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shadowedseraph 06-08-2009 03:35 PM

*hugs cheryl* your not wasting anyones time! I'm glad you phoned your OT did she help at all? Perhaps going to work will help you feel a bit better, give you something to concentrate on? Sorry i'm not much help

Kahlia1981 06-08-2009 03:35 PM

Message from Nicole[mouse in darkness]
Hugs to all and big safe hugs to Arwen in the quarantine corner. I hope that everyone starts to improve and everyone starts to feel okay. She said to tell you all that she misses you and the support she gets from RYL.

Nicole is still in hospital and hasn't seen a doctor so we don't know how long she'll be in there for. She was starting to feel a little better today so hopefully not too much longer.

*leaves hugs for everyone*

Detour. Derail 06-08-2009 08:24 PM

So I have news.
Apparentlly Im too much hassle for my ex to stay friends with me.
Apparentlly he hates me
Apparentlly Im a bitch who makes everything difficult and complicated
Apparentlly I cause all the drama in my life and he never wants to see me again.

You know what....FINE!
I hate him *shakes with anger*

MammaMia 06-08-2009 08:33 PM

You know what?
I can't do this.
I can't cope with her being so suicidial and was going to kill herself yesterday. But I have to
I can't cope with someone else and their custody battle, because his parents are such ****ing wankers. But I have to
I can't cope with the urges. But I have to
I can't cope with my ****. But I have to
I can't cope with my sisters making stuipd comments. But I have to
I can't cope with ANYTHING!!!! But I have to

**** IT ALL (Y)

*hides in the denial tent because everything is just FINNNNNNNNNNNNNE*

Kahlia1981 06-08-2009 11:39 PM

*offers support to Alexx*
*hugs Helen tightly*

Did I mention that my friend let me down again? Three times she was supposed to come over - THREE FRICKING TIMES - but each time she didn't show she didn't even bother to send a text, email, whatever to say she wasn't coming. Inconsiderate bitch. Sorry but that irks me. If you say you are going to do something then you do it, if you can't you let people know. Grrrrrr.

wildly insane 07-08-2009 12:18 AM

sorry I haven't written much recently, but I have been reading and thinking of you all. I just wanted to send you all hugs and hope things get better, oh and puppy sinclair is bouncing around slobbering over everyone who will give him a kiss :)

youonlyliveonce 07-08-2009 09:34 AM

um yeh she did help slightly but i still feel the same if that makes sense. ended up being upset at work.

PapaBear 07-08-2009 10:55 AM

4 words i never wanted to hear: "you're going to die"
times i've heard them today (aka in the 2-3 hours of consciousness): 9
how long they've given me: 6 months max.
likelyhood of ever seeing my horses again: slim-to-none.
FML x infinity...

MammaMia 07-08-2009 11:58 AM

*hugs Kahlia tightly but hopes she doesn't hurt you*

*hugs PapaBear if he can accept hugs* I'm so sorry to hear that :(

Kahlia1981 07-08-2009 12:19 PM

Hannah ~ thinking of you too. And I did wonder where puppy SinClair got to
cherylwilson ~ *offers hugs*
PapaBear ~ I'm so sorry. That's the worst news you could ever hope to hear. *offers hugs if you are able to take them*
Helen ~ thanks for the gentle hugs *hugs you right back*

I saw the physio today for my wrist and they are worried about the amount of pain in my thumb. They said if it continues or gets worse in any way they'd send me back upstairs (fracture clinic). My thumb and my hand are really painful. My shoulder at least is not too bad from the surgery. The physio said that my asking whether the capsule will stretch again isn't stupid and I should ask them when I see them next.

I also went for lunch with my sister, brother in law and my sister in law today and went to my old GP so she would write what I wanted her to on the Stat Dec for my court hearing. I think what she has written will be good enough but I'm going to run it by legal aid first.

Now I'm tired, dizzy and dehydrated. Fun.

shadowedseraph 07-08-2009 02:53 PM

Everyone thinks i'm getting better, but i'm not *cries* i really need a hug

zowie 07-08-2009 03:15 PM

*Waves to everyone from quarantine*
Thanks for the hugs and get well messages guys, it really means a lot and makes me feel heaps better :)
Sorry I'm not doing individual replies, can't really manage sitting at the computer much longer, need to curl back up on the sofa. I have read everything that's been going on though and my thoughts are with you all.
I've been taking all sorts of painkillers, flu remedies and cough syrups as well as the Tamiflu and still don't really feel much better. Barely slept at all the last couple of nights because I couldn't stop coughing, and have had a pounding headache for two days straight now. It's an absolute nightmare! My dad and sister are being really helpful though. My little sister, bless her, keeps putting on a nurse costume and asking if I need anything :)
Right - Back to the sofa.
Love you all <3
xxx

Labyrinth 07-08-2009 06:20 PM

Stupid random update as I might come back for a bit (it's Katrica/Eclectica).

The ****er got away with it. He. Got. Away. With. It. And there's nothing I can do. He won. As he did that night. He ****ing won.

Tonight I'm going to get REALLY really drunk and cut myself so badly and everywhere that I might pass out. Arms, legs, stomach, neck, feet. I've got it all planned out. ODs and SH. And alcohol poisoning.

:>

/Eclectica

youonlyliveonce 07-08-2009 09:26 PM

i screw up everything that is good in my life. so sorry i dont mean 2.

Damnation. 08-08-2009 12:52 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Labyrinth (Post 1798331)
Stupid random update as I might come back for a bit (it's Katrica/Eclectica).

The ****er got away with it. He. Got. Away. With. It. And there's nothing I can do. He won. As he did that night. He ****ing won.

