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nicole94 22-11-2010 09:26 PM

oh helen we're sorry if you feel ignored, we honestly don't mean to ignore you! whats up??

Doikers 22-11-2010 09:27 PM

*Hugs Helen* We all care about you here , sometimes Hugs are all we can muster , Sometimes this thread moves quickly and posts get overlooked , I'm sure it's not intentional on anyones part , Please stay .

Also we all get a bit wrapped up in our own issues so find it hard to offer support .

Doikers 22-11-2010 09:30 PM

Helen , the other day I asked people to take a look at a thread I'd started and no one did so , It happens from time to time , I didn't take it personally , Was I disapointed? Well yes but I'm not going to abandon the ward over it and I don't think you shoud either.

FlyingNy 22-11-2010 09:30 PM

I'm sorry Helen. I do try not to ignore people because I know how much it hurts.

FlyingNy 22-11-2010 09:40 PM

Are you alright Nicole? What's the matter?

Splitperson3 22-11-2010 09:40 PM

I need help. I hate myself so badly. Can't seem to get over what happened when I was growing up. So many things remind me. I can be just sitting and all of a sudden, I'll be thinking of something that happened and most of the time it feels so REAL. Like its happening right now. Am I just crazy or what???

Kahlia1981 22-11-2010 09:42 PM

Hels: I'm sorry. I often feel ignored on the ward because of my being in a different time zone so I can relate to you here. I've only just managed to get online and catch up on about 6 pages or so in great detail.

I just want to say this to you: People do still care. I know that I do. You have been through a hell I can only imagine. I can't begin to understand the pain you must be feeling. But having said that, I don't know how I can help you. Can you help me to help you? What can I say or what can I do? Not to mention you have college/uni stress and stress with your best friends ... I don't want you to leave the VPW Hels, especially not for feeling ignored. But if you choose to go, I at least will try to keep in touch if that is okay.

MammaMia 22-11-2010 09:44 PM


I have been planning to leave RYL. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm sorry. Feel free to hate me.
I've had a really bad day & struggling. I just lost my temper with everything.

Kahlia, your post means a lot to me, seriously.

nicole94 22-11-2010 09:48 PM

Helen-none of us hate you! and whilst we want you to stay, if you feel you want to leave, thats your choice, but we all want you to stay here on RYL. the ward just wouldnt be the same without you. *hugs*

MammaMia 22-11-2010 09:50 PM

*hugs Nicole* Even if I did leave, I would like to stay in touch with some of you somehow...

FlyingNy 22-11-2010 09:51 PM

Hye Spiltperson. You're not crazy. We can almost all relate to that.

PoisonedApple 22-11-2010 09:57 PM

split~ do you mean like flashbacks? and no, you are not crazy.

Hels~ I agree with Kahlia and everyone else.
I don't fully understand your situation and I at times don't know what to say (and don't want to say the wrong thing and make you feel worse). I'm sorry if I've contributed to your feeling ignored. I'm only on here sporadically and only during my workdays. Some days when I get a chance to come back in there's so many pages that have zipped past of everyone's posts that I can't get all caught up, sometimes it means skimming and other times it means skipping whole pages. It's not optimal for knowing what's going on but it's better to me than getting overwhelmed and whatnot.
If you do decide to leave RYL, do you have someplace else to post?

Doikers 22-11-2010 10:01 PM

Well I'm heading to bed *Tells self tomorrow is a new start and does try to beleive it*
*Night time Hugs My Wardies*

PoisonedApple 22-11-2010 10:05 PM

*hugs Mark good night* Tomorrow is a new day and a new start. Try not to think about it or keep track if you think that'd help you to be SI-free longer.

FlyingNy 22-11-2010 10:11 PM

Night night Mark. *Hugs*

Kahlia1981 22-11-2010 10:38 PM

Hels: Remember, even if you leave the VPW, or even RYL as a whole, you can always come back. It, and we, will always be here for you. We, well I - I can't speak for anyone other than myself really - love you and will miss you. I'll send you a PM with my contact details for if you do decide to leave if you like.

Cazki 22-11-2010 10:41 PM

Hey everyone, im sorry you have struggled today Helen *Cuddles Helen* If you want to talk your welcome to pm me.

