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Doikers 06-10-2010 08:03 PM

*Hugs Jill* Whats happening over the next two weeks Jill?

nicole94 06-10-2010 08:34 PM

*hugs everyone then builds a fort and hides.*

Doikers 06-10-2010 08:41 PM

Hey Nicole :) *Hugs* How are you this evening?

SparkleKitten 06-10-2010 08:59 PM

*cuddles all* rought day, my nanna is in hospital and my fiance has just been diagnosed with depression too. Just feeling terrible. Not going to be about much tonight. x

Doikers 06-10-2010 09:02 PM

*Hugs Sarah* I'm sorry to hear about your Nanna being in hospital and your fiance getting that diagnosis , Please take good care of yourself while all this is going on around you .

nicole94 06-10-2010 09:08 PM

*hugs mark* not really. you?

misskitty112 06-10-2010 09:26 PM

*hugs ward*
Sorry it's not more. I need to clone myself so one of me can work, one can do hw, one can do homecoming, and the real me can sleep.
I haven't slept in 30 some hours. I'm so tired.

RYUU 06-10-2010 09:36 PM

Feel like i need to cut the devil is telling me i must do it
he is saying graphic things to me to make me cut

FlyingNy 06-10-2010 09:37 PM

*Hugs Sarah* I'm sorry, Sarah. Like Mark said, please take care of yourself while all this is going on and we're all here for you. :)

*Hugs Jill* What is it happening in the next two weeks honey? Like I said to Sarah, we're all here to help you through it, whatever it is.

That's another thing I love about this ward. I know whatever I do, none of you will ever judge me. I could come here hysterical and say I just killed a man who tried to attack me or something, and none of you would freak and run. I love you guys.

*Hugs Nicole* What's up honey? College getting you down? Or are your family being a pain again?

*Hugs Felicia* Workload is a bitch. A-level English is bad enough, I have two papers to write and a book to read over the weekend. There goes my Saturday. I love it though, you have to remember that. You're doing this for a reason, because you love the subject and it will all pay off, even if you'd sooner sleep now, you'll be glad of all this one day. Think of how pround you'll be of yourself when you're done. :)

*Hugs Mark* How are things going with the urges? I hope you're Ok. I'm here to talk if you need someone.

*Hugs Laura* I hope you're alright, try and stay around people as much as possible.

*Hugs RYUU* Remember all the times you've resisted the devil before? You can do it again. Do anything that has helped you in teh past. We all carea about you here and none of us want to see you hurt.

shadowedsoul 06-10-2010 10:03 PM

hugs everybody. erm next week is going to be really stressfull. sorry i know im not answaering your question. curls up in a dark corner hopping the pain will stop.

FlyingNy 06-10-2010 11:14 PM

*Hugs Jill* Well whatever's going on honey, we're all here for you. Stay safe. Remember the song I pasted on here the other day.

shadowedsoul 07-10-2010 12:22 AM

curls up cries. i hurt so much right now.

Doikers 07-10-2010 10:12 AM

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Nicole*

*Hugs Sarah*

*Hugs Lia*

*Hugs Ryuu*

*Hugs Felicia*

Kahlia1981 07-10-2010 11:19 AM

*hugs all*

Well my computer repairs are not yet underway. The first lot of items have not yet arrived ... they should be in transit either tonight (having left late today) or tomorrow to arrive (hopefully) early next week. Not overly happy about not having a computer still.

I managed to submit my assignment on Tuesday - well before my extension date of 5 pm AEST tomorrow - which is good news and I've even managed to get up-to-date on my readings and coursework.

Unfortunately I've got some signs of illness that mean I have to go for some mammoth blood/urine/etc work tomorrow. Hopefully it isn't anything serious, and it is something that is treatable. *crosses fingers*


Doikers 07-10-2010 11:33 AM

*Hugs Kahlia* I was lierally just wondering about you and here you are :) It must be so frustrating to not have a computer :S Way to go you on completeing your course work though :)
*Crosses fingers and hopes it's nothing serious too*

Doikers 07-10-2010 12:29 PM

I have my first "Groups 2 Grow" Session at 2pm this afternoon , I feel numb /anxious , weird feeling , I am really really hoping it will help me get a hold of my Self Injury. Positive thoughts my way if you like please :)

Also it's exactly 1 month today until I turn 30 ,:S:S:S:S:S:S:S:S:S:S:S:S , The countdown has truely begun erp , not happy about that.

shadowedsoul 07-10-2010 04:41 PM

Cuddles all, I feel so unsafe so numb, like I'm walking around in a dazes. Curls up

Doikers 07-10-2010 04:50 PM

*Hugs Jill* Look after yourself please .

