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dark_light 22-01-2009 11:40 AM

*waves*
coming to hide in here for a bit
preferable to the real psych ward i am currently residing in!

ravynsoul 22-01-2009 11:44 AM

*waves back* Hi dark_light; welcome!!

*offers a duvet and a mug of hot chocolate*

Mary Anne 22-01-2009 12:24 PM

Hi everyone,

sorry I went AWOL for a bit, was in a bit of a dark hole.

Dayna, not had the chance to go back and find our what happened but from reading between the lines I think I know your pain.

Take care everyone, will try to check in a bit later on when I am home.

*leaves hugs and creme eggs*

Damnation. 22-01-2009 12:56 PM

Bleh.

Mary Anne: Ugh, I feel sorry for you. It's horrible *hugs*

Hey there dark_light *waves back also*

*Hugs Ravyn*

Wildly: Thanks all the same, tis appreciated. I'm just dreading today now ._.;. 'Cause he's gonna be online later. I doubt he'll talk to me, but...eh. Even though he claimed he was gonna leave RYL, it wouldn't surprise me if he's gonna continue stalking my posts

Nicole: Glad to see you back, hope you're not doing too badly

*Hugs Zowie* I'm glad to see that your appointment went well, and good luck with the art therapy

* * *

In a fairly bad way today. Yesterday, when all this **** started up, I went through a wide range of emotions. I started crying, stayed deeply depressed, got angry, hell, even felt okay at one point. Didn't last; I've been more depressed than owt else. But I was stable. Which took me by surprise. Now that unstability has finally hit me.

Dark, dark thoughts again. Bad mental images. Last night I could hardly stop crying. Even worse, I have my near full packet of new meds, and packets of painkillers downstairs, so I'm trying to distract myself. And I'm completely alone. There's no one here irl to stop me, should...I get out of hand. My housemate's off to see a judge, I think, which the council advised us to do, to ask for an extention of our eviction deadline. Eviction and realising that I've been lied two for the past ... God knows exactly. Months. Months. Why the ****ing hell should I bother any more?

wildly insane 22-01-2009 01:29 PM

I think Puppy SinClair might get fat if everybody keeps feeding him, hell I might get fat if I keep eating all this chocolate..mmm...creme eggs...

Interview went okay, in fact I did my goddamnest best, but unfortunately I don't think it was good enough as at the end he said, don't worry if we don't get hold of you immediately we might be squabbling over someone and if we do ask someone else they may not accept the post ... hmm makes me think they have someone else in mind, no matter I did my best... keep on slogging

*gives Dayna a huge hug* keep going hun

*hugs mouse, Shell, Zowie, Dark Light and anybody else who pops by and wants one*

I'm now off to work but am celebrating tonight - friend's birthday (going to bake ginger cake, will make an extra one for you guys - and the fact that my interview is over and done with - wish me luck alcohol is demonic :P

Damnation. 22-01-2009 01:30 PM

Wildly: I'm trying my best. And good luck with the interview. If you think it went well, that I'm sure it did <3

Detour. Derail 22-01-2009 03:09 PM

I proper want a creme egg now :x

Im sleepy.
and bored.
and dont want to go to work.

because i feel SUUUUPPPPEEEERRRRRRR sad.

&& really down.


&& the last thing i need is people shouting at ME because THEY cant manage their own money.


Blah.


=[

Eclectica 22-01-2009 03:40 PM

Today I wake up, and realise something..

Yesterday, I was badly dissociated. I caused hell. Yet, I feel nothing today. No pain, no anger, no regret. Nothing.

