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dark_light 22-01-2009 11:40 AM

*waves*
coming to hide in here for a bit
preferable to the real psych ward i am currently residing in!

ravynsoul 22-01-2009 11:44 AM

*waves back* Hi dark_light; welcome!!

*offers a duvet and a mug of hot chocolate*

Mary Anne 22-01-2009 12:24 PM

Hi everyone,

sorry I went AWOL for a bit, was in a bit of a dark hole.

Dayna, not had the chance to go back and find our what happened but from reading between the lines I think I know your pain.

Take care everyone, will try to check in a bit later on when I am home.

*leaves hugs and creme eggs*

Damnation. 22-01-2009 12:56 PM

Bleh.

Mary Anne: Ugh, I feel sorry for you. It's horrible *hugs*

Hey there dark_light *waves back also*

*Hugs Ravyn*

Wildly: Thanks all the same, tis appreciated. I'm just dreading today now ._.;. 'Cause he's gonna be online later. I doubt he'll talk to me, but...eh. Even though he claimed he was gonna leave RYL, it wouldn't surprise me if he's gonna continue stalking my posts

Nicole: Glad to see you back, hope you're not doing too badly

*Hugs Zowie* I'm glad to see that your appointment went well, and good luck with the art therapy

* * *

In a fairly bad way today. Yesterday, when all this **** started up, I went through a wide range of emotions. I started crying, stayed deeply depressed, got angry, hell, even felt okay at one point. Didn't last; I've been more depressed than owt else. But I was stable. Which took me by surprise. Now that unstability has finally hit me.

Dark, dark thoughts again. Bad mental images. Last night I could hardly stop crying. Even worse, I have my near full packet of new meds, and packets of painkillers downstairs, so I'm trying to distract myself. And I'm completely alone. There's no one here irl to stop me, should...I get out of hand. My housemate's off to see a judge, I think, which the council advised us to do, to ask for an extention of our eviction deadline. Eviction and realising that I've been lied two for the past ... God knows exactly. Months. Months. Why the ****ing hell should I bother any more?

wildly insane 22-01-2009 01:29 PM

I think Puppy SinClair might get fat if everybody keeps feeding him, hell I might get fat if I keep eating all this chocolate..mmm...creme eggs...

Interview went okay, in fact I did my goddamnest best, but unfortunately I don't think it was good enough as at the end he said, don't worry if we don't get hold of you immediately we might be squabbling over someone and if we do ask someone else they may not accept the post ... hmm makes me think they have someone else in mind, no matter I did my best... keep on slogging

*gives Dayna a huge hug* keep going hun

*hugs mouse, Shell, Zowie, Dark Light and anybody else who pops by and wants one*

I'm now off to work but am celebrating tonight - friend's birthday (going to bake ginger cake, will make an extra one for you guys - and the fact that my interview is over and done with - wish me luck alcohol is demonic :P

Damnation. 22-01-2009 01:30 PM

Wildly: I'm trying my best. And good luck with the interview. If you think it went well, that I'm sure it did <3

Detour. Derail 22-01-2009 03:09 PM

I proper want a creme egg now :x

Im sleepy.
and bored.
and dont want to go to work.

because i feel SUUUUPPPPEEEERRRRRRR sad.

&& really down.


&& the last thing i need is people shouting at ME because THEY cant manage their own money.


Blah.


=[

Eclectica 22-01-2009 03:40 PM

Today I wake up, and realise something..

Yesterday, I was badly dissociated. I caused hell. Yet, I feel nothing today. No pain, no anger, no regret. Nothing.

Damnation. 22-01-2009 03:41 PM

You weren't the one who caused the hell *hugs*

MammaMia 22-01-2009 05:27 PM

What a week this is turning out to be, thank god it's friday again tomorrow and I can laze if I wants. Having a very testing day. Firstly I kept having panic attacks again like yesterday (where I then had flashabacks and possibly disassoicated) but least I was safer today. Then I had my meeting about missing assignments/lectures. After a lonnnnnng chat and explaining (so hard...) it looks like I will remain a full time student until the summer & do my new modules, then re-enrol in september but as part time 1st year student and re-do the modules I've not completed/handed in this year. But it may not be happening. So yeah. Plus got to ask myself some deep questions and return into counselling, it was time to go back anyway....*sighs*

zowie 22-01-2009 07:29 PM

*Hugs Helen* I know what a bummer it is when your illness makes you miss too many lectures. Hopefully it'll turn out alright for you :)

Feeling a bit low at the moment. Hugs would be nice *weak smile*
xxx

shadowedsoul 22-01-2009 07:55 PM

hmm just going to curl up in the corner, feeling low, and unwell.

