April ,not cutting last night IS a totall victory . Perhaps you should put on trousers or a long skirt so you don't see the scars , I have long sleeves on and trousers and it keeps it from being a constant reminder.

I hope you can rescedule your trip with your bestie :) sounds like you two would have fun

I'm ok , did S.I. last night , was in a bad place ( mentally) , I'm fragile I guess is the right word for me today, sorry that sounds stupid :S

I'm sorry you're feeling fragile, Mark... I totally know the feeling. *cuddles gently* I'm sorry that you cut but I'm glad that you took care of it. :) Please make sure to keep it clean and the bandage unstuck from it, but you know that... *hugs*

I'm currently wearing sweats and a tshirt but *cough might be TMI* whenever I go to the restroom I see the cuts anyway, as they're on my hip/thigh. :-/ So I don't know how to avoid that. :-S

I just want today to be over with... :-S

I didn't say it because of you honey, never mind why I said it, not important. I'm sorry you're struggling so much *cuddles tight*

*Hugs April*

It's lonely in here on my own..........sorry just being insecure.

Yeh Mark, I understand what you mean. :( I hate it when I'm the only one in here, it feels like I'm the only one in a large building and am so lonely... if that makes sense and doesn't sound too "kooky." Heh. How are you doing? *cuddles*

*cuddles Hels* Well, I'm glad that it wasn't me at least... :) And I sure that whatever you had to say was important. ♥

*hugs everyone*

*hugs Lindsay back & spies Jill* How are you both doing today?

Not too good, I really wish that I was dead.

How are you?

That makes sense April .
I'm coping.
Not doing well but coping.
Just ug , preocupied about the result of the medical and I am going to have to wait weeks yet grr.

There was a knock at my door and it was my houseing SW , to say he was sorry he didn'tcontact me and didn't come ,and I was the only one he didn't inform!(that doesn't make me feel good about myself like ,oh Mark, he doesn't matter :S) a 2 minute phone call is all it would have taken .
and he is away next week so can't come then and will come the week after hmmm
I don't know what to eat for dinner , I feel I ought to make something but I could just be lazy and have cereal , no energy or motivation to do anything *Sigh* 20 minute nap first I think I need. am achey.

Argh this sucks people are just pissing me off today at
work up stairs in the staffroom and I feel so like I
really don't want to be here,want 6 to come around
before I end up doing something to myself cause that
is were it is heading.

*cuddles everyone lots*

Hi April, not doing great feeling very triggered want to
cut badly can't seam to get stuiped thoughts out of my
head, kind of sinking fast today. Really had enough.

*hugs everyone tightly*

Doctor appointment in one hour. Damndamndamn.
Will do individual replies after.

Good luck with your appointment sweetheart.

Good luck, i'm thinking about you.

Best of luck, Taz. *huggles*

Mark, I'm glad that you're coping but sorry that you feel ****. :( *cuddles* Hope the nap helps...

Jill, sorry you're feeling **** too, wish I could help more but I'm in a pretty crap place myself. :( *huggles*

*cuddles everyone else who wants them*
*spies a Hels and gives her an extra-special cuddle* :)

*cuddles everyone*

*spies Hels, Mark, & Crimson*
*cuddles them all - group huggle time!!*

How are you all doing now?

I just got off WoW... it was a nice distraction but I still feel like I HAVE to cut, can't get around that feeling... ugh. :-S

And I'm still ill although not as badly. Stuffy nose and slight cough is all. Whew... I'm glad I'm getting better. :) Birthday's on Tuesday & even though I have to work (boo hiss!!) it still should be nice.

Stapling stuff and folding it (pamplets/booklets) is all done. Woohoo. :)

*hides in her hole trying not to cry*

I have no idea how I'm going to make it through 5 hours at the front desk this morning. I can't come on here from there and I dunno if I can deal alone today.
I fail....
I'm sorry.
*hugs everyone*
We'll see how it goes.