*Hugs Kitty* Awwh Hun I'm sorry you feel horrible , I hope you sleep well and wake up tomorrow feeling a bit better , Do you have a date to meet your Dr?

*Spots and Squishes JK* How are you JK?

January 3rd. And I don't see my counselor again until January 13th.

She just...she won't leave me alone. Music doesn't help...she is everywhere. I see and hear her everywhere I go and she won't go away. I don't know how much longer I can take this...

-hugs mark again-

hey mark, I'm OK, still cutting and still a bit screwed up but generally ok. Can't believe Xmas is nearly here. We finally got an offer on our house that my ex and I accepted today, so hopefully heading for the end with him and can move on. Tough times ahead but at least the end is in sight and hopefully when things settle again I shall return to my SH free existance. I've had enough, I so know where you guys are coming from.

A good friend of mine who got angry every time I hurt myself is reading the book "Cutting" and is actually starting to understand a little, as much as someone who doesn't suffer from the affliction can ;)

You truly are amazing, you know that I hope. Some days I just jump on and read your support for others and feel better somehow. EVen though you suffer from similar stuff as all of us here you always take the time. Makes me feel a bit inadequate! but gives me hope and faith in the human race.

Keep looking after yourself, you're a special guy 'k?

*hugs*

Could you make an emergency appointment for your Dr? Kitty , if she just won't go away , are you on meds? , maybe they need adjusting?

*hugs Crimson, Helen, Owen, Laura, Kahlia, Nicole, Lindsay, April* all familiar faces for me here. I think about you all pretty much every day, even though I'm not physically here I feel eternally linked to you all.

*Leaves special hugs for Julie next time she pops in!*

Hi jk I am kitty -waves-

I am going to pass out now...cant stay awake anymore. Take care of yourselves mark and jk -hugs-

night night xx

*Hugs JK* Awh thanks , you cheered me up this morning :) I hope the deal on your house go's smoothly and you can get on and we can all beat S.I. together , I'm in a "I'm not going to let it beat me mood" right now and these moods don't come that often and they can go FAST so I'll just try and be positive whilst I can.
JK , Who wrote the book "Cutting"? I may have it I have quite a few books but no motivation to read them , they don't get to the point fast enough but maybe I'll make reading my new years resalution ????? I've read one graphic novel this year , thats it ,I'm a little ashamed about that.:S

and no he will be out of the office during winter break and he is only in on mondays and wednesdays anyway so he is done until the beginning of january. And no, I am not on meds for schizophrenia. I havent been able to talk to my dr since I realized thats what it was....he really is stupid I dont know how he got to be a doctor... -sighs-

*Squishes Kitty* are the sleeping pills kicking in? I'm sorry your Dr is crap :(

*Waves to Owen* Whats the matter Owen?

OH don't hurt your head Owen :( Why are you upset?

:( *Gives Owen a Teddy Bear*

Well I'm wondering wherther my worker has got into work today because of the snow so I rang the centres but no answer :S I left a message and I hope they get back to me by midday hmmm , My meeting is at 1pm, so I'll leave at 12.30pm to go the scenic route for the exercise. hmm I'll just have to ring later if they don't ring me first

Are you feeling any better Owen ?