Damnation. 22-01-2009 03:41 PM

You weren't the one who caused the hell *hugs*

MammaMia 22-01-2009 05:27 PM

What a week this is turning out to be, thank god it's friday again tomorrow and I can laze if I wants. Having a very testing day. Firstly I kept having panic attacks again like yesterday (where I then had flashabacks and possibly disassoicated) but least I was safer today. Then I had my meeting about missing assignments/lectures. After a lonnnnnng chat and explaining (so hard...) it looks like I will remain a full time student until the summer & do my new modules, then re-enrol in september but as part time 1st year student and re-do the modules I've not completed/handed in this year. But it may not be happening. So yeah. Plus got to ask myself some deep questions and return into counselling, it was time to go back anyway....*sighs*

zowie 22-01-2009 07:29 PM

*Hugs Helen* I know what a bummer it is when your illness makes you miss too many lectures. Hopefully it'll turn out alright for you :)

Feeling a bit low at the moment. Hugs would be nice *weak smile*
xxx

shadowedsoul 22-01-2009 07:55 PM

hmm just going to curl up in the corner, feeling low, and unwell.

Auburn Shadow 22-01-2009 08:44 PM

*sigh* sorry I haven't been around much, again. Just, things getting on top of me. Tonight's going to hell. Been triggered to cut all day, but now, I'm getting triggered to OD, or something. Saw my counsellors on Tuesday, which was good, and helped, for a little, but, they gave me this sheet to check everything off that I think about myself, like the bad bits, and I can't do it, not without getting triggered or angry and then taking it out on Tom. *sigh* I tried telling him how I'm feeling but it's almost like he doesn't think it's important enough to worry about. I dunno.

MammaMia 22-01-2009 09:27 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by zowie (Post 1374991)
*Hugs Helen* I know what a bummer it is when your illness makes you miss too many lectures. Hopefully it'll turn out alright for you :)

Feeling a bit low at the moment. Hugs would be nice *weak smile*
xxx

Thanks sweetie *sighs* I am glad the option miht be there but I feel like I've ****ed it all up, well I already did...so yeah *cuddles back and then cuddles you lots and hopes you feel better soon*

Quote:

Originally Posted by Auburn Shadow (Post 1375199)
*sigh* sorry I haven't been around much, again. Just, things getting on top of me. Tonight's going to hell. Been triggered to cut all day, but now, I'm getting triggered to OD, or something. Saw my counsellors on Tuesday, which was good, and helped, for a little, but, they gave me this sheet to check everything off that I think about myself, like the bad bits, and I can't do it, not without getting triggered or angry and then taking it out on Tom. *sigh* I tried telling him how I'm feeling but it's almost like he doesn't think it's important enough to worry about. I dunno.

*cuddles tight* Love you sweetie <3

Jetforce 22-01-2009 10:01 PM

*jumps and cuddles hells*

Hang in there matey...ok?

xxx

Detour. Derail 22-01-2009 11:33 PM

blah blah blah blahhh....
*waves arms around and collapses*

The following content has been hidden - Reason : **MAY TRIGGER ED**

I got complimented yesterday....told i looked good and i lost weight...

It should be enough to make me happy...
but im gonna keep going...until someone tells me im too thin and i look in their eyes and know they mean it...


so.tired.

MammaMia 22-01-2009 11:53 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Jetforce (Post 1375362)
*jumps and cuddles hells*

Hang in there matey...ok?

xxx

*cuddles Jem*

ravynsoul 23-01-2009 12:20 AM

*comes in and cuddles everyone*

Helen - sorry to hear about your bad week; thankfully friday is near! Don't have much in terms of words *sends lots of hugs*

Alexx - how did work end up going? hope you get more energy soon.

Jem - how are you doing?

Hana - hope the triggeredness passes quickly. Do you think you could save that sheet till just before your next appointment, that way you'll feel safer?

Shadowedsoul - *offers pillow and duvet* do you want to talk about it?

Zowie - *hugs and hugs some more* hope you feel better soon

Dayna - how are you doing today? Sorry to hear about the thoughts.. please try and be safe. How did things go before the judge?

Katrica - how are you doing today? *hugs*

Hannah - hope that things go well with the aftermath of the interview; maybe what he said was just a standard line? So people don't get anxious about not getting called right away? HOpe you have a fun time tonite celebrating your friends birthday! Enjoy the cake!