Well My Groups 2 Grow was INTENSE!!! and they said it was going to start getting intense from next week erp :S It was totally geared towards substance abuse but I was told It would be more duel diagnosis ( Substance AND Mental Health problems ) , I'm really hoping it wont be just just the substance stuff , I really want to focus on my depression hmmm but I guess the two are interlinked . The group is called "Group Psycho-social Interventions" , I meet my keyworker (Kat) Who does my accupuncture and is very nice tomorrow .

FlyingNy 07-10-2010 05:56 PM

Wow, a quiet day on the ward here. Sending you early luck for next week Mark as I missed this week's luck :) Glad the group seemed to go ok, even if it was a little intense. *Hugs*

*Hugs Jill* If you don't feel like telling us what's going on, I'm free to PM if you'd feel more comfortable like that. Sorry you're stuggling so much right now. *Hugs tightly*.

*Hugs Kahlia* I hope it's nothing too serious as well. Good luck honey.

Doikers 07-10-2010 06:22 PM

Thankyou Lia for the luck :) *Hugs* I hope I can cope with the intensity , I REALLY struggle with groups , I get incredibly self concious , Today I was nervous and got triggered and I sort of "zoned out" I mean I was trying to pay attention but my attention span is short ( depression eh? who'd have it!) and all that on top of 20 mg Of Diaz . hmmm.....

SoMuchMore 07-10-2010 06:24 PM

It is quiet in here... Hope everyone is alright.

*hugs mark* the group sounds like a good thing, though a little intense. I definitely understand your nerves about the group, hopefully it gets better with time/as you get used to the people in the group. Hope the meeting with your keyworker goes okay. How r u otherwise?

*hugs lisa* how r u doing?

*hugs kahlia* i'm sorry you are ill and that your computer still isn't fixed. Good job on getting all that coursework done though! I'll be keeping you in my thoughts about the doctors appointment.

*hugs jill* i'm sorry you feel like you are in a daze. Anything we can do/anything you want to talk about? Here if you need to.

I'm not doing too well. I don't want to go into too much detail on here as I don't want to trigger anyone, but i could use some hugs. Life is overwhelming.

PoisonedApple 07-10-2010 06:26 PM


That's another thing I love about this ward. I know whatever I do, none of you will ever judge me. I could come here hysterical and say I just killed a man who tried to attack me or something, and none of you would freak and run. I love you guys.
Too true! We love you too :)

*hugs everyone*

Doikers 07-10-2010 06:46 PM

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Crimson*

I don't feel safe , The group really took it out of me I think :S I S.I. earlier and just now made it worse and am worried that I may make it even worse , knowing I am at my parents from tomorrow until Sunday and will therefore not be in a situation to S.I. is making me think "do it now as you can't later" sorry I'm rambling.

SoMuchMore 07-10-2010 06:55 PM

But Mark, think - will "do it now as you can't later" really help either situation? SI-ing now won't take away future urges over the weekend, nor will it help you feel better at the moment as you are worried about making it worse... and if it is worse then you might have to get it checked out, which i'm sure you don't want to do. Plus, making it worse might also make you regret it more in the future.

I hope that didn't sound too harsh. I didnt mean for it too, just trying to point out some logic in the situation. I know you can fight these urges Mark. You have done it before. Keep talking if it will help, or doing something distracting... Go for a walk, get some coffee, sleep, anything that will keep you from making things worse.

*extra safe hugs* Hang in there.

*hugs crimson* and we love you too! :-) Hope you are okay.

FlyingNy 07-10-2010 06:58 PM

*Hugs Mark* Please try and look after the SI you have already done and try to resist the other urges. I know it's hard, but we all care about you.

*Hugs Laura* I'm sorry you're not having the best time right now. We're all here for you if you need us.

*Hugs Crimson* How are you?

As for me, it's complicated. I don't feel particuarly bad right now, but...well, it doesn't matter.

Doikers 07-10-2010 07:03 PM

Thanks Laura , I wasn't thinking Logically , my mind is racing unpleasant thoughts . I certainly don't want to have to have it checked out :S . I'll just have to "Deal" with the urges over the weekend , you are right I've done it before I can do it again . Sorry to be such a pain. Sleep is a good one but I'll have to leave that until 9pm I guess maybe a bit earlier , sleep helps , I might put on some music later :)

Doikers 07-10-2010 07:05 PM

*Hugs Lia* Do you want to talk ? If its bothering you it matters .

