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wolfos3d 12-06-2010 11:43 AM

We seem to be living be living very similar lives Mark. *hugs*

I desperately want to just throw in the towel right now.

*hugs to everyone* Sorry, I'm being horribly self centred today.

Kahlia1981 12-06-2010 12:33 PM

*hugs/waves at all wardies*

Getting ready for bed as it's been a long and tiring day. We did two dump runs getting rid of all the trash that's been sitting downstairs since we moved in. My computer has been playing silly buggers and continuously freezing up for no obvious reason. Getting really sick of it. *sigh*

Thinking of you all and trying to keep up with where you all are at.

one_step_closer 12-06-2010 12:37 PM

My computer's playing up too Kahlia. It keeps switching off. Damn technology!

Doikers 12-06-2010 12:41 PM

*Hugs Jessica* You're not being self centred. That's what the ward exists for to offer support and empathy .

*Hugs Kahlia* I bet you are tired out from moving all that rubbish.

*Hugs Kahlias and Lindsays Computers * Maybe they need hugs too :)

Doikers 12-06-2010 01:13 PM

*Spots Helen and Hugs *
Did you enjoy Leona Lewis? Did I already ask that . sorry if so , I hope you had a great time :D

MammaMia 12-06-2010 01:14 PM

*hugs everyone*

Been going all quiet again lol. Had a bad night last night, oh wells, least it's out of the way now =]

Cut my elbow open earlier, that was ****ing scary, luckily managed to sort it, was about to go to hospital :/ Really sore now =[

Can we roll to October please?? I want go see my best friend already :( Oh & maybe next Saturday too, so will be on holiday YAY!

MammaMia 12-06-2010 01:15 PM


Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2348302)
*Spots Helen and Hugs *
Did you enjoy Leona Lewis? Did I already ask that . sorry if so , I hope you had a great time :D

Don't think you did, I think you may have posted to tell me to have a good time? :) *hugs Mark lots* I did enjoy it very much so. :hop:

CrazyHayley 12-06-2010 01:38 PM

*pops in to spread some love and positivity*

I've got a game of giant floor snakes and ladders if anyone wants to join in?!
Hopefully Reggie won't eat the counters.....ooh must keep puppy sinclair away from the visiting rabbit!!!

Doikers 12-06-2010 04:28 PM

*Huggles Hayley* * Wants love and positivity*

shadowedsoul 12-06-2010 05:57 PM

man today has been such I long day, so much for it not
being buzy because of rockness* rolls eyes*. Was so glad
when 5 came around, now heading home all I want to
do is slleep but the pain in my neck and shoulder, screaming kids
on the train are stopping me.Cuddles everbody, then
carefully curls up in corner for a nap.

Doikers 12-06-2010 06:21 PM

*Hugs shadowedsoul and gives soft snuggly earmuffs to block out the noise*

Scarletdreamer 12-06-2010 08:32 PM

quietish today... wonder why.

i feel like rubbish.

updated r/v.

*hides in the warren* :'(

SoMuchMore 12-06-2010 08:38 PM

*hugs mark, kahlia, hayley, april, helen, jill, taz, heather, lindsay, and everyone i'm forgetting*

Sorry for lack of individual replies.. just popping in to say hi and offer hugs to everyone. Hope you are all staying safe/okay.

jonikd 12-06-2010 09:16 PM

*holds April tight* I read your rv sweet and I do totally understand what you're saying, I'm in the same space at the moment but it certainly hasn't been that way for many many years and things definately can and will be better for you OK? Keep your faith and try and take one nice thing out of each day. You'll get there hun, I believe in you.

Helen I'm VERY jealous of you going to see Leona Lewis! I got you is a song that is pretty much getting me through some tough times right now, I have a friend IRL who 'has got me' and without her I'd be more of a wreck than I am!

Thanks for popping in to say hi Laura, sometimes that's just as nice as individual replies and important for us to see you *cuddles*

Mark, hope your day goes ok, although I suspect it might be night time! I still haven't gotten any better at these time differences after all the months I've been coming here *blushes*

Hugs Kahlia, Shadowedsoul, Taz, Lindsay, Hayley and others who haven't popped in since I was last here leaving JK hugs.

I am going to launch myself out of bed and try to get some exercise between the rain showers, then have filled my day with visiting friends in an attempt to keep myself out of trouble, which kinda failed yesterday but today is a new day.

risenfromperdition 12-06-2010 09:30 PM


Originally Posted by taz35 (Post 2348081)
*hugs Heather* I love my TWLOHA shirt :D But I feel like a huge hypocrite whenever I wear it... ><

heh hence the irony-ness.

just one of teh pics i took :P

Doikers 12-06-2010 09:35 PM

*Hugs April* I read your R/V thread and it makes total sense to me , it could have been me that wrote it .