Splitperson3 22-11-2010 10:48 PM

thanks Ice Queen and Poisoned Apple.
Yeah like flashbacks. Sometimes they are so real that my body even feels it is happening all over again...

FlyingNy 22-11-2010 11:11 PM

I've never had those, but I am sure you're not alone. I know it's my username, but I really hate being called Ice Queen. Call me Lia. That must be horrible that they feel so real. Is there anything you can do to pull yourself back into reality when this happens?

PoisonedApple 22-11-2010 11:12 PM

*hugs everyone* the roads and conditions are so bad now that the office is being closed down and we're being sent home. I'll be back in either tomorrow (unless the roads are bad or worse) or Wednesday...

Laura2.0 22-11-2010 11:12 PM

*hugs all* sorry I didnt say much... my internet connection stopped working and it took a while to fix it.
Going to bed now.
*good night hugs all*

shadow13 23-11-2010 01:11 AM

The truth
I'm so glad I was on a happy hype yesterday because it gave me the chance to think about how I was going to tell you all how f***ed up ny sleep has become. Since I stopped cutting, I've had insomnia. I stay awake for hours reliving my worst memories. Sometimes I lie in bed and a tear just slowly makes it's way down my face. I think about cutting almost everyday. Even if I have stopped - for now - that doesn't mean the urge isn't there. It's maddening. I think the longest I stayed awake once was 48 hours + on school nights. So when I finally slept, I was exhausted. I don't wake up from my nightmares anymore. No matter what they are; my mind forces me into submission and I have to stay in that hell until someone wakes me in the morning. I have never been one to scream in my sleep. People think that I'm a quiet sleeper but I scream so much in my dreams. Memories turn and twist themselves into the worst outcome of the days I relive and I scream and cry as I'm forced to watch and never wake. Not til the morning comes.
I'm sorry I've kept this from you. I hope you don't think bad of me. Or think I'm a freak or that I'm weird. I just needed to tell you. Although I haven't known you all that long... You're more my family than anyone else. I love you all. :crying:
I refuse to give up. I refuse to give in.

frenchhorn 23-11-2010 03:14 AM

*hugs Shad* its really good that you could tell us. I can relate to so much of that, I've had insomnia for as long as I can remember, with it gradually getting worse in the last few years and I just lie there remembering everything crying and shaking. I find now that I sit in bed on my laptop, it keeps me distracted, can talk to others, watch stuff and play games, although there is always that point that I have to turn it off and try to sleep, which scares me like hell, but i find that after I have been on my laptop for a few hours I am more tired and if not I play on my phone.
sorry ranted on about me too much, if you want to talk ever always feel free to PM me. your not a freak, we're here for you.

Kahlia1981 23-11-2010 03:40 AM

*hugs Shad* - Insomnia is something I know only too well. At the moment my sleep is better than it has ever been in my life. I spent most of my life (some 18 out of 29 years) sleeping no more than an hour a night if I slept at all. I went, and still sometimes go although it is getting less, for days or weeks with no sleep at all - and that's when I'm not manic. When I'm manic I can go for months without sleep. Sometimes I sleep through nightmares, and other times I wake up screaming so loud that I wake my housemate an he comes running in from the other room to find out what is wrong. I have to say though that I would have liked to have been able to participate in a study that is being done in Melbourne into Insomnia and Sleep Disorders. It's a pity I live too far away up here in North Queensland. :-(

FlyingNy 23-11-2010 08:19 AM

*Hugs all* Morning. Well, my sleep isn't as bad as all of yours, but I did wake up at stupid o'clock this morning and couldn't get back to sleep and I have an importnant psychology test today. Joy. I'm sorry everyone's struggling with sleep. *Leaves flasks of malt drink for people to take when they need and copies of Harry Potter* They always help me sleep.

Doikers 23-11-2010 09:54 AM

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Splitperson*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs Ian*

Doikers 23-11-2010 09:58 AM

*Hugs Shad* I'm so sorry you are have trouble sleeping , this may sound a lame suggestion but maybe try camomille tea , thats relaxing, so if Lavender oil in your bath or a couple of drop spritzed on your pillow .

