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PoisonedApple 10-08-2010 07:15 PM

lol mark you spotted me when i was typing a post (which when i was through i reconsidered and posted to my r/v) *throws pillow at you*

Doikers 10-08-2010 07:34 PM

*Hugs Crimson* I'm sorry you are having a rough time at work :( No wonder you're so frustrated! I read your R/V.

Scarletdreamer 10-08-2010 07:38 PM

*peeks in, tiptoes in, and hides in a corner cuddling a fat pillow*

PoisonedApple 10-08-2010 07:56 PM

*sneaks over and cuddles April* What's up?

Doikers 10-08-2010 07:56 PM

Hey April :)

Louise 10-08-2010 08:01 PM

Hi everyone
*hugs everyone*

Doikers 10-08-2010 08:51 PM

Hi Louise :) *Hugs* How are you this evening ?

misskitty112 10-08-2010 09:38 PM

*hugs everybody* I'm hoping I can do some individuals once I'm not so tired.

So, today, I finished my uni shopping... Now, all I have to do is pack it all up before Sunday. I am so ready to be back, even though I'm terrified of my potential to fall very low. I've already spoken to my treatment team about it, though, so hopefully we're all prepared. Anyway, I've been shopping for the past three hours, on the bright side, my side of the room will be all pink and cheery. yay!

I'm still feeling awfully triggered, more so to burn than cut, which is wierd cause I hardly ever burn, and I've been obsessing over planning said burn. Hopefully I can resist carrying out the plan.

And on a completely unrelated note, I have decided that I want to move to another country, just haven't decided which one (but I have two years, cause I'm finishing uni first)

And... I need to go rest before heading to the laundry place to wash my clothes and bedding for uni.

Love you all *leaves care packages on the table*

SoMuchMore 10-08-2010 09:42 PM

*sets out giant stuffed animals for everyone*

Doikers 10-08-2010 10:07 PM

*Hugs Felicia* Yey for pink and cheery bedrooms !:) I hope you can resist the urge to burn , I know what it's like to obsess over S.I. ( I bet we all do), it SUCKS , please stay safe .

*Hugs Laura and nabs a stuffed giraffe*

MammaMia 10-08-2010 10:13 PM

*hugs everyone*

SoMuchMore 10-08-2010 10:16 PM

Mark - haha, a giraffe... made me think of one of my uni friends who was obsessed with giraffes and had these floor to ceiling posters all over his room :D

*hugs helen* how r u doing?

Louise 10-08-2010 10:18 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Doikers (Post 2440551)
Hi Louise :) *Hugs* How are you this evening ?

Had really strong urges so not great

MammaMia 10-08-2010 10:31 PM

Laura, I'm okay, really low/suicidal, itchy, tired, you??

Scarletdreamer 10-08-2010 11:59 PM

*cuddles all & grabs a stuffed panda from the pile* :D Pandas = love. Hehe. On another forum I post(ed) on I have an "invisible panda" named Arnold. He gives cuddles to anyone who wants them and is very squishy and fluffy and adorable. :) Ever since then I have had this thing for pandas... whenever I see a picture of one or a plushie I squeal, "ARNOLD!!!" ... :P

Anyway.

*cuddles Laura* I'm glad that we had the chance to chat earlier. Hopefully you're doing a bit better... if not, keep hanging in there, sweet, and remember what I said about posting. :)

*cuddles Hels* I'm sorry that you're not feeling very great... is there anything I can do to help?? Feel free to PM/message me if you need/want to, 'kay?

*cuddles Mark* How're you, love?

*cuddles Felicia* I'm glad that your side of the room is to your liking. Cheery = good. :) Maybe it'll help lift your spirits when you feel low. Hoping so, anyway. And moving to another country would be awesome; what made you think of this idea? Just curious. :) And I hope that you haven't succumbed to the urges yet, keep on fighting & hanging on...

*cuddles Louise* I'm sorry you're not doing well either... seems like a lot of us are struggling right now. If it helps at all you can PM me, even if it is a vent/rant... I'm a good "listener" (I use "" because I'm not really listening, I'm reading... hehe) and can try and help if you would like. If not, that's fine too.

*cuddles Crimson* I'm glad that you're "just being," even if it is a struggle. Keep hanging in there & fighting too... I'll try & read your r/v in a bit, when I head over there to update mine. :)

Sending lots of love & hugs your way, to each & every one of you!! <3

Scarletdreamer 11-08-2010 12:36 AM

Updated my r/v... :-S It's really nothing of substance, but anyway, thought I'd let you know.