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs JK*

Maybe OD trigger......

I took an unadvisable but safe ammount of anti-pyhcotics so I can sleep tonight , I hope they work ,it's hot which doesn't help sleep either . Not sleeping PLUS a Sinking depression = no fun at all , I'll catch up with my wardmates tommorow . I hope I am allowed to say what I said about the meds and that it doesn't trigger anyone. I'll stick A warning up

jonikd 12-06-2010 09:38 PM

*tucks Mark in* I hope you sleep hun, and that you feel ok tomorrow.

Heather, your photo = awesome and uplifting and made me smile. Thanks ;)

risenfromperdition 12-06-2010 09:40 PM

welcomee :)
i love butterflys ^.^

right... out to dinner soon... back later.

anarchistl0ve 12-06-2010 10:35 PM

Pretty butterfly

Scarletdreamer 12-06-2010 10:58 PM

mark, thanks for the comment on my r/v. i'm glad that it made sense to you... kind of... but kind of not. i'm sure you understand what i mean by that, heh... i'm sure a lot of us do!! i hope that you manage to get some sleep, and no, you didn't trigger me at all by that... just please, please, please don't get in the habit of using extra pills to sleep. :( *cuddles*

laura, sweetie, how are you doing? *cuddles* i am a bit worried about you, and hels too.

hels *cuddles* is your elbow okay? i hope so... can only imagine how painful that must be. :( and i'm glad you enjoyed the leona lewis concert a lot... although i've never heard of her. hehe.

becca, to answer your question that you posed a few pages back, whilst i'm not a binge eater, i do have tendencies to "mini-binge" - i've got ednos-r but the urges tend toward bulimia at times. ughhh. :( so i can kind of feel your pain, as the case may be.

jk, good to see you again... *cuddles* how have you been doing lately? not so good, i take it? :( thanks for reading my r/v thread... hopefully none of it was triggering for you.

heather, love, that's a gorgeous photo. *cuddles* thanks so much for sharing, i think we should hang it up on the wall, what do you guys think? :D hehe... how are you doing? and you're not fat either. although i do know that it's hard to believe that, especially coming from people you don't know irl.

i'm so exhausted... and i cut... not badly... but still, couldn't focus on the relief it brought because i had to focus on not letting it get too bad. damnit!!

children's health fair was today... hate kids so it was pretty ick... and i was standing up in the heat for most of it. that sucked. i think i'm dehydrated but i don't know for sure. :-S

also, i can't stop eating!! i mean, i can and have, but then i go back for something more an hour or so later. i haven't eaten a ton yet but it is definitely more than usual... probably the same issue that people with anorexia nervosa face... i've known two girls that have begun to eat uncontrollably after awhile of not eating... so i think that's what's going on with me. :-/ except i was only restricting, not cutting food out entirely. gahhh!! why does my life have to be so ****ed up? :'(

*hides in the warren*

anarchistl0ve 12-06-2010 11:20 PM

*huggles * I hate the disorder I wish the dr never told me what was wrong with me had a name but a tiny, tiny part is glad to know. We can fight this

Scarletdreamer 13-06-2010 12:04 AM

*huggles back* eating disorders are truly horrific things. :( i hate that... i'm struggling with it now and it sucks. jarrod just asked me when i'm going to start drinking enough water so i can exercise, as it's really warm here (88'F today in the shade)... and i don't know. i really don't. it's so hard for me to drink enough water... oh i don't know, sorry, am rambling/ranting and this should probably go in my r/v thread. :(

i feel like ****. :'(

risenfromperdition 13-06-2010 12:07 AM

*snuggles april*

but but if im not how come mum and dad say so and stoopid clothes is all tight and stupidly big sizes :/

im exhausted :(
mum said cant go pride [oh well- she wont be home that week =p] but dunno why she not want me to o_O

MammaMia 13-06-2010 01:32 AM


Originally Posted by jonikd (Post 2349027)
Helen I'm VERY jealous of you going to see Leona Lewis! I got you is a song that is pretty much getting me through some tough times right now, I have a friend IRL who 'has got me' and without her I'd be more of a wreck than I am!

Awww bless you JK. I love her so much, have ever since I saw her on X Factor (where she got her record deal) and yeah. I love 'I got you' aswell, makes me think of one of my best friends, bit like for you :) I'd be more of a wreck than I am without her, well I believe I'd be dead (as would she) :(


Originally Posted by Scarletdreamer (Post 2349230)
hels *cuddles* is your elbow okay? i hope so... can only imagine how painful that must be. :( and i'm glad you enjoyed the leona lewis concert a lot... although i've never heard of her. hehe.

