RYL Forums

RYL Forums (https://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/index.php)
-   Veterans Board (https://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/forumdisplay.php?f=34)
-   -   Virtual Psych ward! (https://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum/showthread.php?t=1312)

CrazyHayley 09-09-2010 07:08 PM

journal updated, just finishing munching on my tofu....

*looks around ward for any activity from her fellow wardies*

RYUU 09-09-2010 07:11 PM

* hugs everyone *
I have a song in my head that is triggering to me so am listening to music trying to get rid of it
Feeling unsafe again trying to keep my mind busy

CrazyHayley 09-09-2010 07:14 PM

Hey Reaper - sorry don't know your name, i don't think we've met properly, hi I'm hayley *offers to shake hands* Its annoying at the best of times having a song stuck in your head, but if its triggering you then thats really bad. Good idea to listen to other music to keep your brain busy. Find and use whatever distractions you can to stay safe *huggles*

*toddles out to the smoking shelter to wash dinner down with a fag!*

risenfromperdition 09-09-2010 07:14 PM

hayley :)
<3

*cuddles april*
def have lunch felicia

im so tiiiiired =[

Doikers 09-09-2010 07:19 PM

*Hugs Hayely , Felicia , Reaper, April , Heather , Crimson*

I'm at my parents , am on their Lappy .

Please stay safe my fellow wardies :)

CrazyHayley 09-09-2010 07:24 PM

Hey Katie *huggle* only seen your post since I finished my fag. Not sure what time zone you're in, but perhaps have an early night if you're so tired?

*huggles Mark* Glad that you can still get online when you're at your parents. We'll all try and stay safe - you try and stay safe too in return please!

Right time for me to put my selfishness aside and pack up ludwig and his tasty wires so that Reginald can come out and play. TTFN!

risenfromperdition 09-09-2010 07:39 PM

's heather :P haha.
and its only 2:30pm here lol
byeee

Doikers 09-09-2010 07:42 PM

Quote:

We'll all try and stay safe - you try and stay safe too in return please!
It's a deal Hayley , Enjoy your time with Reggie.

PoisonedApple 09-09-2010 08:37 PM

Aww I didn't get back till after Hayley wandered off?
Yep it's Crimson... Long story but yeah I changed my user name. :)
Have fun with Reggie.

one_step_closer 09-09-2010 08:53 PM

Hello everyone.

I had a day out in Edinburgh with my brother because it's his birthday. Now i'm back home and feeling lonely. I can't be bothered with life any more.

Doikers 09-09-2010 09:18 PM

*Hugs Lindsay* I's sorry you cant be bothered with life , I know that feeling all too well :S I hope you feel better in yourself soon and I also hope you had a good time with your brother in Edinburgh.

shadowedsoul 09-09-2010 09:19 PM

Cuddles all. Hmm at my second job now, and I stupidly said yes to working 6pm to 6 am. Really wish I didn't as I really want to kill someoe allready, and self harm there's no were to run. Curls up and cries.

Doikers 09-09-2010 09:29 PM

*Hugs Jill* Please take care of yourself Jill.

one_step_closer 09-09-2010 09:45 PM

Jill, you can get through this safely. *hugs*

SparkleKitten 09-09-2010 10:40 PM

So today sucked, doctor doubled my meds, so I'm on highest dose, feel so trippy. Ate too much too so I'm all bloated. Ultrasound shows nothing so I have to go see a specialist in about 6 weeks time, on a waiting list. Meh. *cuddles all*

MammaMia 09-09-2010 11:23 PM

*hugs everybody*

SparkleKitten 09-09-2010 11:46 PM

Stressed.

Meds increased so I feel pretty dopey again, takes about a week to settle. My fiance is a little annoyed that he can't just talk about anything or watch anything with me because a lot of things I can't deal with mentally right now.

So instead of talking this out yet again I'm going to bed. Night wardies *hugs*

SoMuchMore 10-09-2010 12:00 AM

*glomps on helen b/c I spy you!*

*hugs everyone else* again, sorry. one of these days i will have something called time..

Just wanted to check in and say hi. Busy busy busy as you all know. Off to work now until 1am.. then more homework. who needs sleep? :-P

shadowedsoul 10-09-2010 12:07 AM

Cuddles all. Hmm this night sucks. Want to harm badly and can't, I'm sitting on the floor at work cup of coffee next to me, trying to work out floor plans that make no sence. And this needs to be done tonight, with my manger yelling at me to get a move on. Fu@k I just want to curl up and hide.