Mary Anne - sorry to hear that things weren't/aren't good.. hope some light shines through soon. *hugs back and gratefully accepts creme egg*

*leaves hugs for everyone else... hope things are going well*

--

*sits and cuddles with Puppy Sinclair*
been ill today with a bad cold and left work early and slept most of the day.. feeling very restless now..

take care all..

Damnation. 23-01-2009 01:12 AM

Going to see the judge tomorrow. Couldn't go yesterday 'cause of lack of money. Hearing tomorrow at 10am.

...Everything's fallen to pieces. Contact with him...has been established. It's so painful

Eclectica 23-01-2009 02:08 AM

I'm ****ing LOSING AGAIN

wildly insane 23-01-2009 02:17 AM

aarrgghh why do this to myself? I dont know but still I do

cake not made today will make tomorrow

wants to give everybody a huge hug and say it's going to be okay, will do it, curls up in a corner can't write any more.

keep fighting guys, you deserve better than this. good luck with house hunting/university/relationships/anythig else.

*offers warm duvet and hot water bottle to anyone staying the night, but I get puppy SinClair tonight unless of course he's needed elsewhere :)*

zowie 23-01-2009 10:22 AM

Thank you for the cuddles Ravyn and Helen.

Shadowed - *hugs* do you know why you feel so low?

Hana - Keep talking to us while you feel triggered. I know how hard it is, but you can get through this :)

Jem - Hello *Waves* Don't think I've spoken to you in a while, how're things going?

Alexx - I'm sure the people who complimented you actually meant it. Try not to see it as a challenge to loose more weight, rather see it as an achievement.

Ravyn - Aww, being ill sucks. I hope Puppy SinClair cheers you up!

Dayna - *hugs* Not sure what you mean by seeing the judge?

Katricia - How are you doing? Do you need to talk? *hugs*

wildly insane (name? sorry!) - *hugs back* thanks for the words of encouragement :)

---
I'm feeling better today. My JSA finally came through but my overdraft swallowed £35 of it so I have to give every penny to my dad for rent AND still owe him loads because I've been borrowing a lot recently. I'm glad it's the weekend though, not because it means a break (because I have absolutely nothing to do during the day) but because it means people are free and going out and I can join them. Yay! (And yes, it also means borrowing more money :P)
Okay. I'll shut up now.
*Leaves hugs for everyone and pets puppy sinclair*
xxx

MammaMia 23-01-2009 01:00 PM

Two of my friends are in hospital.
Great >_<

Mary Anne 23-01-2009 01:18 PM

Despite my promises still been a bit sporadic about getting myself to check in. Had a bit of trouble with eating habits and laxative abuse but hopefully I have got myself back under some sort of control.

Helen *hugs* sorry to hear about your friends, blad you are staying on at uni for the rest of the year and that there are option ahead of you to stay there.

Ravyn *offers more hugs!* hoping the light will poke through soon

Zowie *hugs* I'm glad the weekend is nearly here too

*hugs Kat* what's up?

*hugs Wildly Insane*
*hugs Dayna*
*hugs Nicole*
*hugs Voice of Reason*
*hugs Jetforce*
*leaves hugs and mini eggs* :)

MammaMia 23-01-2009 02:08 PM

*hugs back* Thanks Mary Anne.

Things are really getting to me right now, I'm trying so desperately hard to stay strong but it's too hard. But nothing that is worth something in life is easy or whatever they say.

Eclectica 23-01-2009 02:39 PM

My 'MPD' is getting out of hand. Everything can trigger anyone off. Anger, sad, pain, paranoia, negative things... One of my alters hated me at first, then we became ok, now she's all pissy and rage filled yet again. URGH. I can't stand this. I switch daily. Depending on how the day goes depends on what the frig happens inside my head. So these hectic few months have been hell inside.

I give up, really.

*Hugs everyone*

Detour. Derail 23-01-2009 03:41 PM

Uh....UHHHHH ><

That was not nice.

