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MammaMia 11-04-2010 06:39 PM

It's getting harder. Nobody's around. I fell asleep (was watching tv) and had a really horrible nightmare. Especially the last bit. *rocks and cries*

Wish I could cry IRL.

SoMuchMore 11-04-2010 06:59 PM

*gently holds helen* I wish i had words to make u feel better, I'm sorry about ur nightmare. Nightmares are horrible. *more cuddles*

MammaMia 11-04-2010 07:08 PM

*holds and cuddles* They are horrible. Don't think there's any words to make me feel any better right now. Just need to keep somehow getting through the day.

nicole94 11-04-2010 07:14 PM

*hugs helen* im so sorry hun. i wish i could be there to hold you. x
*hugs laura* im ok thanks. you ok?

Scarletdreamer 11-04-2010 07:20 PM

I spy a Nicole & a Laura!! *cuddles*

Awh Hels, I'm sorry that you're having such a rough day... I really was hoping that today would be a better day than you expected. :( But I guess maybe part self-fulfilling prophecy, part just memories etc. *holds you gently and rocks* You'll be okay, sweetie... the day's getting to be almost over... you'll make it through. ♥

Laura, I think that you should talk to the friend you always talk to, as you put it... because if you don't then you'll just be bottling up how you feel and that isn't healthy. :( I wish I could meet up with you IRL and go out for coffee or summat, I don't know. I just wish that I could help you more. *cuddles*

*cuddles Mark* Well, I hope that the ENT appt goes well. :) "Ear issues" does sound funny, hehe, but I do hope that things go even better than expected (whatever you expect). :) How're you doing today?

*hugs Nicole* How're you doing, love? & how's your pierced tongue? still really sore, or has the pain gone down a bit? :)

*cuddles Oliver* Hope things are going okay... glad that you can post when you get chances. :)

Didn't go to church today, just because. :-/ Well, we had other stuff to do. Not good, I know, since church is where we get our spiritual food (as funny as that sounds), but... oh, I don't know!! We did laundry instead, and I had a decaf sugar-free vanilla latte... sooo good. I haven't had a latte in absolute ages since of the caffeine (caffeine + anxiety = hell!!!), and even though it was decaf, I couldn't tell... it was delicious!!

*sighs*

Am still feeling like ****. Don't know what to do. I did go target shooting, just 14 rounds out of my .45 but it was awesome. :D Lol. I hit the targets (old plastic bottles filled with water) and they exploded, hehe. Target shooting is fun... as long as I'm not out there for too long. Then I just get bored, heh.

So yeh, am at my parents' now, totally ate too much for lunch :( so feel like **** over that too...

But never mind, it doesn't matter anyway. :(

nicole94 11-04-2010 07:27 PM

*hugs april.* tongue still sore lol, but getting better :D i've got a lisp!!!! i cant pronounce 'r' 't' or 's' lol. im really good, get through the rest of today and a bit of tomorrow, then i go to my cousin and have a distraction from SH for a while, and by the time i come back, t would've been 3 weeks since i last SH! :D i'm getting on really well with my sister aswell, we got the bus into oxford and went shopping :D

sorry you're feeling ****. *snuggles*

MammaMia 11-04-2010 07:27 PM

*cuddles Nicole & April tight*

Sorry I'm not really replying to posts, even when addressed to me. I finished my latest book that I was reading yesterday, one bit's really stuck with me. Hmm.

nicole94 11-04-2010 07:33 PM

*squishes helen* have you got anything else you can do to distract you?

Doikers 11-04-2010 07:47 PM

* Hugs fellow ward inhabitants *

nicole94 11-04-2010 08:11 PM

*hugs mark* you ok??

MammaMia 11-04-2010 08:11 PM

Trying but it's not really working. *sniffs* Sorry.

nicole94 11-04-2010 08:14 PM

why're you saying sorry hun? you dont need to apologise. you got any other nice books you can read?? *squishes*

Doikers 11-04-2010 08:18 PM

He Nicole , I'm ok I just feel a bit empty and pointless , I'm glad you are doing so well.

I'm studying my more recent injurys , I want to make more but I'm not going to, not tonight .

I don't know what else to say , like I said I'm empty , empty of feeling , empty of just about everything.

*Hugs Helen*
*Hugs April*
*Hugs Nicole*
*Hugs Laura*
*Hugs everyone I know I've missed , sorry*

nicole94 11-04-2010 08:20 PM

*hugs mark* sorry your not feeling too good. :( hope you do manage to fight the urges and not SI.

Doikers 11-04-2010 08:23 PM

Thanx Nicole :)

nicole94 11-04-2010 08:26 PM

lol. thats ok. x

frenchhorn 11-04-2010 08:35 PM

*cuddles Helen* I'm sorry you had a nightmare, they are horrible, I hope there is something you can do to distract yourself and get you through the day.

*cuddles April* it sounds like target shooting is fun, I'm glad you enjoyed it, sorry your not feeling grat now though, hope you have a good time at your parents though.

*cuddles Nicole* well done on being SH free for 3 weeks and am glad your getting on well with your sister, hope your tongue gets better soon.

*hugs Mark* sorry your feeling so empty, I'm hope you get through tonight without SH, remember you dont need it, you can be strong.

I don't know how I am feeling, a bit strange, because the school we are at for my course is the same as last year, and there are a lot of bad memories from last year and I keep remembering them, but trying to make sure I take away better memories this year.
Spoke to mum on phone earlier, she asks how the playing is going, but she doesnt ask how I am, I don't think she realises how hard this is for me being a 'girl' for a week, also she she asked my sister while on phone if she wanted to speak to me and I overheard my sister say no way, not speaking to that thing. Plus I am feeling pretty trapped, having to respond to she and being in the girls accomadaton block. Thoughts of self harm keep enteringmy head, but trying to keep them a bay, but the music is going ok, its hard work though and my lips are going to be knackered at the end of the concerts.

Doikers 11-04-2010 08:43 PM

*Hugs Oliver* I'm sorry I don't have many words just plenty of hugs :S

jonikd 11-04-2010 08:47 PM

*wonders where Kahlia is when strong flat white is required :)*

*hugs everyone on the ward, and asks how they all are*

Helen, sweetie, I'm thinking of you over here *holds gently until we're through this*

*hugs Nicole* man you're awesome to have on the ward at the moment, thanks for all your positivity, I think a bit of it has worn off on me this morning

*Finds April & Laura and administers many cuddles*

Mark I hope you do ok for the rest of the day/night, its fantatstic that you've made the decision not to SH. Stay strong 'k? *pus arm around Mark's strong shoulders*

*waves at Oliver*

I have to go to work now, so please all stay safe til I get home
xx

MammaMia 11-04-2010 09:31 PM

*cuddles everyone lots and lots*


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