Mark, I'm sorry, I think I prefer straight depression over numbness with a hint of depression. That sucks *hugs*
and, it's both kind of pressure, my sinuses are giving me hell, but I have all sorts of crazy mental things going on too.

*hugs Sarah* I'm glad we make you feel safe.

*hugs Felicia and Mark* Its nice and calm here, I like it *snuggles up in blanket*

I don't know what I prefer *sigh* I spent 3 or 4 hours on my bed but didn't SLEEP sleep . I'm triggered and I'm trying to distract myself , my stew is almost ready maybe if I eat I'll feel better... *Hugs Back*

Yeah the numb feeling is terrible. Been like that a lot myself recently, straight depression is so much easier for me to deal with than feeling numb.

I hope you're okay, and that you enjoy your stew, stew is tasty :)

*cuddles everyone* Sorry we're all struggling so much....

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Jill* I spot you :)

I gave in and S.I.'d just feel so ...... well my face is warm , flushed sort of . I don't know how I feel , or at least I don't know how to verbalise it :S

Cuddles all. Hmm had a little bit to eat, not much but but hey. Did another 20mins on the cross trainer. Hmm seams that all I want to do today is excersise. Meh.

*hugs everyone*

I am *this* close to giving in. I wish people wouldn't blame me for everything.

I'm scared of going home tonight. I got to my nans an hour later than usual because we were shopping for an elderly neighbour, but I'm scared of how my mum will react to it. She shouted at me a lot last night over petty things. Sometimes I feel like I'm just being really soft but I'm genuinely terrified of shouting.

:(

*Hugs Jill* Try not to over exercise , thats really not good for you , you could pull a muscle or something :S

*Hugs Felicia* Please try not to give in :S Whats happened?

*Hugs Sarah* You don't sound soft , people shouting is intimidating .

Thanks Mark *hugs* just feel like I'm being overly sensitive :(

Helen, how are you?

Jill, please take care.

Mark, how are you feeling now?

Felicia, please stay safe. We are all here for you.

Sarah, shouting is horrible. You're not soft at all.

I'm really triggered to SI and/or overdose. The 'proper' crisis team were supposed to come and see me but they didn't and I don't have their number. I could phone the voluntary crisis service but I don't know what they could do for me.

Please try Linsey, I really don't want you to do anything dangerous or stupid. What is it that's triggered you to feel this way? *Hugs*

You're not being over sensitive Sarah, I hate people shouting at me. When somone starts having a go, I look cool and like I couldn't give a toss on the outside, but on the inside, I'm curling into myself, retreating that little bit further. It's ok to be scared, we're all scared of something. *Hugs*

*Hugs Felicia* What's the matter? Please try to stay safe sweet.

*Hugs Mark* Sorry that you S.I'ed, but try not to beat yourself up about it too much. We all know how hard it is to resist sometimes, and how it's sometimes the only thing that stops you doing something much worse. I hope you feel a little better soon.

*Hugs Jill* exercise can be stress releaving, but like Mark said, try not to over do it. Still, it's a good distraction and better than many things you could otherwise be doing. Take care and I hope you're OK.

*Hugs Helen* How are you today?

Where's April? Have we heard from her today? I've been about, but not very talkative.

x

*hugs all those who want or need them* sorry, no individuals.

I'm still feeling odd , I thought the meds were finally working permanatly, Maybe today is just a blip *Tells self it's a blip*

I haven't noticed April about either Lia Hmmmm Hang on I'll check her facebook page........Hmmm no updates for 19 hours , maybe her internet is down again, it was down for a few days a little while ago :S

I hope so Mark *hugs*

She was on this morning, so that's a relief. Perhaps she's just sick of us lot :P

Hey Claire *hugs* how are you?

*cuddles everyone*

Thanks guys. I'm just getting yelled at a lot over things that aren't my fault. My roommate called me and yelled cause a. I went home for the three day weekend and b. I told her our minicourse professor added another book (so she could get the book before the course started. Excuse me for being nice), my mom has called and yelled at me today cause I made no move to stay at her house over the three day weekend. I have tons and tons of work, and mom never lets me do it... she accuses me of being antisocial. Excuse me for caring about my grades. And my grandparents are in a bad mood and have snapped at me over everything. It's stupid really, but I don't feel good, my head feels like a giant balloon has inflated inside it and it's going to force my eyeballs out of my head, my throat hurts, I'm overwhelmed by my list of tasks (even though I've accomplished a lot since yesterday), and I don't want to have to feel like everyone hates me for making decisions and being nice.

*hugs everyone*

Ward's moving really fast again...