I feel ridiculously misunderstood...like understanding how I feel and why is just impossible to anyone else but me.

I hate out of hour doctors.
EVIL BASTARDS

*hugs Ileana*
*hugs Helen*
*hugs everyone*

We just had pizza and now I want to be sick...

*Hugs everyone*
I had a nice bath and feel a bit...nicer.
Still haven't bothered with anything else.

*hugs*

I'm having really strong urges to overdose.

Aaaaahhhhhhhh

*curls up and rocks*

*cuddles everyone*

I slept well last night. I haven't done that for so long I'd forgotten what it's like.

*hugs helen*
*hugs kahlia* i'm glad you slept well. Sleeping is always nice :-)

I'm having a hard time right now. I'm good at hiding it though.

Why do you feel that you need to hide your true feelings? Remember that you don't have to hide them here.

*hugs everyone that can accept hugs*

The voices are bad and I've taken all the PRN I can take. Guess I just have to wait it out. But I'm going to make an appointment to see my GP to get a med review because the meds I'm on aren't working.

one_step_closer - (sorry i don't know your name)- I know that I don't have to hide them here... but i feel like if i let them out I may break down. Which I don't have time for.. plus, most people in my life are having a hard time with one thing or another and I don't want to make it worse for them.

*big hugs kahlia* I'm sorry about the voices. Its probably good that you are going to get a med review. Hope they figure something out.

*hugs everyone else hiding in corners or wandering around*

*hugs Laura* ~ Thanks. I just hope my GP knows what he is doing ...

*hugs everyone she can find that needs or wants hugs*

*cuddles everyone*

Sorry I'm not really posting much..

*cuddles Helen back*
It's okay not to post much sweetie just keep us up to date with what's happening.

I went to A&E tonight and got a medication review. I'm going to be starting seroquel on monday after I see my GP.

Struggling to put a brave face on. Struggling not to snap at my family today :'( Can't do this. Ugh got to keep going. Only got to get through tomorrow but that'll be a happpppy day :) My cousin's getting married <3

I really really really want one of my best friends :'(

I've not been on RYL in ages, but I just feel so alone & I really need some support..

*curls up in the corner, crying* :(

*hugs Helen* You can make it through darl
*hugs Lucy and offers some tissues*

I've decided to get my exercise regime back on track with doing a workout video while my boyfriend goes to see his parents. Wish me luck.

*curls up and rocks*

^ *sends hugs*

im scared im vulnerable and i dont know how people can help me and its ruining my relationships sobs and rather unsafe
can i sit in the corner

*hugs Lucy* Thanks
*hugs cherylwilson* Of course. Find yourself a corner

I'm getting ready to go and see my GP.

How did seeing the GP go Kahlia?
x

Seeing my GP was good. He had the notes from the hospital and has agreed to supervise my swapping over to Seroquel. I'm on a strict regimen at the moment to come of the Zyprexa slowly while giving the Seroquel some time to act in my system. Hopefully all will go well.

*hugs everyone*

*hugs kahlia* glad to hear it went well!

Me too. Glad it all went well. :)

Yesterday was amazing :)

Went to my appointment at mh clinic. I trusted her far too much. Thought she was a good 'un. She's decided counselling will help me. Which is does. Til I get suicidial. They then write/phone my gp. Who sends me back there. Who sends me to counselling or whatever. Goes around and around and around in circles.

I have well and truely given up. Maybe I should go ahead with my suicide plans, after all, my two best friends are the only ones who are REALLY trying to ****ing helpp...

people keep asking me wat help i want and i really dont know. i dont deserve the help that ppl give me i just dunno sorry i know its abit pointless just wanted to know if neone else feels this way or how to decide wat help i do want
goes bk to cornor and hides under the blanket

*Hugs*

im sorry i dont know what to suggest but i wanted you to know i read and your not alone.

i often feel like this especially right now.

i think sometimes it can be hard to know exactly what it is we need but i really hope you do find something which helps you.

x

*hugs everyone*

I'm just going to go and hide in the smoking shelter until I become part of the woodwork.

*runs in and cries* this wasnt how i wanted to come back but i just need to take care right now

*offers Darian hugs and tissues*

I feel drained right now. Today is my second day of the seroquel trial and it means that i'm only taking two zyprexa and the hallucinations are having a field day. Oh well. I'll survive ... I always do.

*offers Kahlia a warm drink* hey you need it more than me :) thanks for the hugs btw i need them :)

*takes drink from Damian* You are welcome by the way here's some more hugs to keep you going *hugs you*

*walks around aimlessly*

Can I have some hugs? i could really use them.... sorry.

*hugs Laura* Have as many hugs as you need hon.

thank you Kahlia, *hands out hugs for everyone* sorry folks i am so tired but i will be back *builds a fluffly den and crawls in to ssleep* night folks and sweet dreams :)

*hugs kahlia* thanks. hope you are alright
*hugs handswithoutshadows* sleep well!

i dont even have a reason to feel so horrible right now, I just do. i'm stupid

*hugs Damian and Laura*
*hugs everyone else*

Voices are bad .... The drug changeover is so slow. Have to make it through till Monday when I see the doc again. Getting hard not to believe the voices ....

^ Hang on in there hon. You can do it. *hugs*

*hugs Lucy* Thanks
*hugs everyone*

*pops in for a bit and leaves some banana cake for ppl*

Hope everyone is keeping well there!!! :-)

*hugs kahlia* hope the voices are quieter. Keep fighting!
*hugs jetforce and takes a piece of cake*
*hugs everyone else*

I slept so much last night! It was sooo nice. Although I'm officially running late now this morning.. O well, it's just class right? lol

*curls up and cries a little*

*makes a cup of tea for everyone then goes to hide in the corner*

hope everyone is doing ok x

*hugs everyone*

*hugs Hellen and everyone else then heads to her corner and sits, staring vacantly into the room*

Allie!!! How are you doing? *big hugs*

Really rather shitty as you've since read, Emma. *massive hugs* But I've missed you :-)

*hugs everyone* - hmmm maybe I should wait before hugging everyone since I'm drenched in sweat.

Think we've finally got my subjects organised for next year. And I got a bunch of credits if they get approved.