merry xmas guys!!!! sorry i havnt been around in a while. life got a little crazy, erm still is i guess. hope everyone is okay. sorry guys. xx

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Jill* I've missed you.

*Hugs Lia*

Hugs everyone :) Hope you're all having a good Christmas and enjoying the traditional fare. Have a pleasant day. Slainte :)

Mark, hugs are always welcome & thanks. Hope everyone is enjoying their Christmas. I woke up w/ a cold this moring, but still enjoyed watching the kids open their gifts. My 5 yr old won't stop playing w/ his new wrestling ring! lol

It seems I don't like like being around groups of people , even if they are my own family sometimes , for extended periods of time *Sigh* I got out to walk the dog alone , thats something :)

*Hugs Ljmeep* Thats so cool , most presants here have been for my almost 1 year old neice hehe .

I hate the holidays, its such a difficult time of year, at least I can rely on an endorphin rush to help me get through today sigh * I want today to be over with :(

*hugs everyone*

*Hug Aoife* How's is your Christmas Day Going?

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you coping hun?

Hello Mark, how are you? Christmas day has been a disaster, I cant wait for it to be over *sigh* I dont do well with family gatherings. Its very stressful, I'm looking forward to getting it over with, I cut several times and the day's not done yet :(. I hope you day is much better. Do have a pleasant evening. Take care. Hugs to all. happy Holidays. Slainte :)

*Hugs Aoife / Slainte* My Christmas is stressful too , I do not do crowds even if they are my family , that makes me sound selfish and scrooge like but I have a moderatley low Anxiety thresh-hold . I want to cut I realy do , I'm just thing how to do it without getting caught :S

So I just cut , not seriously, but it was an effort to do it secretly :S But I felt so much better instantley ..........

*Hugs mark* I m so sorry to hear that, hope it isnt too serious but nevertheless do take good care of the wounds *hugs, gently applies salve* It does not make you sound like Scrouge, in fact I avoid crowds year round, wonder what you'd call me :P. I hope you dont get caught, I know the feeling of relief , I cut as well today at several points in time, a pity its only temporary relief. I hope your night is much better. If you need anything at all dont hesitate to message me. take care my friend * you are in my thoughts * Be safe :)

*Hugs Aoife* Crowds freak me but now it's just me up in my old bedroom and my parents downstairs watching T.V. .*Yawns* Am tired , we are all at my sisters familys bungalow for tomorrow , ERP ERP ERP , I simply won't be able to cut there , Thankyou Diaz .

*hugs Mark* sleep well and pleasant dreams. I hope tomorrow has an even better day in-store for you. Tomorrow I think I'll spend in the library reading up on gerontology, Aubrey is a role model of mine :) Do have a good night. Cheers :)

*Hugs all*

Christmas didn't feel like Christmas, but I did just get the news that my best friend is re-engaged :)

Jill!!!! *Hugs* I missed you. I was worried, I thought something had happened. That's the second piece of good news I have received today. I hope your Christmas was a good one and that you're ok.

*hugs all*


hope everyone had an ok day.

*offers hug to oliver if you want*
sorry your christmas was rough and sorry your dad was being a jerk :(
that must suck majorly being called someone you arent <3

*hugs anyone else*
thankfully today is over
*curls up* tummy feels icky and i wanna cut and :(

*hugs heather* try not to cut, you got anything you can do to distract yourself

*Hugs Heather and Oliver* Sorry neither of you enjoyed the day. Please try not to cut Heather.

I'm turning in for the night now. Night night wardies. <3

*hugs mark* sorry you cut... I wanted to a few times today, but never had enough privacy to do so... all for thebest. I did get to down a couple margaritas though, courtosy of my sis. :) I'm not much of a drinker so it was more than enough to take the edge off before we migrated from my family to my hubby's.

I had my anxiety level actually hit it's high when we got home and my hubby started complaining that no one offered him a drink (my family doesn't like when he drinks and neither do i b/c he becomes an ass) and he was complaining that my sis went behind our backs to give Bryce cookies after we told him no (doesn't bother me too much, but only cuz it's Christmas). I almost cut right then, but the kids were still up and again i couldn't get away. Now I'm here so maybe I can find the stregth not to do what I want so badly to do. :/