SoMuchMore 07-10-2010 07:08 PM

*hugs mark* don't worry about it at all. Hope that I was able to help some. Believe me, i understand that its hard to think logically when you mind is racing and repeating bad things.

*hugs lia* It does matter how you are feeling. I'm glad that you arent feeling particularly bad though.

Doikers 07-10-2010 07:25 PM

Are you okay Laura ? You said life is overwhelming , do you want to talk?

FlyingNy 07-10-2010 07:42 PM

It's OK guys. Thanks but I'm alright, there's too much, I wouldn't know where to start.

Yes Mark, you can :)

You can always talk to us if you like Laura.

Doikers 07-10-2010 08:11 PM

April ,April ,April How are you ? *spots and hugs*

FlyingNy 07-10-2010 08:18 PM

I'm so triggered for no reason.

Doikers 07-10-2010 08:19 PM

*Hugs Lia tight until she no longer feels triggered* I hate that feeling :(

FlyingNy 07-10-2010 08:26 PM

Thanks Mark. I promised myself if someone acknowledged me within the next 3 posts, I wouldn't cut.

SoMuchMore 07-10-2010 08:28 PM

*hugs lia* i especially hate when i feel triggered and cant find a reason for it. :-/ Stay strong, try to do something distracting.

*hugs mark*

thanks for the offer to talk both of you... but i can't. Too worried about how it would affect other people if i did talk. Bad things. i'm even too worried to put it in my r/v so.. yea.. i should just keep my mouth shut.

Doikers 07-10-2010 08:29 PM

Oh :) Do you find that tool useful?

FlyingNy 07-10-2010 08:42 PM

You talking to me Mark?

Doikers 07-10-2010 08:43 PM

Yes , sorry I think I duel posted with Laura . Yes I was talking to you Lia

FlyingNy 07-10-2010 08:50 PM

Yes actually. It means I can't now even if I want to. Which I do. Feel good :)

Doikers 07-10-2010 08:54 PM

:) I'm glad it's working for you , Glad you're safe for tonight Lia:)

FlyingNy 07-10-2010 08:54 PM

Forget cut. I just don't want to do this anymore full stop. I can't because one day I am going to fail. I want to leave them before they leave me. I want out now. I don't know what I feel anymore. All I know is that two options seem like great ideas now.
Option 1: taking all 82 pills in my pot.
Option 2: run and never look back.

FlyingNy 07-10-2010 08:55 PM

Sorry Mark, I've just totally rained on your parade.

Doikers 07-10-2010 08:59 PM

Don't worry about it Lia . Seriously are those pills you have perscribed meds? , if so put them back in the cupboard , if they are just plls you bought throw them away if you can (Toilet), You could do serious damage taking 82 of anything , Please please please either way get those pills away from you right now

RYUU 07-10-2010 09:02 PM

I cant get the thoughts of killing myself out of my mind the devil isn't helping
am not safe

Doikers 07-10-2010 09:06 PM

*Hugs Ryuu* Can you try to distract yourself Ryuu? Maybe an earlyish night would help , You're in the Uk right , well it's gone 9pm , totally reasonable time to go to bed . Thats what I'm doing soon.

FlyingNy 07-10-2010 09:09 PM

No, they're just pills I've picked up here and there. I don't take perscribed. I haven't been diagnosed with anything.

Doikers 07-10-2010 09:10 PM

Oh okay Lia , Pleeeease Get rid of them , I would hate for anything to happen to you*Hugs*

shadowedsoul 07-10-2010 09:16 PM

Hugs lia tightly don't do anything stuiped. Argh!!! Yeah that was so going to happen tonight, on top of what I had going on allready. Muppets hahahaha

Doikers 07-10-2010 09:17 PM

*Hugs Jill* Are you okay?

Doikers 07-10-2010 09:21 PM


EDIT:- Lia I hope you decided to throw those pills away where you cannot get to them again or at least to put them back in their drawer/cupboard wherever , If you think you may have taken too many call 999 right now , don't bother to read the rest of this post , call an ambulance . I am always here to talk to you . PM me if you need to and I will try and be helpful , I can't promise a instant reply but I will reply :) *Hugs and hopes you're safe*

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