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RYUU 30-09-2010 07:04 PM

*hugs everyone *

i cut a few hours ago but the devil want me to cut again i don't know if i can fight him i feel weak

Doikers 30-09-2010 07:08 PM

Lindsay, I'm releived that my Psych Dr saw things my way and releived that my volunteer post at the cyber cafe , making next weeks shift went okay , I said I can do Monday and I said what time would they like me and was told whenever I liked , just show up sometime on Monday . Still worried about my friend but I don't know what to do hmmm.sorry if thats confusing :S

*Hugs Sefka* Do you want to talk?


*Hugs Ryuu* you can fight him , you can even though it's tough .

shadowedsoul 30-09-2010 07:11 PM

Cuddles all. Damn it I really want to hurt myself, should have dine it a few days back. And not chickened out. Aaaaaaaaaaargh!!!

Doikers 30-09-2010 07:14 PM

*Hugs Jill* Please try and be strong Jill , you CAN get through this.

nicole94 30-09-2010 08:37 PM


Doikers 30-09-2010 08:46 PM

Are you okay Nicole? *Hugs*

nicole94 30-09-2010 08:52 PM

*hugs mark* not really :( i don't think i can take this anymore

Doikers 30-09-2010 08:54 PM

I'm sleepy but I'll stay and listen if you like Nicole :)

nicole94 30-09-2010 08:57 PM

it's ok mark, you can sleep :) it's not fair of me to sit and moan at you lol

Doikers 30-09-2010 08:58 PM

Are you going to be safe?

nicole94 30-09-2010 09:03 PM

uhuh, i'm at my grandads tonight so i can't do anything.

FlyingNy 30-09-2010 09:33 PM

Hey Nicole, I'm here if you want to talk. I don't go to bed for ages yet. *Hugs*

You too Jill if you're still around.

nicole94 30-09-2010 09:35 PM

*hugs lia* are you sure it's ok? i don't wanna like rant at you if your not up to it.

Scarletdreamer 30-09-2010 09:44 PM

*cuddles everyone*

Sorry no indivs, for now at least... am super super tired. It's been a busy day. I went to my parents' house - went to the library and a discount clothing shop with my mum and pretty much had a blast, even though I only bought one thing (aching to buy more but kept finances in mind :P) and also didn't check anything out from the library (which is a HUGE feat in my mind, since I saw sooo many books that I wanted to check out!!!). But it was a lot of fun. Also went to Dunkin' Donuts for coffee and muffins... I had decaf but I FEEL like they gave me caffeinated because I'm anxious. :( But it was tasty :) and made me happy. Also got to spend time with my cat, Daniel, as he's STILL at my parents' house since we STILL have the occasional flea here at the apartment. Eurgh. :( :( :(

Oh, and it's raining like there's no tomorrow here. :( Pouring, even. The drive home was funnn... :( Had to keep the a/c on (cold) so the inside of the windows/windshield wouldn't fog up. Ugh. I hate having to do that and also not having enough layers of clothing on to stay warm!! heh. So I promptly came home, got changed in to warm & dry clothes, and then Jarrod got home. :)

Bleh. Soooo tired. And now to decide if we're gonna go out to eat tonight or stay in... :-/

FlyingNy 30-09-2010 09:52 PM

Sounds like you had a hetic but fun day April :) *hugs*

Sure Nicole, it's fine. I like to be of use. :)

I'm still around btw, just off to my R/V.

nicole94 30-09-2010 10:01 PM

okay thanks lia. *hugs*

i cant handle my family anymore, they've really pissed me off, i have a bruise on my arm where my sister bit me, and a broken finger where she went to kick me in the face, i put my hand out to stop her and she caught my finger, and she has been bullying me all week :( today i was eating my dinner and she says to me 'omg nicole you're so fat, you should just go make yourself sick after you eat that cause you need to loose some weight' and now i'm hungry cause i threw my dinner at her :/ (i couldnt help it, she really upset me!) and my mum is blaming me for all of this!

then today my mum came home after going to a child abuse case about some kids at her pre-school and she just started having a go at me saying that i'm pathetic for self harming and being suicidal because my abuse wasnt even that bad and i should see what these poor kids have been through. i mean i feel sorry for the kids, of course i do, but that doesnt make my abuse any less valid :'(

FlyingNy 30-09-2010 10:09 PM

Of course is doesn't Nicole. You have as much right to react to it as they do and no one can say whose abuse was 'worse' it depends on the individual person and what they are going through because of it. I'm sorry you're having so many family troubles right now, I can relate to that but I won't start a massive rant now. Perhaps you could rethink that moving out thing is they are getting you down so much? I know you wanted to give it another go, but things don't seem to be working out so well. You're not fat, don't listen to what your sister says, and it doesn't even matter if you are, no one here gives a damn and no one who's your real friend should either. *Massive hugs* You can PM me any time.

nicole94 30-09-2010 10:15 PM

*hugs lia* thanks hun. i am fat, i know i'm fat, but i'm comfortable(ish) with it, but i dont like her keep being nasty about it :( i can't move out at the moment cause of money issues :( and i have a REALLY painful finger! thanks for listening to my ramble, feel free to rant at me any time. :D

shadowedsoul 30-09-2010 10:18 PM

thanks lia, im still around. curls up

FlyingNy 30-09-2010 10:27 PM

*Hugs Jill* You alright honey?

*Hugs Nicole* So you should be comfortable. As long as you are, it doesn't matter what they think of you. And your mum had no right to say those things. I'm being pathetic about my 'abuse', if it can even be called that, I know I am, but she can't compare you to other people. Different things affect different people in different ways. It's not wrong to feel the way you do and you can no more help it than I can bring her back. How old is your sister out of interest?

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