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horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 08:29 PM

*floats down some independant hugs for you*
..thankyou..just thank you.

horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 08:41 PM

Thanks for the offer but I'm not in a majorly hugging mood, I'll keep the helium balloon though. Sorry you're not feeling so good either. Sorry if I sounded off in my other post, i don't know how to do the medium bit right now. I feel like i'm mentally twisting inside over odd things and I can't understand the size of the reaction against the size of the problem.

1ofmany 27-07-2008 08:56 PM

wow balloons are here now (i am back). We all react to things differently and what seems small to one person can be huge to others.

horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 09:02 PM

hi 1ofmany *floats a balloon over to you, a sparkly one*

I think I'm OK. I think I've realised it's to do with emotions. I'm still a novice where emotions are concerned... I think... I think I have a crush on someone :-s

1ofmany 27-07-2008 09:03 PM

I still feel like novice with emotion...well i cant deal with them anyway (my own that is).
Aww well thats good isnt it?

horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 09:13 PM

I have no idea. It doesn't feel good, it feels horrible. Its confusing and ugly and potentially destructive. It's like a chance for the one person in my life I care about to hurt me, purely because I stupidly allowed myself to start caring about them. I can't seem to undo this. I don't understand how this is a requirement to being human :(

1ofmany 27-07-2008 09:15 PM

So your worried from the start that the person will hurt you?
Being in a relationship (if this is what you mean) isnt a requirment to being human.

horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 09:27 PM

(I'm borderline and) I tend to over idealise certain people.. I'm worried because I'm almost sure I'm just another person to them, whereas they are becoming the centre of my world at a fast pace. They can crush me with a word without knowing it, and often do. I think this is normal for a crush? But no, I meant why is the feeling of this towards another person even possible. I shouldnt feel anything towards this person, nor any other. I've been "dating" someone for a month, but they have just gone home from uni miles away, and I don't care much for them anymore and not entirely sure why I even dated them, we barely talk but I'm meant to be still dating them. I do not understand any of this situation.

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 09:31 PM

relationships are indeed complex for borderlines, sucks to be right right now i am feeling needy with my cureent fella, and still needing to SI

1ofmany 27-07-2008 09:33 PM

Sounds like the one your dating you dont have strong feelings for...as for the other person and the feeling....I get that with my best friends, they can say somthing and it will cause my world to crumble but they wont realise it...
Sorry i am not much help

horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 09:34 PM

*offers hugs should you want them* :(
Also, it's ok, I don't expect answers.. I just needed to ramble I guess.

horizon_surfer 27-07-2008 09:42 PM

*offers supportive hugs to mors should he want them*

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 09:48 PM

hi mors hun *hugs n snuggles* can listen if you need to vent?

Detour. Derail 27-07-2008 09:56 PM

*Storms in and throws herself down in a heap*

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 10:00 PM

whats up voice?

Detour. Derail 27-07-2008 10:19 PM

I just hate being so full of anger....
I'm only angry because I get shouted at when I cry....
plus...I feel like I have to hide ALL my scars out of "respect" for my family....so I had some big thick dressing gown on this morning and I was so hot and I thought "this is stupid"

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 10:22 PM

*hugs* i know that feeling and it's not right, if you feel comfortable with your scars then you should be able to be comfortable rather than soooo hot! and you definately should'nt get shouted at for crying!

Detour. Derail 27-07-2008 10:26 PM

I do though :/
"Turn those ****ing crocodile tears off alexx"
yeah..has she ever considered that I might ACTUALLY be feeling upset...
*Sigh*
*curls up in a tight ball*

effervescence 27-07-2008 10:30 PM

poor alexx :( i dont like your mother.

i feel like crap today. like actually physically sick. but i have to go to my lectures. LAME.

Jetforce 27-07-2008 10:32 PM

*cuddles alexx and chloe*

Hope u guys feel better soon xxx

Yeah, i got lectures too chloe ughhh....

