*hugs sarah* car insurance prices can be pretty bad. I hope you can find one that works.

*hugs mark* its brave of you to post that video! I'm glad you are feeling less anxious today.

*hugs jill* you alright?

*hugs helen* glad that you are doing okay today.

*hugs shad* im sorry you are still having to play the distraction game. Keep it up though! its a good thing.

*hugs nicole* glad you are back :)

*hugs heather, kitty, and kahlia*

I have to go to the orientation for work today. So freaking anxious because I have to lead part of it. I hate that I am like this.. Like really really hate it. I just want to be able to relax like a normal person, not worry what everyone is thinking all the time or assume that they are thinking badly about me. Its stupid and ridiculous.

*Hugs Laura* It's not stupid or ridiculous , I think the majority of the wardies suffer with anxiety that can be pretty crippling at times , the best of luck with your orientation hun :)

*hugs mark*
I know that i'm not alone in the anxiety, but that doesn't make it easier really :-/
It does feel stupid though, b/c i know logically that people are not all thinking badly about me (by the way, I think it is super self centered of me to even assume people are thinking about me).
Sorry, I should just be quiet.

*cuddles Laura* its not stupid hun, I can really relate to what you're saying

*hugs Mark* Group 1 is the lowest. I can't get insurance on anything higher than a 4, and group 1 comes in about £3.5k and group 4 comes in around £4.5k. Its just insane. Me and my fiance will have a look sometime, because if this is right then I won't be able to afford a car until I'm working. I don't see how people can deal with it

hugs laura, hope you feel better soon. hugs everbody. hmm feeling very triggered, why the hell did i look at self harm photos. know i want to cut my self to shreds. curls up

hugs everyone

*cuddles everyone*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Laura*

*Peeks in*
Are you sure it's ok for me to come back? :( I completley understand if you don't want me....

*Hugs Nicole* The ward woulden't be the same without you hun , I Want you here :)

*Hugs Mark* Thankyou :) I really am sorry about last night, I felt really low, I started off thinking that you all hated me, then went on to think about how much I love you all and how I didn't wanna hurt you, so I should just leave before I hurt everyone. So I said I was leaving, But Lia kept texting me and trying to persuade me to come back, I had a good cry, and calmed down and agreed to come back.

*cuddles Nicole* We all love you here, the ward would be so different without you

Oh Nicole *Hugs* , sometimes I have days like that but you wouldn't hurt us by sticking around , if anything we would miss you terribly , I think about the ward and the name "Nicole" is always one of the first that pops into my head :)

*Hugs Mark and Sarah*
Thankyou so much guys :) You are all amazing people!
I am so thankful to Lia aswell, she calmed me down as I was just about to text all my friends IRL and tell them to leave me alone too :/

*cuddles Nicole* you're wonderful, please stay :)

hugs nicole we all want you to stay.

*Spots and Hugs Kitty*

-hugs mark-

*snuggles Ward* I feel strange again, Think I definately need to go get a diagnosis to see whats wrong with me so they can treat me. This doesn't feel right.

-hugs sarah-