Kahlia1981 10-09-2010 02:11 AM

*cuddles everybody*

Hayley - *glomps* Good to see you. I hope that Reggie doesn't eat all of your walls and that Ludwig and his wires remain safe.

Still going on the antibiotic (obviously). Didn't sleep much last night and had to have ventolin through my spacer last night. My housemate could hear me breathing and I kept having coughing fits. Hopefully this chest infection will clear with the 5 days on the prednisone (steroid - on day 2) and the full course of antibiotics. *sigh*

So.damn.over.it.all.

taz35 10-09-2010 02:34 AM

I'm gonna try to do individuals here, but if I left you out... tell me. And I'll respond, I promise :)

*hugs Mark* I'm with you on the hating waiting... but, I'd rather be the one waiting for someone than having someone wait for me... that make sense? :S

*hugs April* Sorry you've fallen back into a depression *gives soft plushie*

*hugs Felicia* hope you managed to keep your sanity with that hectic day :)

*hugs Jill* Sometimes you need to let go of that fake smile... but I know what you mean. Hope you're staying safe <3

*hugs Crimson*

*hugs Hayley*

*hugs Laura*

*hugs Kahlia* Don't give up :) We're all here to support you.

*hugs Lindsay* Stay safe hun, PM me if you need to talk <3

*hugs Hels* How are you doing??? Is that sickness all gone yet? :)

*hugs Sarah*

*hugs Reaper*

*hugs Heather*

Sorry they were so crap... but I tried =/

The following content has been hidden - Reason : Stupid rambles.
To those who asked - I don't know... the meds are just really messing with my head. For starters, I keep hearing random noises... like my name being called, or just stuff that nobody else is hearing. I've just stopped mentioning it to people because they look at me like I'm insane. And plus when I take the 2 antipsychotics in the morning like I'm prescribed, they make me feel really drowsy and just overall "out of it" for the next few hours. It's like I have no emotion during that time, which just depresses/angers me and I want to SI to prove to myself I'm still here, still living. And then my mind is still rattled over how I've never gotten stitches for my SI, or never been hospitalized, which is a GOOD thing, right? But I can't convince myself of that, and it just keeps going through my mind that
it's not serious enough, that right now I'm not worthy of getting help... and it only makes me want to SI worse to prove them all wrong. It's really messed up.

Sorry for rambling... probably should have put that in my r/v. I'll just stick it in a hide box instead.

misskitty112 10-09-2010 03:53 AM

My sanity is barely intact. I about lost it during the movie screening and discussion and I harmed after... ****.

On the bright side, I got my News Reporting quiz back, and I aced it. =)

taz35 10-09-2010 04:28 AM

*tosses confetti in the air*

Congrats on acing it :)

shadowedsoul 10-09-2010 08:05 AM

Cuddles all.Hmm last night sucked so much, so many things going wrong. Erm eneed up harming myself, really glad I had a dark t shirt on and no bey saw. Heading home now to bed, so tired.

xxjuliexx 10-09-2010 09:17 AM

boo...
evening how r u all

Doikers 10-09-2010 09:33 AM

I'm sorry so many of us are struggling *Super supporting hugs to you all*

Sorry about no individuals .

Also JULIE !! :) How have you been ?

xxjuliexx 10-09-2010 09:51 AM

i'm....hmmmm how am i?
*shrugs* dunno
wanna say the F word but i wont

CrazyHayley 10-09-2010 12:07 PM

ooh i'm online doing this via my wii and its remote so i'm a tad slow, but this way reggie can be out at the same time.

heather - sorry i had it in my head your name was katie, whoops!

this is to hard to do individuals, sorry as it seems your all having a rough time of it. just remember the ward motto "IT CAN'T RAIN ALL THE TIME"

*group huggle for those who want to join in*

CrazyHayley 10-09-2010 12:10 PM

ooh i spy an april! *huggle*

*continues scuba diving on her wii*

Kahlia1981 10-09-2010 12:42 PM

*huggles all*

Spent from about 1500 hours until 2100 hours today at the hospital with my housemate ... now ready to crash ... So damn over it.

Doikers 10-09-2010 01:15 PM

*Hugs Crimson* Is your flatmate okay ?