Tonight I'm going to get REALLY really drunk and cut myself so badly and everywhere that I might pass out. Arms, legs, stomach, neck, feet. I've got it all planned out. ODs and SH. And alcohol poisoning.

:>

/Eclectica

>__< I'm so sorry he got away with it, but please don't hurt yourself *hugs muchly* pleaaaaaaaaaaaase try and stay as safe as possible

Labyrinth 08-08-2009 02:24 AM

"You look good today"
"You seem brill recently!"

"I dont know you but get a ****ing job"
"You should get a job or go to college"
"Get a damn job! Everybody wants you to!"

. . .

I wish I had my ****ing pills to OD on. I wanna forget my life for a while. ****ing give up on everything. Suicidal AGAIN. So many images and thoughts and plans.

Just wanna... go blank. Numb.

Kat D made me numb and helped out when the ****ing police came over to tell me I lost the ****ing fight, thaat I'm DEFEATED. Yea, it didn't last long. The daggers of "YOU LOST" we're thrown too much for us. We can't handle those knives. Stab stab stab...

. . . I'm going to go inside now, let the others take over for a while. I can't cope with life right now. Better the Core abusing me and putting me in A&E than death I guess. I'm hoping it's Kat D and KJ or something though. They can help, littles can't and the ****ing core are dicks.

I want a harming session so badly I nearly die...

Kahlia1981 08-08-2009 02:31 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by shadowedseraph (Post 1797971)
Everyone thinks i'm getting better, but i'm not *cries* i really need a hug

*big hugs*

Quote:

Originally Posted by zowie (Post 1797994)
*Waves to everyone from quarantine*
Thanks for the hugs and get well messages guys, it really means a lot and makes me feel heaps better :)
Sorry I'm not doing individual replies, can't really manage sitting at the computer much longer, need to curl back up on the sofa. I have read everything that's been going on though and my thoughts are with you all.
I've been taking all sorts of painkillers, flu remedies and cough syrups as well as the Tamiflu and still don't really feel much better. Barely slept at all the last couple of nights because I couldn't stop coughing, and have had a pounding headache for two days straight now. It's an absolute nightmare! My dad and sister are being really helpful though. My little sister, bless her, keeps putting on a nurse costume and asking if I need anything :)
Right - Back to the sofa.
Love you all <3
xxx

I hope that you start feeling better soon Arwen.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Labyrinth (Post 1798331)
Stupid random update as I might come back for a bit (it's Katrica/Eclectica).

The ****er got away with it. He. Got. Away. With. It. And there's nothing I can do. He won. As he did that night. He ****ing won.

Tonight I'm going to get REALLY really drunk and cut myself so badly and everywhere that I might pass out. Arms, legs, stomach, neck, feet. I've got it all planned out. ODs and SH. And alcohol poisoning.

:>

/Eclectica

Please keep yourself safe. I'm sorry that he got away with it but please don't injure yourself as that's just another win for him.

Quote:

Originally Posted by cherylwilson136 (Post 1798674)
i screw up everything that is good in my life. so sorry i dont mean 2.

*hugs you tightly*

*hugs Dayna*

*leaves big hugs for everyone*

My physio is unhappy with the swelling and pain in my thumb after having the cast removed. She got the hand specialist to have a look at me. And he wasn't happy either. They've given me this stuff that I have to put on my thumb every day which is kind of difficult to do because it's on my dominant hand. It's supposed to help with the swelling. She said and so did the hand specialist that it could mean annother trip upstairs to fracture clinic if it doesn't settle.

*leaves more hugs for all and bit pats and so forth for Puppy SinClair*

Labyrinth 08-08-2009 02:36 AM

I'm leaving this body to the others. I hope they come to terms with everything and push away the defeat.

If I'm here tomorrow, I will try my best to give up to the rest. I want peace and quiet, at least for a while, AbySS can have my body to themselves. Thirteen people can control one body while I'm gone, i hope.

Labyrinth 08-08-2009 02:55 AM

And i'm not allowed to feel sad, defeated or not in the mood to talk without my BF texting my mum and scaring her.

****. It. All.

If I died it might stop the stress people feel over me!

Long*Past 08-08-2009 08:29 AM

*checks self in again*

Hey everyone. It's been a little while...

I don't think I'm safe right now...

I feel trapped at the moment.

My brother (14 years old) has been in this mental health unit for the last few weeks... he's bipolar and ADHD, or we thought so... the doctors on the coast say they don't think he is... but we know it. He's a manipulative kid and he's smart. He knows how to get what he wants. And right now he wants to be out of there. We've just been told that basically he's a "normal kid with a disability" but that's utter crap. He makes everyone in our house sick, literally. We've been told that he's coming home in two weeks... He hasn't even been taken off all his meds so they know what he's really like... It isn't fair!

My mom is super upset about it, but she's expressing it by being a bitch to me... I can't handle the stress.

I'm trying to work right now as well now, I'm going into grade 11 this year, and I don't have a math class set up because I was going to do it over the summer, and didn't end up doing it because I didn't pass the test to get into the summer course... I'm trying to work and be social with my friends and do all the housework Mom wants me to do and work through my feelings about Chase coming home and not hurt myself at the same time.

My parents are thinking that when Chase gets home they're basically going to send him into foster care if he can't get along with everyone. And I'm going to lose my baby brother.

I'm just sitting here crying my eyes out trying so hard to keep myself here and not go cut again. I've been free for almost 3 months, I don't want to mess up now and prove that I am a failure.

My supposed best friend can't help me because she's got her own stuff to deal with, and I think I'm losing her as a friend anyway, because I'm growing up so quickly, and she's not growing up at all...

This week alone I've thought about suicide at least once a day...

I need help and safety...


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