Like the sig Heather :)

Lore, couldn't you get a grant? I'm in the same(ish) boat as you, my mum can't help out much and I wouldn't really want her to anyway, but with loans and grants, you might be able to afford it. You probably qulaify for a grant down to income and maybe one for exam results as well. Then if you get that, along with a loan you won't have to start paying off said loan until you're earning 21,000 a year and if you've not paid it back by th age of 40, they cut it anyway. You could take out a gap year and take up little jobs, saving up as much as possible to help towards it as well.

*Hugs Felicia* How are you doing today?

*HugsCrimson*

*Hugs Lore*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hus Ian*

*Hugs Julie*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Lia*

Ugh... Just managed to pull myself out of bed , I really didn't want to get up this morning , I could SO EASILY go back to bed , No energy , None , Self Injury thoughts are consumming me a bit :(

How are you all this morning?

*hugs everybody*

*Hugs Helen* How are you today?

Why don't you go back to bed Mark? This is weird for me, if I'm not going out and don't have school up not usually up until about 12.00 and I got up at 9.30 this morning.

Well Lia , this is slightley paranoid but on Monday I have a 10am appointment , Which means I'll have to be up waaaaay before 10am to get ready , not forget stuff , check in on here, check my e-mails, breakfast etc so I'll need to sleep well tonight so I sleep well Sunday night so I'm not too tired on Monday morning , It's the OCD part of me coming out , I can get quite obsessive :S erp.

-walks through the doors and checks herself in and finds the darkest corner and curls up in it-

can't sleep...want it all to end...want to be free...

*hugs Lia* I'm not doing too good. How are you?

Hello PsychoKitty *Hugs if okay* Welcome to the ward , I'm Mark :)

*Hugs Helen*

thanks *hugs back* you can call me kitty (I hate my given name).

*hugs Kitty* Welcome to the ward :) I'm Helen :D

*hugs Mark back*

Am worried about Kahlia's silence. She hasn't posted for over 2 weeks. Have messaged her in more than one way, so hopefully she'll get in contact with me :S

Hmmm yeah Kahlia has been scarce latley , I hope she is okay :S

Me too, she hasn't been on in over two weeks & wasn't doing too well when she last posted.

I'm triggered , I've picked out the place on me where I would cut , I actually picked it out last night but tried to sleep it off , I have a while to go before I sleep . Maybe just lying down for a bit will help? .I'll try that .

Hope lying down helps Mark. You're doing SO SO SO well not cutting & resisting your urges. Even if you were to cut, it won't take all those days of freedom away.

*big squishy hug*

I'm back up (Physically) Got half asleep for a couple of hours , but my mind never really wondered away from S.I. ..... My Mum called on my phone in my pocket after I'd been in bed an hour or so heh. Something stained my thumb bright yellow whilst I was in bed ! Erp.

Thankyou Helen for the Big Squishey Hug . *Huge Hugs you back*

Christman lights on.
Inscence lit.
Stereo on. (Should I switch to the T.V.?)

Trying to relax and stop this tingly horrible feeling.

Doing My best , maybe I'll go out for a magazine or some peanut butter or something ......

So I cut, not badly at all but I feel a little less tense but not completely less tense :S

I don't know what to have for dinner....

I collected up a hat thats been in the snow under my living room window for like ,a week and have shoved it into my washing machine , No one else seemed to want it all this time. *Is a collecter of things*

*Hugs Mark* I'm sorry you cut, but I am glad it wasn't too bad.

*Hugs Kitty* Hey :) I'm Lia.

*Hugs Helen*

My mum has put Christmas music on and we have spent the day wrapping presents and getting the decorations down from the loft. I am also wearing a santa hat, but I still can't believe there are just two weeks to go. It doesn't seem possible. I wish time would slow down.

Thank Lia :)

2 weeks !! I know , it's scary isn't it :s?

*Hugs* How are you Lia?

I'm alright, kinda excited about Christmas and will be visiting family tonight which I usually hate, but somehow, as soon as December hits, I don't mind. I hope it will help me get into the Christmas spirit a little.

I wish people would just leave. If they're gonna go, they should just go rather than hang around for weeks, knowing they aren't going to be there much longer. It just makes everything so much harder. But I guess that's cos I am one of those people that just likes to bury my head in the sand and pretend like everything's fine, which I can't do with said person still hanging around, reminding me every five seconds.

Still, it'll soon be Christmas :)