As for those of you who asked how I'm doing, well, not very great. :( It's been a busy day and I biked over 7 miles (flat terrain, mostly, just a 2% grade) and did some other stuff but I still feel like a flat failure. Also got complimented by a guy that's my sister's friend, through my sister (he didn't want to tell me directly), which makes me feel a little weird. :-/ The guy's nice, it's just... I don't know, feels weird being complimented when I weigh as much as I do. :(

I'm so over this. So damn over it. Make it stop, someone, please... my mood is slowly slipping downward again, and I know it's going to end up with me being more suicidal than I already am, I just know it. Why couldn't it be an uphill climb?! Why couldn't I feel GOOD for once?! But no, downwards I slip... and further down... damn bipolar. So over you.

:crying:

misskitty112 11-08-2010 01:02 AM

Louise, *hugs* if you want to talk I'm here.
April, I want to move to another country, mainly cause my grandparents were like "if you get a good education and a good job, you can travel all over the world, like to London... or Rome! Or you could even live there!" And I've always wanted to live somewhere near London... or in France. So... that's my newest goal in life. Also, I'm sorry bipolar is being so mean to you. That's one of my diagnoses... only no one can tell if that's really what's wrong with me, since no one has found meds that work, but it's frustrating. If you need to talk though, I'm here.

*huggles everyone else*

shadowedsoul 11-08-2010 01:19 AM

Huggles all. Erm today was intresting, getting paper chucked at me by the people I work with because they think it's funny. Hmm i know they are only joking but it kind of hurts idk. To them using the r word, to them threating to do that to me. Because it sort of happened before. Hmm sorry going to shut up now. Curls up and crys. Sorry if this triggers anybody just tell me and I will delete this.

Kahlia1981 11-08-2010 02:56 AM

*huggles everybody*

Sorry for the lack of individual replies. :-(

I have to make lots of phone calls today and I hate making phone calls. But I have to make at least 2 for uni and 1 to the RTA (Rental Tenancies Authority) because our landlord told us this morning she is selling the unit right in the middle of our lease. :-(

ˈsäləˌterē 11-08-2010 03:00 AM

OOOh! I like this story! Can I be a princess too?!

ˈsäləˌterē 11-08-2010 03:02 AM

Oooh! I like this story! Can I be a princess too?!

ˈsäləˌterē 11-08-2010 03:03 AM

I don't know what keeps happening. I'm responding to Mathew's story in the Virtual Psych Ward.

ˈsäləˌterē 11-08-2010 03:07 AM

Nevermind, I figured it out.

Detour. Derail 11-08-2010 03:58 AM

help..

misskitty112 11-08-2010 04:04 AM

Solo, of course you can be a princess!
Voice of Reason, what's going on? You can PM me if you don't wanna post it

Detour. Derail 11-08-2010 04:10 AM

Absolutly rediculous things that shouldnt be getting me down.
Im stressed with work...with uni work...my boy has gone to spain for 4 months...3 months in and im paranoid as hell...I feel fat and ugly and disgusting...ive been harm-free for a longtime now but the urge is unbearable

Detour. Derail 11-08-2010 04:13 AM

also. I just found out my ex is engaged and expecting a baby with his new girlfriend.....the one he dumped me for...why wasnt i good enough for him?

misskitty112 11-08-2010 04:13 AM

*hugs* I'm sorry, that stuff is tough to deal with. Uni work makes me wanna jump off a cliff 99% of the time. I hope you stay safe and resist urges, but if you don't, please take care of yourself.
And for the record... each of those things getting you down are completely legit and not at all ridiculous <3 all that stuff gets me down too.

Detour. Derail 11-08-2010 04:17 AM

Im sorry...I cant do this...why am I kidding myself? Im nothing

MammaMia 11-08-2010 10:02 AM

Alex, you're not nothing babe, you're an amazing person & I love you. I'm sorry you're struggling so much right now darling *cuddles tight*

*cuddles all*

Scarletdreamer 11-08-2010 10:48 AM

*cuddles all*

Good (early) morning... geez... I got up just past 5:30am today because of a bad dream. That's pretty freaking early for me... or feels like it at least!! Especially with a busy day ahead (sister is coming over to help clean *tries to control eyes rolling* :P anal-retentive I says but she denies it... oh well)... gahhh. There WILL be a nap in there somewhere though, I can guarantee it. :-S

Sorry no individuals right now. :(

Doikers 11-08-2010 10:49 AM

*Hugs April*

*Hugs Helen*

*Hugs Voice of Reason*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Felicia*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs Jill*

Kahlia1981 11-08-2010 10:51 AM

*huggles all*

So tired ....
So over making phonecalls ...
Freaking out because our landlord is selling the unit ...

Please tell me this is a dream!

Doikers 11-08-2010 01:02 PM

*Hugs Kahlia*

shadowedsoul 11-08-2010 01:49 PM

Huggles all. Hmm feeling low, stuiped thoughts running through my head. Can't keep my head together. Want to curl up and cry.