Talking to a customer...laaadeeeedaaaahdaaaah
"Hi Alexx...my card isnt working on the internet..."
"Well can i take the last four digits of the long number please Mrs. Smith...then I can check the status..."
"Yeah sure....its 2278"
*goes to card screen*
"************2278. Card Purged"
"erm...you...erm...need to...really need to...speak...to...erm...another department. Illtransferyounowbye."

HORRID HORRID HORRID.

What a ridiculous status to put on a card...I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT IT MEANS BUT ITS TRIGGERY ><

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Shut up now Alexx

Tears of Solitude 23-01-2009 03:55 PM

I just wanted to say thank you so much for the support I got when I came to this thread.

At the time I needed it so much. You are all lovely people and if any of you need to chat, please PM me anytime.

Im feeling a bit better, and will make sure I come to visit and offer my support for others

Thank you xxx
Jade xxx

zowie 23-01-2009 04:17 PM

Glad you're feeling better Jade, even if it is a little bit.
Take care of yourself xxx

wildly insane 23-01-2009 05:44 PM

*Hugs Helen* congrats at getting the course almost sorted and sorry to hear about your friends, I hope they are going to be okay, hope you are feeling an ickle bit better today.

*hugs Arwen* hope you enjoy the weekend - I'm Hannah by the way :-D

*hugs Kat* please don't give up

*hugs Alexx* hope the triggeredness stops

*hugs Jade* glad you're feeling a little better, please join us for tea and cake whenever you like

*hugs Mary Anne* hope you're doing okay

*and hugs to anyone else dropping in and needing one*

However right now I'm going to curl up in a corner and wish I was better at crying, hides underneath a duvet, and wishes that I could stay here the entire weekend, but I can't. Didn't get the job, feel lonely, even when surrounded by friends.

MammaMia 23-01-2009 06:24 PM

*cuddles all*

OMFG

MY FRIEND HAS GONE MISSING >.< (she's one of th people who went to hospital today...as she'd attempted to die >.<) but we may have found her, just waiting.......

I hate this. I feel so **** >_<

Damnation. 23-01-2009 08:15 PM

*Hugs Helen* x_o I hope she turns up and is safe

Zowie: Had to see a judge today in regards to our eviction, in the hopes that we'll get our deadline extended. More on that in a minute, though

Kat: *Hugs tightly and doesn't let go* Please hang in there

*Hugs Wildly*

Jade: Glad to hear that we've been of support to you

Mary Anne: Pleased you've got it under control now

Voice: >___< *Hugs tightly* I know what you mean. I used to get triggered by that word, as well

* * *

Anyway, as I said earlier, my housemate and me went to see a judge in court today. The hearing went okay, we've been granted an extra two weeks from today, until the bailiffs come. An extra two weeks to find somewhere to live.

The only bugger now is that if we still can't find anywhere to live, well, my dad and his girlfriend are going on holiday around about that time, so getting there would be...interesting. I'm in Lancashire, he's in Suffolk, and I don't travel well alone. At all. *Sigh*

MammaMia 23-01-2009 08:19 PM

She was found not long after I posted :)

Things are just pretty ****.

Glad you been granted two more weeks and I so hope you can find somewhere *snuggles*

Damnation. 23-01-2009 08:32 PM

Glad to hear it. And I'm sorry things aren't going too well for you either >_<.

And thanks. We're hoping so too *snuggles back*

MammaMia 23-01-2009 09:21 PM

Things will have a way of fixing themselves? Meh. >.< I tried to escape my thoughts and stuff on tv, firstly I see an episode of someone telling a family member they've been raped (well I really wantes to see that didn't I? Then...there was conversation where the daughter went and hugged her mum tightly (who didnt hug back) and said "don't hate me mum for what I've done"....which brought back the three times I've said that to mum after she found out about the same thing...but on different occasions...

*snuggles*

Damnation. 23-01-2009 09:23 PM

Ugh, ouch x__O *hugs back again*

MammaMia 23-01-2009 09:38 PM

Indeed.

