are forced to move in june, but I still love him dearly and don't want to leave him. Whatever happens I want to die loving him.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Mors Certa*

*Hugs Kahlia*

Well I got drunk and Desperate last night , I really wasn't safe so I called My Best Friend and she let me crash on her sofa , I feel so stupid but I was going to hurt myself badly so I called the one person I know in town who I trust with this kind of thing , I think I freaked her out a bit , she knocked on my door at 10.45pm asking if I was okay having drunk a lot and took meds and I reasured her , She even offered me her bed and said she would take the sofa but not a chance I would go to her home and steal her bed ! I Love this woman .

How blessed you are to have such a great friend! How ya doin now Mark?

I'm pretty low Solo :( Just life is getting to me , I've had enough , I keep feeling low and triggered and am getting suicidal fantasys :(
How are you Hun?

I'm so sorry you're so low recently! You so need n deserve a break!

Let's just say, it's a good thing I have kids.

*Hugs Solo*

Thank you! ~back at ya Hun~

*hugs everyone* Anyone around?

Hmmmm... so quiet...

*Hugs Crimson* How are you hun?

Got bored... put a digital koi pond on my blog lol ya know I'm not big on talking but with this blog I just keep going and going... *shrugs* We'll see if I stick with it though, right?

How are you, Mark?

Flat , still , sorry , I sooo want to injure :( the urge gets stronger and stronger.
*Hugs Crimson again in the hope I'll get a hug I need back ;))

*hugs mark and crimson*

So here I sit, waiting out my time on the job, spending most of the day transferring work that used to be mine, to someone else that didn't lose their job. Wish they would have announced the layoff and sent us home instead of making us suffer through two weeks of this.

I was already in such a bad place, three weeks into a severe depression, now the thoughts are running through my head (I will spare you the darkness of them, sure that they are not unique to me) Do I ring back the doc and get blown off again, do I call the crisis team and risk another stint in the hospital just because my meds are f'd up, do I cut to make the pain stop temporarily. I don't know what to do, I am not right, I am not safe from cutting right now, wish there was a corner to curl up and hide in.

*Hugs Louise* How're you Hun?

*Hugs Mors Certa* I'm sorry you're struggling so much

I could be better

Whats up Louise? *Hugs*

I........injured........and have literlly ran out of room. I feel Alone.