*curls up shivering* so dam cold
i think i'm unwell i'm not sure i just dont feel good

*hugs everyone*
How is everyone? (sorry been like 15 pgs since i last got a chance to read...)

That made us laugh :D

lol the comments were the best! people look at you funny when you're in an office and randomly burst into laughter though.... just couldn't contain it!

*cuddles all* I'm heading to bed, got to be up at 6am to get to my 9am lecture. Yay ¬_¬

Night xx

*sits in corner and sighs*

Morning all.

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs April*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Julie*

*Hugs Jill*

Wow, very very quiet night in the ward........

And very quiet morning... :-S Hope everyone's okay.

*cuddles all*

*Spots and hugs April, Helen and Jill*:) How's everyone?

*hugs ward*

Has been a very quiet morning in the ward too, hope all are ok.

I'm still ill but having a good time, can't go out today at the moment, totally pissing it down and plus I'm so tired.

I'm a bit down on myself today but I went for a walk got back made coffee opened my milk and it had gone off , yuk! so went back out to get supplies after drinking my (black) coffee . I just want to sleep now.

Tomorrow I have a "Groups that grow" session 1 of 12 ,they have taken little bits that work from all different theaputic approaches and rehabs and stuff and come up with this course , I'm anxious about being around a group of people , (There will be 12 plus 3 staff) but I hope it can help me get a hold of my S.I..

Er my afternoon going so well, not nearly got hit by a bus, thats triggered really stuiped thoughts that I'm trying really hard to igoure, so I can sort of fuchion at work can see that happening. Just want to hide. Cuddles all

*Hugs Jill* I hope you're okay

*Hugs everyone.*

Just gonna hang...(as in hang here, not gonna off myself).

*Spots Lia Hanging and Hangs with her* How are you ? *Hugs*

*hugs crimson* haha what a funny story! how have you been?

*hugs helen* im sorry that your still sick and tired. Hope that things are going well at your besties though.

*hugs april* How are you today? Sorry to hear that you were so low yesterday. That sucks that you don't have heat. Its still getting up to around 75-80 during the day but then like 30 at night.. so i'm like a/c - heat - window open - closed. Very annoying lol, the weather is weird here.

*hugs mark* that "groups that grow" thing sounds pretty awesome! Hopefully it works for you. I understand being anxious but hopefully everyone there is very understanding of everyone else. Sorry that you are so tired today.

*hugs sarah* hope your lectures went okay today.

*hugs heather* how r u doing hun?

*hugs jill* I hope you are okay. Good job on trying to ignore those thoughts though. You can beat the urges, i know you can.

*hugs lia* you okay?

Long evening. Wound up having to go to work last night even though i normally have tuesday's off since i have class until 9pm, but so many people are sick right now... o well.. i like work most of the time.. just lately been feeling weird about everything. I've got bad thoughts rolling around in my head today on repeat, which i really hate when this happens. I don't know.. some days it just doesn't seem worth it, but i have to go to class in an hour or so for 3 hours.. then back to work.

ok done rambling... sorry.. i know i say a lot of pointless things you guys probably couldn't care less about.

Oh Laura of course we all care *Hugs* It sounds like you have a Jam Packed scedule , You've probably said but I forgot what is your job? I hate hate hate it when bad thoughts roll around in my head , Can you do anything to distract yourself ? Music can work really well for me .

*hugs mark* yea my schedule is pretty busy all the time, which is good for distraction purposes but can make me really stressed out at times heh.. I'm trying to just ignore thoughts right now, going to class in a few minutes will probably be enough to distract me for now. And, I work as a page designer at the local newspaper here.

busy, frustrated, etc etc.... typed up a long letter to my mom in a r/v manner to get out all my frustrations about my current living sitch issues but then left it in draft form unfiished deciding i didn't wanna burden her. :) may post it in my r/v if i even bother to finish writing it... on the upside my office is coming along nicely and the person i've been doings job alongside mine for the last few months? she resigned. we can replace her now and i can get back to doing just one job in a month or so. still waiting to here if i get an interview or not but at least i know my resume went from hr to the hiring manager so even if i'm not picked i know i came close *really hoping for the job though.. i miss the warm climate in cali and will not miss supporting double my household size*
How're you doing now? (been a half hour now) Any better/ more distracted?