1ofmany 27-07-2008 10:36 PM

Delated Cos I Did It Twice Like A ****

1ofmany 27-07-2008 10:41 PM

I finaly have a day off tomorrow. No one i know wants to spend it with me. I think my parents are home too so i will end up just walking for hours. I wish the libary was open on mondays so i could go and escape into other worlds.

1ofmany 27-07-2008 10:42 PM

****s Sake Sorry About The Double Godamn Stupid Idot.

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 10:44 PM

your ok don't worry, the librairy is great for escape!

1ofmany 27-07-2008 10:47 PM

I know but cos of summer work and my normal weekend job i can hardly ever get there, and if i do its usualy just to swap books.
Hurts bad right now ive got myself wond up.

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 10:49 PM

i wish i could help sorry i am crap tonight

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 10:53 PM

*takes sharp object off mors*

1ofmany 27-07-2008 10:54 PM

Sharp objects cant exist in this ward due to its meta safety field.

Its ok i am crap too, I just feel like i have no where to go right now.

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 10:54 PM

*picks up blanket n snuggles up in corner next to mors*

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 10:55 PM

i feel the same, nothing feels right

BoundNoMore 27-07-2008 10:57 PM

*hugs Chloe, Alex, Jetforce, Diamond, 1ofmany, Jeff... and anybody else that I forgot to mention that I haven't seen since I left take my nap*

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 10:59 PM

*rock moan,rock rock moan* did i get it?
i didn't take it away i am just holding it.
i feel like a piece of crap tonight i just want to hurt myself make it go away!

Detour. Derail 27-07-2008 11:00 PM

*cuddlecuddlecuddle*

My mum took my cushoins away...
I need my cushions...to sleep :(
coz im a pathetic ****

1ofmany 27-07-2008 11:00 PM

it will stay but just be changed unable to cause harm.

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 11:00 PM

*hugs bound* how was your nap?

BoundNoMore 27-07-2008 11:02 PM

*hugs her daddy and joins him in his cell*
you don't mind... do you?

BoundNoMore 27-07-2008 11:05 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Voice Of Reason (Post 957848)

My mum took my cushoins away...

why did she take them?

Quote:

Originally Posted by Diamond n00b (Post 957854)
*hugs bound* how was your nap?

it was ok...for a little while... until the nightmares started and wouldn't stop :crying:

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 11:11 PM

awww you ok now hun?

blue_cloud 27-07-2008 11:14 PM

*screams*

1ofmany 27-07-2008 11:14 PM

*sits on the floor*

BoundNoMore 27-07-2008 11:24 PM

*rocks and sucks her thumb*

Casper_Fading 27-07-2008 11:27 PM

8curls up* shhhh i'm hding fromt he world.

Detour. Derail 27-07-2008 11:27 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Bound by Thoughts (Post 957874)
why did she take them?

She just decided they didnt "look right in my room anymore"
but I NEED them to sleep...
coz i line them up and sleep next to them...then I dont feel like im sleeping alone...and it helps everything :'(

BoundNoMore 27-07-2008 11:31 PM

*tosses Jess an invisibility cape to hide under*

*buys Alexx a new (better squishier) body pillow ;-)

Casper_Fading 27-07-2008 11:33 PM

waha! invisibility cape. drapes over self and disappears. very cool. :D

1ofmany 27-07-2008 11:33 PM

I want to sleep so i can dream a great time with my friends, but cos i want it so bad i wont be able to for while...then the chances are it will be a night mare instead.

1ofmany 27-07-2008 11:34 PM

*puts a velvet rope in frount of jess so no one stands on her by accident*

BoundNoMore 27-07-2008 11:35 PM

*hugs 1ofmany*
ain't that always how it is?
ya want something so bad and ya don' get it...
until ya don't want it? lol

Casper_Fading 27-07-2008 11:35 PM

*sends many a pm syaing thankyou*

:)

BoundNoMore 27-07-2008 11:39 PM

*bangs head*
I'm a ditz...
I don't think... "invisibilty can = getting squished ><
me sorry jess


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