No, it's very very very sore. I just took the plaster off because it was really annoying me. So now everything's irritating it and making it even more sore. FML! If it was my ipod that did this as I suspected, don't understand how it's done such a big & bit deep and stuff. Meh. :O How can you never have heard of her? She's HUGE in USA!!!! Where have you been? :p *cuddles tight*

Not sure if I mentioned that I had a doctor's appointment on Friday? Went okay, have been referred back to mental health clinic (not happy about that at all) to see their eating disorders team. Also she's making sure they phone me to sort the appointment rather than send a letter. Which massively helps. Plus sending what I wrote her to them aswell. So hoping they hurry up. But am so scared they won't believe me, they always send me away saying that I'm 'fine' even though sometimes have earlier said that I'm not. Hmm. I swore to myself after last time I went (a lot of bad stuff happened) that I would NEVER go back to that clinic. It's a total shithole. I know mh services aren't exactly great but they take the biscuit. Ugh. Roll on my holiday, six more days.

SoMuchMore 13-06-2010 01:47 AM

*hugs helen* Im sorry about your elbow.. but i'm super glad that you had fun at Leona Lewis! I don't remember you saying that you had a doctors appt, but if you did say it, sorry i missed wishing you luck. Maybe the mh services will be helpful this time. I hope that they dont just send you away telling you that you are fine, that would be very discouraging i would think.

*hugs april* Wish i had some words for you.. Eating stuff is such a pain sometimes. :-/ hope you are alright. I'm worried about you too.

*hugs heather* pretty picture! I'm sorry that your parents give you such a hard time. You don't deserve that. You're beautiful.

*hugs mark, JK, and becca* hope you are all alright.

I'm so tired of my thoughts going around and round. *sigh* i should tell my friend, he'll be pissed if he finds out how much i've been struggling... but i don't want to worry him unnecessarily. I havent even heard from him in weeks anyway, so maybe he wont be mad. I don't know.

*hides away*

frenchhorn 13-06-2010 01:56 AM

****, why cant I be a proper guy, cant take this much longer
*hides in a deep dark corner*

MammaMia 13-06-2010 01:56 AM

It was on Friday, so yeah, you can wish me luck for Friday coming though :p I don't think I did mention it after all. She said I could see her again then aswell. So going to, need to dicuss my iron pills, just cannot take them. But I obviously need to get my iron levels up because of my anaemia and everything. I hope they don't send me away with 'I'm fine' either. It is awfully discouraging & very very upsetting & hurtful & annoying. I could rant for hours about it & did last night (well friday night) with one of my best friends. *hugs Laura lots*

Know how you feel with the thoughts thing hun, got that problem myself, even if I daren't properly admit it.

Oliver, what's wrong?

frenchhorn 13-06-2010 02:08 AM

sorry, sorry, should be more helpful, shoudlnt moan should be able to deal with it, but cant its too much too far, it shouldnt happen, i hate this its all wrong, sorry being useless and selfish and taking up space
*will just hide in an invisible corner*

risenfromperdition 13-06-2010 02:27 AM

*offers hug to oliver*

you're not beign useless or selfish or anything liek that. pm me if you wanna chat. i dont mind listening even if i dont have advice <3

SoMuchMore 13-06-2010 03:02 AM

*hugs oliver* you are NOT useless or just taking up space. You know that you are always free to vent away in here, its what we are here for.

*hugs heather* how is your evening going?

*hugs helen* yea getting your iron levels under control is very important, i hope that gets sorted out for you soon. And I'll be sure to say good luck for next Friday :-P

risenfromperdition 13-06-2010 03:09 AM

isfine. howre you?

Kahlia1981 13-06-2010 03:40 AM

*huggles/waves at all*

Sorry to hear so many of us are struggling right now. Wish that I could make us feel better. :-(

My computer keeps freezing. We looked up the error it was throwing up and applied a patch given my M$. Not meant for the SP type I'm running, but we figured what the hell. The beast Mk2 hasn't frozen today, so maybe all is good? I also have been checking my email online instead of with email clients because both the freezing only started when I tried Outlook (2007) and the Windows Live Mail. Before that - I was using Mozilla Thunderbird - no probs. Meh.

Sorry, will get off the computer annoyances.

Submitted another assessment just before. Just one subject left to go in Stage 2. Not bad considering I did absolutely nothing on study yesterday.

Mood has crapped out. Meh.

*leaves hugs and safe care packages for all and wanders off into the garden*

risenfromperdition 13-06-2010 03:44 AM

*takes care package and thanks*

:) sowwy your mood's crap =[

wolfos3d 13-06-2010 05:37 AM

*hugs and fuzzy socks to everyone*
I wish I had the attention span to reply to you all individually. I can't sit still for more then a couple of minutes most of the time. I've gotten up twice while typing this.

