*peeks in*

Lots of posts... I spy a Kat and a Mark. *cuddles, and cuddles everyone*

Julie, you are special, as Kat says, and you're not stupid, and you do matter. So there. ;) *offers a mug of calorie-free hot chocolate through the hole in the box*

Lindsay (? one_step_closer), how are you doing? *hugs*

Kat, how are you? *squishes*

Kahlia, I'm sorry you're feeling so crappy :( wish there were something I could do that would help... but know that I'm here if you need someone to talk with, okay? :)

Hels, I hope that you're having a splendid time with your mate(s). :) Sounds like it should be fun!! I hope you're enjoying yourself & getting out of your head a bit, seems like it's been difficult to get out of your head so maybe this will help? *holds you*

*cuddles everyone that she hasn't replied to, and also those people* Cuddles are good and healing. :)

I'm so tired... got up at 5:35am today... silly me, after going to bed at nine last night (lateish for me)... :( And I have a night class - Women & Spirituality - tonight... at which I present... so yeah. :( Am nervous. But the rest of my day should be easy, after I score up my client's papers. *sigh* That's going to take awhile... probably about an hour.

Played WoW for awhile and managed a quest with my level 15 rogue (who is now level 16 :D) that I have never done without the help of a higher level before. So I was/am proud about that. As silly as it sounds, ANY achievement, even in-game, is better than none. Right?... :-S

I'm so close to end of semester... when I told a guildie/friend on WoW that I had gotten through the semester without being hospitalized, she typed out "LMAO" ... which I thought was rather insensitive, then realized that some people might say what I did as a joke!! Not me... as some of you remember, I came very close this term (and last) to being hospitalized. :-/ So yeah. That's definitely another accomplishment/achievement. Heh.

Now I just have to call the person in charge of where I want to do my internship. :) I'll do that this morning... we need to get stuff set up for that... looks like it will be a possibility after all. I just really, really need to buckle down and call her. I hate making phone calls but she's really quite nice.

Anyway, enough rambling...

*hides in a corner with pillows, her stuffed ape that her hubby got her, some books, and a mug of hot chai*

amy's 11 kate's 15 i think and O(owen) is 9 nearly10

*squeezes Julie's hand* hard to keep track of sometimes arn't they?

*squishes scarlet dreamer back* I'm doing okay. Rosie wants to come out, but I wont let her, so feeling headachy and all meh. What's your name hun?

*frowns* theres no such thing as calorie-free hot chocolate
*invents calorie-free hot chocolate*
tada magic
now there is

*Hugs April*Way to go leveling up and completeing that quest without any help from a higher level , an acheivment is an acheiment on WoW or IRL or any place else :) Good luck with your presentation at your W&S class. you did really well on your last presentation and I'm sure you'll do well on this one too :-)

*Hugs Kat and Julie and everyone else who wonders into my hug radious*

*yawns*

Kat, my name's April. :) That sucks about Rosie... why don't you want her to come out? *hugs*

Julie, in the ward there IS calorie-free hot chocolate. :) Moreso now that you've invented it!! :D Hehe.

I'm really tired... still. I automatically put my contacts in this morning but am going to have to take them out as my eyes are already getting dry and gluey. GRRRR. I hate wearing glasses, but my friends say they "make me look smarter" so yeah... :-X not sure if that's a compliment or not!! lol.

*cuddles Mark* Did you get the paracetamol for your aches/pains? and enjoy the weather whilst you were at it? (is it good weather there or not?) Here it's kinda crappy looking out... not raining, but cloudy... and cold... I wish it would warm up to what it was last week. *pouts* Heh...

*cuddles everyone else who wants a cuddle*

I'm falling apart, I just want to die, why can't i just die now.
*hides in far away dark corner*

I got a phone bill for £126.06 *sigh* I only made 6 phone calls and one of them was free , they are going to put up my direct debit by almost £20 a month .

April I got my paracetemol but my back still hurts :( I might go and get something stronger , not Ibuprofen as I can't mix that with my Lithium but I don't know what else is stronger , I'll ask at boots ( Chemists ) The weather here is warm , it's nice , I am not a hot weather person , never have been plus my meds make me light and heat sensitive .hmmm*Hugs April*

*Spots Oliver and Julie*

*Hugs Oliver* Whats up , do you want to talk ?

life is falling apart, i cant cope anymore, might have to get extensions for all my work, to sept. had a talk with tutor after tutorial, cos she could see i wasnt good, really stressed and low

*Hugs Oliver* It's ok to ask for extentions if you need them , thats better than letting all your work gang up on you right now , it would help space it out . I hope that makes sense.