*Hugs Hayley*

one_step_closer 10-09-2010 01:29 PM

*hugs everyone*

RYUU 10-09-2010 01:31 PM

* hugs everyone *

Feeling unsafe am home alone at the moment my husband gone to the cinema to see a film he will be gone for a few hours and i cant contact him by phone There are 2 weeks worth of pills here i want to take them also there is my tools i want to use them trying to focus on something else
but i cant seem to get my mind of it

one_step_closer 10-09-2010 02:37 PM

What would taking the pills or harming yourself give you?

RYUU 10-09-2010 03:42 PM

They would give me nothing My husband is on his way home

shadowedsoul 10-09-2010 05:23 PM

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!. curls up and cries.

nicole94 10-09-2010 05:33 PM

*hugs everyone*

MammaMia 10-09-2010 06:07 PM

*hugs everybody*

Does anyone want my sickness that keeps coming back & my awful awful awful dry skin too? :|

one_step_closer 10-09-2010 06:24 PM

*hugs everyone*

Helen, that sounds horrible. Have you been to your doctor about it?

risenfromperdition 10-09-2010 06:25 PM

its kay hayley :P i knew who you were talking about so all good

ergh lunch time :/ had too much for breakfast and not wanna eat lunch :s
oh and apparently writing on my arm isnt something a 21 year old does/ 'will be ostracized for it and no one will wanna hire you' ... so they wont ostracize/not wanna hire me more if i has as many scars as want there? and even though i SAID that it helped me... got told that a)'no it doesnt' and b)'you just hafta teach yourself not to cut like you taught yourself how to..' and it doesnt do anything except mess up body...

uh 1)you dont ********* know anything about this
2)obviously it helps some if its a fcking addiction
3)how the hell do you know what helps me and what doesnt?! are you in my head? no? didnt think so.
4)you wonder why i dont wanna talk to you... uh because you discount what i say AND say that i act like im 12 for crying when frustrated.... GAH.
and since i didnt wash it off cuz i knew it helped and was so urgey last night im not allowed to use the computer til october 1st... so will only be able to get on when im at school... so sorry in advance for lack of individuals

*goes off to scream into pillow*

risenfromperdition 10-09-2010 06:26 PM

/ JULIE!!!!!!!!!! =] message me if you wanna love you

MammaMia 10-09-2010 06:51 PM

Lindsay, no I haven't. Been trying to clear it up with creams. But as I was so poorly last week, I didn't really use any, so trying to get back into using them, but it's being a nightmare :( It was almost all gone on my face aswell.

Doikers 10-09-2010 07:11 PM

*Hugs Heather* I'm sorry your family doesn't understand and are making things hard for you , I write on myself too .

*Hugs Helen* That sounds horrible ,I hope it clears up well

shadowedsoul 10-09-2010 07:20 PM

Loves how messed up life has gotten. Lol hmm I wondering somone can drive any faster. And if I need 2 knee caps, because I will be lucky if I have any after this. =(

misskitty112 10-09-2010 07:26 PM

*hugs everyone*
I'm so tired, and confused, and my head keeps telling me to do stuff...

And I have lots of work, oh, and btw, if any of you know of any good essay topics on Chaucer's Canterbury Tales, I would be super happy to take ideas. :)

Doikers 10-09-2010 07:34 PM

*Hugs Jill* Whats going on ? are you safe?

*Hugs Felicia* Try not to do anything today :S I am trying not to do anything whilst at my parents so I know it's hard . But we CAN do it.
Sorry I don't know much about the canterbury tales:S

MammaMia 10-09-2010 07:39 PM

Thanks Mark.

Why are some people so annoying? >_<

risenfromperdition 10-09-2010 07:41 PM

*hugs mark* :)

misskitty112 10-09-2010 07:42 PM

Thanks, Mark. No pressure, I don't know a whole lot about Chaucer either. lol. It's just gonna be the easiest out of my readings to do my midterm essay on.
I hope you're okay at your parents. *hugs*

SparkleKitten 10-09-2010 07:46 PM

*hugs everyone*

double dose meds day 2 sucks. Had a really rough morning so now my fiance is looking after all my meds just in case, not feeling too bad now but things just really suck right now. :(


All times are GMT +1. The time now is 02:15 PM.

Powered by vBulletin® Version 3.6.4
Copyright ©2000 - 2021, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.