Yess i had one two years ago after i got married, when this same person got preggo with her first mind you shes not married at all

i'm not feeling any safer, no. :(

want to hurt myself badly. :'(

*curls up in corner*

Many mothers aren't married, does that *really* matter??? I'm sorry you've had one. But I think you of all people shouldn't be wishing that on anyone. I understand being jealous and all that, I've been there. Esepically having a miscarriage of my own when I was 14. But I wouldn't even wish a miscarriage on my own worst enemy. I had a friend who I knew would be a bad mother to her child and she really is, I hated her when she got pregnant (we no longer speak anyway) but I wouldn't have wished a miscarriage on her =[

I'm sorry :'(

's okay, Hels. *huggles* i understand being jealous too... but, well, i don't want to take sides. because we all should be on each other's side here... i don't know... please let this not escalate into a fullblown argument... :-s

*hides in the warren* :-s

*cuddles April tightly*

*hugs April, Helen and Becca*

*hides*

*hugs Oliver lots* What's wrong sweet?

Shes the sort of person who can look at a naked man get preggo, then thers me i had to fight medically not to lose this one, and still had him 1.5mo early. its just not fair for people like me. i have had a **** life and had to fight, shes lived the silver platter life.

depression hitting me again

I agree that mothers don't need to be married in order to be good parents. At the same time I don't think asking if someone even knows what it is like to have a miscarriage is very helpful. People have different views and if someone posted then (most of the time) it is clear they are having issues coming to terms with something. Maybe it would be better to support them rather than attack? Besides...via the internet how can any of us tell whether someone has really gone through something they claim to have or not?

If she wants to do that, then it's her choice. You shouldn't let her affect you so much. I know how hard it must, I really do. I'm sorry you had to fight medically not to lose your child and still had him early. Aswell as the miscarriage. I've not had the best of lives either (as many here who have had miscarriages) and yes we've had all had to fight and there's people like her who haven't. Please try not to let her affect you so. I'm not attacking you with this post and I apologise if my other posts have felt attacking towards you, that wasn't my intention.

Oliver, I'm sorry depression's hitting you again. *cuddles*

Thanks. I will chalk the others up to simple misunderstanding. Here is really my only safe place to say my real feelings

I'm glad you feel it's a safe place to share your real feelings. Feel free to continue to do so. Just sometimes people may be upset and seem like they're attacking you with their replies, but they're usually not :)

Anyway I really should head to bed, got a migraine coming on and can't see the screen very well.

Bleh migraines suck. Rest well

april- yeh i got money, but he said he wouldnt lemme use laptop [is his] 'less did it.

*huggles everyone who wants*

I wish I could do more, but i'm still struggling way too much right now. The kids want to stay with their father, so a whole custordy battle is about to break out... so im trying to handle knowing my neice and nephew are there, at risk of being visited by that monster..:S and there's naff all anyone can do about it. I'm so depressed it's stupid. Im falling apart but I have to stay together for haz. :( I havn't cried this much in a long time. Amy is going through some kind of breakdown. She's just curled up in the corner crying, she wont talk to me, or come out and talk to anyone. She really can't handle everything about HIM coming up right now. Rosie is all upset that things are unhappy, and im having trouble controlling Sarah's temper.

*hugs Kat if that's OK* crying is good sometimes hun.

I am no good, really want to cut, have a little but its just triggered me more. So will sit in here for a while and hope it just passes. This time.

Would cuddle April if she was here cos she looks to be in a similar place.

rahh.

JK, I'm here if u want to talk. *hugs*

*cuddles kat, heather, april, helen, crimson, oliver, and becca*

*huggles JK back* *sniffles* I just feel so..blerk..I dont even have a word for it. I cant stop the si/suicidal thoughts/urges. I've gone two weeks now no si, and I want to keep it up. I just dont know how much longer i can go on with this. I'm sorry you are triggered too, is there anything I can do to help?