I did manage to sit down long enough to get a few things off my chest though. Here's the r/v thread I've started if anyone wants to read it:

anarchistl0ve 13-06-2010 06:54 AM

*takes a care pacakge and opens it finds a silly quoute some stickers and a pocket sized plush*

Some days I wish didnt have the binge eating disorder but something else dont know what but just something that didnt make me a fat cow

risenfromperdition 13-06-2010 06:59 AM

*snuggles with if want* [always figure will make sure cuz yeh] wish could help but am useless atm but here if wanna chat :)

anarchistl0ve 13-06-2010 07:27 AM

*snuggles back feeling a bit sleepy* I think it is nite, nite time for Becca its 2:30am

risenfromperdition 13-06-2010 07:42 AM

o_O i so didnt know michigan was est. lol
good idea, i should go to bed too =p

xxjuliexx 13-06-2010 08:32 AM

*sits and crys and crys* i want my mummy

Doikers 13-06-2010 10:34 AM

*Finds in the warren and Hugs April*
*Hugs Becca*
*Hugs Heather*
*Hugs Helen* Where are you going on your hols?
*Hugs Laura*
*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Kahlia*
*Hugs Jessica*
*Hugs Becca*
*Hugs Julie*

Doikers 13-06-2010 12:03 PM

Wolf0s (Jessica ?) I read you R/V thread , Just to let you know I'm thinking of you , Bad at the advice right now sorry *Hugs*

wolfos3d 13-06-2010 12:08 PM

Yep, it's Jessica.
Thanks Mark. *hugs* That's more then enough. :)

Scarletdreamer 13-06-2010 12:20 PM

sorry, there have been a lot of posts, kind of, since i was last on... only a page but right now that seems overwhelming. :(

jess, love, i read your r/v, and i wish i could say something that would help. all of us here care about you and would be devastated if anything happened to you, even though we're just getting to know you. please keep hanging on... and maybe try to find some professional help? because it is so hard to get out of this pit by ourselves. *cuddles if that's okay?*

mark, how are you doing today? *cuddles*

hels, i hope that the doctor's appt goes well... if you don't mind me asking, why can't you take your iron pills? :-S i'm worried about you, love. please try and take care of yourself. *cuddles* and yes, where are you going on holiday? i don't recall you mentioning. :) do enjoy, though... :)

i'm exhausted today... and jarrod and i, well, i might write a little about that in my r/v but it's *adulty* stuff... so maybe not. i don't know. all i know is that we're both frustrated, he got angry with himself, and now i'm worried about him on top of all of this other crap we've got to deal with. :(

i just want to hide away forever... am so sick of this life, i really am... :'(

*hides in the warren in a dark dark place*

MammaMia 13-06-2010 12:44 PM


Originally Posted by Scarletdreamer (Post 2349729)
hels, i hope that the doctor's appt goes well... if you don't mind me asking, why can't you take your iron pills? :-S i'm worried about you, love. please try and take care of yourself. *cuddles* and yes, where are you going on holiday? i don't recall you mentioning. :) do enjoy, though... :)

Thanks April :) I can't take them because everytime I take painkillers, I gag, if I try sallow, it just makes me gag and forces it back up before it even goes down =[ Plus just the thought of taking them makes me gag, so I stand no chance. Only reason I'm able to take the pill is because it's really really tiny. Although have gagged couple times with that but got them down. Why you worried about me honey?? I'm going to a particular place in Devon (it's in England) :)

Doikers 13-06-2010 01:01 PM

I'm Triigered , too triggered , I've tried a nap was only in bed for 2 minutes m y mind raced too much so I've tried WoW and I can't get "into" it , I badly need a distraction of I WILL cut ,:( , I feel depressed and was on the phone earlier and my Mum AGAIN asked what I was having for dinner ! FFS! she keeps on at me , I'm 29 , I live alone , she can't control what I EAT! ****! , sorry that makes me so arrgg!!

wolfos3d 13-06-2010 01:04 PM

Cuddles are really good right now April. *hugs* I'm going to make an appointment with my GP for next week. I'm really at a loss with what else I can do. I'm just trying to keep myself occupied until then.

one_step_closer 13-06-2010 04:48 PM

My Dad died today. :crying:

shadowedsoul 13-06-2010 04:57 PM

Argh!!!! Iam loosing the will to live, my shoulder hurt
and I want to cut really badly. Today just sucks I just
want to curl up and cry. Sorry

Kitkat :) 13-06-2010 04:59 PM

*crawls into the warren*
How's everyone?

Kitkat :) 13-06-2010 05:00 PM

*hugs OneStepCloser tightly*

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