*hugs Charlie and Laura*

I'm flat and trying to resist lots of urges to cut and OD

how are you both?

*Cuddles Laura and Oliver*
Please try and stay as safe as possible you guys. I'm sorry I don't have much advice. I'm just about ready to give up.
My cat and Lia..they're the two people that get me through everything, and now my cats missing and Lia's struggling. I just can't do it on my own.

*hugs Charlie* I'm sorry your struggling too, please dont give up *extra hugs*

*Hugs*
I'm trying to just stay busy.

*lays head down exausted*

I tried to nap and it didn't work out ... so damn tired it's giving me head aches :(

*Huggles wardies* Hewwoww!!!

k any other parents out there have issues with ur other half undermindin ur authority!? UGH!

oooooooh yeaaaaahhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ugh! i'm so done!

Ya had to know I would relate! Ya wanna vent?

i put the kids to bed. the boys share and room (ages 3 and 5) and always play and talk so i usually have the 3 yr old go to bed on the couch and i move him after he falls out... he told him after i did this to go to his bed. So i washed my hands of it and said they were his for the night and I'm not doing a damn thing.

15 mins later... he moves the 3 yr old to bed w/ him

::eye roll:: dumb ass!

I hear ya! I deal with that kinda stuff with my butthead husband all the time! UUUUUUUUUUUUggggggggggggHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's just so hot/cold ... on/off lately... we do really good one min and the next we're in hell...

did u read my earlier posts about what he did last night!?

11 beers and he was an ass!

I sure did! It made me sad, cause last I knew I thought things were goin kinda good for you two.

they were and still are ... when he's not drinking... he hasn't drank that much in a while, but it was awful! I came home to him being all confrontational and arguminative and it was all i could do not to SI ... I did make it through... it's been over a month now, but it's soooooo hard some days.

when it's bad ... and it has been past few days... i blast papa roach in the car and it seems to help...

i find it ironic though cuz it's the same music i used to cut to when i was younger... and now i can use it as a replacement for it

I'm glad things are still good, when he's not drinking. Why is he drinking so much? Does he know what affect it's having?

That's fantastic that you've made it over a month, especially through this! I'm so proud of you! Hey, whatever works right?

Btw, I'm over a month free too!

congrats !! I'm proud of you too!

I've tried talking to him 'bout it, but he always either blows me off or changes the subject or says he doesn't want to talk 'bout it b/c of the kids. He made such a big deal when about sharing my feelings when he found out i was cutting again... and now it's like he does want me too, but he doesn't... i'm kinda confused and lost as to what to do

Thanks!

I can definitely understand your confusion! If I were having any better luck than you are I might have some brilliant advise for ya. I hope it at least helps to vent n know that I can relate.

it always helps to vent... and it helps to know i'm not alone in my situation... lol.

holding it in is what got me into SI in the first place so i try really really hard to say what's on my mind as often as i can...

speaking of which i kinda have a bit of a delima with my sis youngest god daughter who is around 12 ... she just got out of the psych hospital for a suicide whatch... took a knife to bed... prob is that many of us think it wasn't about suicide and more about protection... that she might be being molested. I wanna reach out to her... i know lots of ppl who have been in all kinds of situations and i think i could be a big help to her... but i only really talk to her on fb and i don't wanna pm her cuz her mom is likely watcing her site... not sure what to do

Well, I'm glad I could be some kinda help.

Holdin it in has a lot to do with why I'm where I am too, but I still struggle with talking.

Wow! I can understand your dilema! Your theory makes complete sense. Does she have a cell phone with text?