Auburn Shadow 22-01-2009 08:44 PM

*sigh* sorry I haven't been around much, again. Just, things getting on top of me. Tonight's going to hell. Been triggered to cut all day, but now, I'm getting triggered to OD, or something. Saw my counsellors on Tuesday, which was good, and helped, for a little, but, they gave me this sheet to check everything off that I think about myself, like the bad bits, and I can't do it, not without getting triggered or angry and then taking it out on Tom. *sigh* I tried telling him how I'm feeling but it's almost like he doesn't think it's important enough to worry about. I dunno.

MammaMia 22-01-2009 09:27 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by zowie (Post 1374991)
*Hugs Helen* I know what a bummer it is when your illness makes you miss too many lectures. Hopefully it'll turn out alright for you :)

Feeling a bit low at the moment. Hugs would be nice *weak smile*
xxx

Thanks sweetie *sighs* I am glad the option miht be there but I feel like I've ****ed it all up, well I already did...so yeah *cuddles back and then cuddles you lots and hopes you feel better soon*

Quote:

Originally Posted by Auburn Shadow (Post 1375199)
*sigh* sorry I haven't been around much, again. Just, things getting on top of me. Tonight's going to hell. Been triggered to cut all day, but now, I'm getting triggered to OD, or something. Saw my counsellors on Tuesday, which was good, and helped, for a little, but, they gave me this sheet to check everything off that I think about myself, like the bad bits, and I can't do it, not without getting triggered or angry and then taking it out on Tom. *sigh* I tried telling him how I'm feeling but it's almost like he doesn't think it's important enough to worry about. I dunno.

*cuddles tight* Love you sweetie <3

Jetforce 22-01-2009 10:01 PM

*jumps and cuddles hells*

Hang in there matey...ok?

xxx

Detour. Derail 22-01-2009 11:33 PM

blah blah blah blahhh....
*waves arms around and collapses*

The following content has been hidden - Reason : **MAY TRIGGER ED**

I got complimented yesterday....told i looked good and i lost weight...

It should be enough to make me happy...
but im gonna keep going...until someone tells me im too thin and i look in their eyes and know they mean it...


so.tired.

MammaMia 22-01-2009 11:53 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Jetforce (Post 1375362)
*jumps and cuddles hells*

Hang in there matey...ok?

xxx

*cuddles Jem*

ravynsoul 23-01-2009 12:20 AM

*comes in and cuddles everyone*

Helen - sorry to hear about your bad week; thankfully friday is near! Don't have much in terms of words *sends lots of hugs*

Alexx - how did work end up going? hope you get more energy soon.

Jem - how are you doing?

Hana - hope the triggeredness passes quickly. Do you think you could save that sheet till just before your next appointment, that way you'll feel safer?

Shadowedsoul - *offers pillow and duvet* do you want to talk about it?

Zowie - *hugs and hugs some more* hope you feel better soon

Dayna - how are you doing today? Sorry to hear about the thoughts.. please try and be safe. How did things go before the judge?

Katrica - how are you doing today? *hugs*

Hannah - hope that things go well with the aftermath of the interview; maybe what he said was just a standard line? So people don't get anxious about not getting called right away? HOpe you have a fun time tonite celebrating your friends birthday! Enjoy the cake!

Mary Anne - sorry to hear that things weren't/aren't good.. hope some light shines through soon. *hugs back and gratefully accepts creme egg*

*leaves hugs for everyone else... hope things are going well*

--

*sits and cuddles with Puppy Sinclair*
been ill today with a bad cold and left work early and slept most of the day.. feeling very restless now..

take care all..

Damnation. 23-01-2009 01:12 AM

Going to see the judge tomorrow. Couldn't go yesterday 'cause of lack of money. Hearing tomorrow at 10am.

...Everything's fallen to pieces. Contact with him...has been established. It's so painful

Eclectica 23-01-2009 02:08 AM

I'm ****ing LOSING AGAIN


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