Scarletdreamer 11-08-2010 02:49 PM

*sigh*

*curls up next to Mark with her journal, a book, & a fleece blanket*

Hope you all are doing okay... :( Sorry no individuals at the moment.

PoisonedApple 11-08-2010 04:42 PM

How is it I got to bed 2 hours early making a whole 8.5 hrs of sleep last night but I'm still exhausted? *grumbles*
*gives huggles to each and every wardie*
*curls up by April and Mark and naps*

misskitty112 11-08-2010 04:45 PM

*hugs everyone*
I'm not dead, or seriously burned, and I am packed (except for clothes) for uni... Eh... positive enough, I'll take what I can get.

I'm so sick of this family feud though. I can't see my mom without disappointing my grandparents, who pay for uni. It's a problem.

PoisonedApple 11-08-2010 04:52 PM

You probably already answered this but I can't remember,sorry Felicia.
Why can't you see your mom without disappointing your grandparents?

Doikers 11-08-2010 04:55 PM

*Huggles Crimson* I'm sorry you're so tired :( * Hands a pillow over*

*Huggles Felicia* Well done on packing :) Sorry to hear about your family situation though :( ......Oh and DO remember to pack some clothes , or you'll be nekid at uni ;P

misskitty112 11-08-2010 05:04 PM

Crimson, I've actually never said anything about it. Long story put really short: my dad died when I was six, mom became abusive toward me, mom got remarried in May, mom moved to VA and took my brother and refuses to let my grandparents see him, so my grandparents are angry. There's a whole lot more crap mixed into that, but those are the big things. But mom wants to see me on Saturday (her birthday), and it'll be in a public place so I feel okay with going, my grandparents just don't like it.

Mark, thanks. I'm sure worse things could happen then me being naked at uni. lol. I'll pack clothes as soon as I get the motivation to wash them.

MammaMia 11-08-2010 05:09 PM

I'm so over dealing with this. I want to fall apart completely, but yet, I did that before & was the worst 2 months of my life. I don't want to be suicidal, I don't want to be making plans & suicide pacts, I don''t want urges to cut, OD, die every single ****ing minute. I don't want to be low constantly like I am. I don't want to be seen as attention seeking (even though this will probably look like it). **** it all.

Was having a good afternoon til I started having flashbacks on a bus, yeah, harder to handle than when I get them at home :'( Pathetic.

*cuddles everyone*

Doikers 11-08-2010 05:36 PM

Oh Helen *Hugs* I'm sorry you had flashbacks whilst out :( The post really doesn't come over as attention seeking Helen .

MammaMia 11-08-2010 05:54 PM

*hugs Mark* Thanks. So over everything =[

PoisonedApple 11-08-2010 06:06 PM

Quote:

Crimson, I've actually never said anything about it.
Oh good I thought I was just being daft :)

Quote:

Long story put really short: my dad died when I was six, mom became abusive toward me, mom got remarried in May, mom moved to VA and took my brother and refuses to let my grandparents see him, so my grandparents are angry. There's a whole lot more crap mixed into that, but those are the big things. But mom wants to see me on Saturday (her birthday), and it'll be in a public place so I feel okay with going, my grandparents just don't like it.
Ah, I can see their reasoning. I'm glad you opted to see her in a public setting. *hugs* But I don't think it disappoints them so much as worries them.

*cuddles Helen*
*hugs Mark* It wouldn't be so bad if I knew why I'm so blasted tired all the time... I thought before it was that my average sleep a night is 6 hours but with more on the weekends (10-12/night) but with 8.5 last night and still tired I dunno... *accepts pillow*

MammaMia 11-08-2010 06:11 PM

*hugs Crimson*

SoMuchMore 11-08-2010 06:15 PM

*hugs mark, helen, crimson, louise, kahlia, felicia, and april*

Why do dreams always have to screw with me? *hides away*

shadowedsoul 11-08-2010 06:23 PM

Huggles everbody. Argh!!!! people in rl really need to engage the brains before they speak, and stop trying to undo the good we are doing. All hell has broken loose at my house right now, it's like world war 3. And this is only the calm before the storm. Hmm so over this, why can't it just go back to normal. Curls up and crys.

Doikers 11-08-2010 07:14 PM

*Hugs Laura* Whats the matter Laura?

*Hugs Jill* Whats going on ?

misskitty112 11-08-2010 07:20 PM

Hey Mark, how are you?
*hugs Laura* I'm sorry the dreams are messing with you.
Crimson, yeah, I can see them being worried... I mean, we only went through almost 14 years of abuse. But I really really want to see my brother (I haven't seen him in a long time) and my mom comes with the territory.

On another note, I am about 72 different types of nervous today. It's craziness.


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