I am tempted to contact the person I had a meeting with yesterday as she did say I could talk to her anytime about anything. But I don't know...and I feel like I abuse it when people say that? :S

Eclectica 23-01-2009 09:56 PM

*Hugs everyone*

I fear getting switchy again.

Eclectica 23-01-2009 10:18 PM

The following content has been hidden - Reason : ED triggers
"I'm on a diet." "But you don't need to." "Everyone can look better." ... American Psycho movie.


Simple words. Yet triggering. I don't have an ED, but someone said I do. Though, I really don't. I just don't like food. Urgh **** sake sake sake sake sake.

Eclectica 24-01-2009 01:13 AM

I Find It So Hard To Keep From Speaking My Fukin Mind Im So Fukin Annoyd I Dno What To Do Arrg

Tears of Solitude 24-01-2009 11:09 AM

MammaMia I am so sorry that you are going through such a hard time < big hugs >.

Poisonious I do hope you find somewhere very soon. I completely understand about travelling alone. I find it hard just going out the house.

Katrica < big hugs >

I hope in time I get to know your names

Im feeling better, Thank you. < big hugs to everybody > I have updated my thread in Serious about my appt with my Psych.

I hope everyone has a good weekend???? Whats everyone got planned.

Luv Jade xxx

Tears of Solitude 24-01-2009 11:12 AM

Thanks Zowie for making me feel welcome.

Have a good weekend < hugs >

Luv Jade xxx

zowie 24-01-2009 02:49 PM

*Hugs Jade back*
*Hugs Helen* If she said you could talk to her anytime, then she probably means it. You should talk to her :)

Rocky Horror themed party tonight, yay! x

Mary Anne 24-01-2009 06:21 PM

Hi everyone,

Zowie - who you going as? I love Rocky horror.

Sorry, I keep promising to come in and never do. Well, Saturday night so as usual I am home alone so here I am.

How is everyone?

Helen, sounds like you had a scare there. People don;t say you can call me lightly so please do go ahead and give them a call. *hugs*

*leaves hugs for everyone*

I miss this place when I don;t come in.

Damnation. 24-01-2009 07:47 PM

....

What the ****?

WHAT THE FLYING GODDAMN ****?!

COUNCIL TAX DEBT?! WHAT THE ****ING HELL?!

They're trying to claim that I owe £918...WHAT THE ****?! THAT. IS. BULLSHIT. My housemate has to go to the council anyway on Tuesday, so we're gonna get this **** sorted out then.

Patience: I've ****ing run out of it

MammaMia 24-01-2009 08:23 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Tears of Solitude (Post 1378106)
MammaMia I am so sorry that you are going through such a hard time < big hugs >.

Thank you, hugs back

Quote:

Originally Posted by zowie (Post 1378362)
*Hugs Helen* If she said you could talk to her anytime, then she probably means it. You should talk to her :)

I know, I jus don't want to abuse it as it were

Quote:

Originally Posted by Mary Anne (Post 1378679)
Helen, sounds like you had a scare there. People don;t say you can call me lightly so please do go ahead and give them a call. *hugs*

I will do maybe.

Dayna, that sucks, I hope you get it all sorted soon *hugs*

Damnation. 24-01-2009 08:24 PM

So do I. Any more stress, and I will break. It's a ****ing miracle I haven't already *hugs back*.

I hope things start looking up for you soon, as well

Tears of Solitude 24-01-2009 08:29 PM

Wow Poisonous, thats a huge amount. I hope you get it sorted xxx I dont blame you for being shocked and angry. xxx

How are you Mamma Mia??????

Zowie, let us know how the Rocky Horror themed party goes < sounds like great fun >

Luv Jade xxx

Damnation. 24-01-2009 09:21 PM

Jade: (Nice name, t'was my sisters ^__^) Call me Däyna. And yeah. Last time I checked, my housemate and me were meant to be getting council tax benefit, too. So what the ****?

BoundNoMore 24-01-2009 09:31 PM

I don't know how much longer I can take this ****!!!! *screams*


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