are*hugs kat, april band kahlia*
sorry kat :( just a bit distracted at the moment
april-thanks, and cause im feeling suicidall, and then the only place my mum would let me stay was at my aunties, and i can see the train station from the bedroom window, the same train station where 2 people have commited suicide this week.........

*cuddles april* i'm safe enough now, I think all that will hit me later, I get delayed responses...

*cuddles nicole* thats ok. me too!

*hugs kat* bless. urgh. i dunno what to do :(

*hugs nicole* me neither. talking to an ex of mine who was really affected by stuff I did, and stuff another girl of his did... he's so in denial about it all, frustrating..but distracting though.

*hugs kat* aaw :( at least youve got a distraction though, everyone here is talking about the 2 suicides, and triggering me even more :O

aww hunny, thats not good. try to block them out if you can. can you listen to music? or perhaps play a game?

my auntie and uncle are sleeping. urgh urgh urgh, i just saw my teachers name on name on the school website and it brought back EVERYTHING :(

aww hun. is there anything I can do? -offers safe hugs if you can-

*cuddles both Nicole & Kat* sorry, that's all i'm able to offer at the moment... am not in a good place. :'(

updated r/v.......... :'(

*thanks and hugs* i dont know. i just feel. blah. i dont know what to do or where to live because i cant stay at home anymore as all my family hate me, school is crap and upsets me, and nothing seems worth it anymore

*cuddles everyone*

*huggles april* I read your RV, and I'm so sorry that everything is such a struggle for you right now. I understand about the comments you made further up your thread about being christian and a survivor, all i can say is hunny, is that it is a really hard place to be, and i havn't figured it all out yet, but hopefully one day soon the Good Lord will help me with it. In the meanwhile, don't try to analyse your actions too much, let God do the judging after all, He should know ;)

I will PM you tommorow with my other thoughts on your RV, but tonight i'm sorry hun, i'm a little ploughed under with all this thats going on. Love and prayers hun.

nicole: I'm sorry you're feeling like that. I know nothing about your situation. can you live alone? maybe it'll give you some independance/healing space? do you have a friend you could move in with?

*cuddles helen* thanks lovely. how are you?

*offers hugs to everyone who wants*
x

the only person i could move in with is my cousin and my mum wouldnt let me :( *hugs april. kat and helen*

*hugs nicole* ah, I see. I guess then in one way, you've got to wait it out for a couple of years :( until you're 18. sorry hun.

uhuh. but then, im pretty sure that if i carry on living there, im not gonna make it to my 18th birthday.

*curls up in bed and sleeps*
im lonely =\

*huggles nicole* aww hunny. if your situation at home is really bad, is there anyone you could tell? see if you can get some advice/support?

*cuddles heather* so tired. i should sleep too.