*Hugs Oliver*

"The hardest part of ending is starting again"

frenchhorn 23-11-2010 11:24 AM

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**** I dont know what to do, I'm sat in college with quite a few pills of a mixture of different meds in front of me, I really want to take them, I'm meant to be in a lesson in 30 minutes and then a rehearsal and then i'm seeing the college counsellor, i dont know if i can distract myself until then, and even then if i leave the counselling session i'll end up taking them then anyway.

Doikers 23-11-2010 11:30 AM

Oliver *HUGS* Please don't take them , could you maybe go along to the counsellor and hand them in or if you are not comfortable handing them over go to the bathroom and flush them down the Toilet? Please get rid of them somehow and stay safe .

nicole94 23-11-2010 12:07 PM

*hugs everyone*
oliver-please please please dont take them!! like mark said, can you flush them away if you can give them to anyone??

Laura2.0 23-11-2010 01:26 PM

*hugs all*

Oliver: please don't take them. Like Mark and nicole said, give them to the counsellor or flush them.

misskitty112 23-11-2010 02:36 PM

*hugs everyone who couldn't sleep* I couldn't either last night. I woke up almost every hour before I just gave up and worked on uni stuff. (I officially have my Lit Theory and Creative Writing stuff done though)

*Super Hugs Oliver* Please, get rid of the pills. Please.
*Hugs Mark* How're you doing?
*hugs Lore* How are you today?

nicole94 23-11-2010 02:58 PM

*hugs everyone* anybody got a warm house i could teleport too? :P
it's bloody freezing here, we have some men come to paint all the windows and doors, so they all have to be left open!! its cold!

misskitty112 23-11-2010 03:10 PM

Teleport here, Nicole! My house is really warm.

Doikers 23-11-2010 04:44 PM

Met with my Nurse Sharron today, She told me Brenda , who I know from Accupuncture and Group has Died in the last week :( It never rains but it pours eh? I don't know what to make of it , I'm just a bit numb :S

misskitty112 23-11-2010 05:14 PM

*super big hugs* I'm sorry, Mark. I'm around if you need to chat.

Doikers 23-11-2010 05:44 PM

Thanks Felicia , I didn't know her THAT well but we were on semi-conversational terms , she must have only been in her 50's.

one_step_closer 23-11-2010 07:04 PM

*hugs everyone*

I really can't take much more of 'life.' Nothing specifically is happening but my mood is so low.

Doikers 23-11-2010 07:09 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* I'm sorry your mood is so crap :(

FlyingNy 23-11-2010 08:10 PM

Oliver, no one here would ever want anything to happen to you. Please follow the advice of the others. *Hugs*

*Hugs Mark* I'm sorry :(

*Hugs Lindsey* We're all here if you need to talk.

*Hugs Lore, Nicole and Felicia*

Doikers 23-11-2010 08:17 PM

*Hugs Lia* Thankyou :) How are you tonight?

nicole94 23-11-2010 08:24 PM

*hugs everyone*

Doikers 23-11-2010 08:26 PM

*Squishes Nicole* How are you?

nicole94 23-11-2010 08:43 PM

*hugs mark* i..dunno, i suppose i'm ok, just a bit low. sorry to hear that you've not had the best of days (to put it nicley) *squishes*

FlyingNy 23-11-2010 08:44 PM

I'm alright. Better than I was last night. I sunk quite low, but everyone here was struggling. It's alright though, I went to RAINN.

Doikers 23-11-2010 08:44 PM

Why a bit low Nicole?

Lia , Whats RAINN? I'm glad you are feeling a bit better at least .

FlyingNy 23-11-2010 08:47 PM

*Hugs Nicole* I hope you're alright.

FlyingNy 23-11-2010 08:49 PM

Erm...it's a helpline, and they have a hotline, so I went and chatted to someone there. It's the Rape, Abuse and Incest National Network. I don't even know if I belong there, but Alex was lovely.

Kahlia1981 23-11-2010 08:53 PM

*huggles all*

My wounds from the fall on sunday are mostly doing okay. One of them isn't so good. :( I see my GP tomorrow so I'm going to get him to have a look at it.

Anyway, sorry for the lack of individuals, I'm just not up to much yet - it's not even 7am.

*big hugs for all*

nicole94 23-11-2010 08:58 PM

*hugs mark, lia and kahlia*
i'm just a bit upset because i had a bad session with my therapist today :(

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