I went out and they let me buy some paracetemol and codeine pills , I've took a couple , lets hope they work .
My housing worker took away the E-ON bill to deal with it but they won't talk to him without me being there so it's gonna drag out for another week :(
And ....
I don't know what to do about this phone bill.:(

The pressure is building up inside me , I feel like I'm gonna crack , grrrr

*cuddles Mark* I'm sorry that you are struggling so much right now, what with the stuff in your head, your back pain, and the bills etc. :( That really sucks... I know that "sucks" doesn't truly cover it, but my brain is muzzy and that's the best I could come up with. I hope that things get sorted and sorted quickly so you don't end up getting extremely stressed. *curls up next to*

Just got off WoW again; my rogue is now nearly level 17 thanks to some help from my husband with some quests... :) And I put together a collexion of things I need for senior sem today, which is good - postings that I did online for the class - he wants a hard copy of all of them. So yeah. I think - HOPE - that I did all of them so I can get a full good grade on it... grrrr.

*sigh*

I'm meeting my bestie for lunch at 11:30am... it's coming up quickly, nearly 10am now... and I have to make sure that I'm dressed appropriately for the dinner tonight (scholarship dinner) - I'm currently wearing khakis and a deep purple thermal/hoodie thing that is kinda dressy. However, I have NO idea how dressy I'm supposed to be... :-X GRRRRR again.

Oh, and r/v thread is updated. :-/

*cuddles everyone*

Too late , I'm already stressed , ugh , I've made me some tea,try to calm me , thanx for curling up near me April *HUGS* I'm gonna take a Diaz I think , I think I need it.

Oh and Enjoy your time with your best mate April and don't get too stressed about your scholarship dinner if you can help it :) I KNOW pot/kettle/black hmmm

*eyes pop out of head*
*pokes them back in*

Oh my goodness, there have been 8pages since I went for my nap on monday! Gosh I think I must have got lost down a corridor in the ward for me to miss all that activity going on!!
I've got to leave for a doctors appointment shortly regarding my PMDD - I am telling them that they are putting me on the contraceptive injection to stop my periods. I've had enough of only having 7-10sane days out of each 28. I can't do the emotional rollercoaster and feelings of hopelessness and worthlessness each month any longer. I've HAD IT!!!! (And this is me having a sane rant!!!!)
Anyhoo....just wanted to pop into the main hub of the ward and show my face as I've been hiding the past 48hours....actually I escaped, LOL. After circle on monday night (only shed a few quiet tears this time) I went and stayed at Eoghan's. Today I went from Eoghan's to I've citizens advice, I was there all morning regarding my housing situation and I've got an appointment to see the council about it tomorrow.
Eoghan may not have to be deployed to Afghan in september *jumps for joy* BUT that would only be because he would have accepted a 2year posting to america *selfishly doesn't want him to do either*

As for individual replies and the latest goings on with my fellow inmates, I haven't yet read up on all the posts, that'll have to be put on hold until I return from my GP's this evening. But I'm thinking of you all and sending positive thoughts all of your ways, into every hiding place and corner of the ward.

*group huggles!!!!*

*takes some proplus and prepares for the 30min hobble to the doctors*

*Lends Hayley an arm to hang onto while she hobbles to the Dr's* . You TELL them Dr's what you need , I think it's a perfectly reasonable and sane request *Hugs ya*

*waves madly* anyone about ?
I've also had a letter asking me to contact them about my application for incapacity benefit/ National insurance benefits , it arrived last Friday and said to ring them within 2 days . It's Wednesday now ,I've called 4 times and don't get through , the letter basically wants me to arrange a medical , I am NOT happy about that . I didn't even know I was applying for those benefits :S

ARRGG!!!!

I don't know if I can cope with all this ......

*huggles Mark* thanks for the support. I'm back and now munching on some soup and toast whilst I go back and read through the 8pages of posts I missed. Sorry but I don't have any words of wisdom on the benefits thing, I've got to try and get through to them myself - despite having a medical with them and being signed off until 2014, I've just recieved letter telling me I need to attend a work focused interview!! bloody idiots. *extra huggles for stress they cause us*