*hugs Mark* I disagree 200% with the second sentence and whole heartedly agree with the third. Ok well it may not be her fault but you are not "ugly inside and out and totally unlovable". I'd expand on the subject but I'm not in a place to do so atm...

I agree with Crimson Mark, your not ugly at all. I'm sorry though that things havnt been able to work out for you with her. *hugs* I hope sleep helps

*hugs Crimson* I hope you can find a new job thats not so stressful

*hugs Oliver* It wouldn't be so stressful if the people here weren't grown children... My boss tries to just be nicety nice to everyone and that just doesn't work. She asked about an issue earlier in the month and when I told her ALL about it I get an apology -not from the person who was wrong- and a praise in the next staff meeting -that I didn't even get to go to- and now is the 2nd time since our email session that someone has intentionally messed up my office. When I brought it up (with pictures I took with my phone) she said 'people do strange things', 'maybe it was an accident', 'theres been a lot of people in your office lately', 'we can't just accuse someone', 'even if we asked no one would admit it' yet when i bring up putting up a spy cam i get 'we can't do that'... why the f not? the court has cameras everywhere... if it's a matter of it being me to put it up, I can have one of the guys in IT install it for me...and I can't lock my door to keep people out while I'm off doing roving clerk duties... *shakes head* I've just had enough of working with people in their 40s and 50s that act more childish and throw more temper tantrums than my 4 yr old. That is the sad truth, I work with people 25-65 and the ones that act like children are (for the most part) in their 40s and 50s...

*Hugs Mark* Your not ugly mark, i know its hard when someone says they only want to be friends but you are not ugly. Your a great guy. I'm sorry that it didnt work out.

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Oliver* Sorry your struggling

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Megz*

*Hugs Jill*

*Hugs Angel*

*Hugs Kahlia*

*Hugs Habibi*

*hugs ian*

Ok, so, it has been a stressful couple days, but somehow I have survived with minimal damage. Wish I could say I was SI free, but I can't lie. Looks like lots of activities going on for everyone, please stay safe.

Leaves a tray of cookies and heads to corner to hide.

*Hugs Oliver*
*Hugs Crimson*
*Hugs Ian*
*Hugs Angel* I hope you're safe hun :)
*Hugs Mors Certa*

Thankyou to everyone for being so kind :)

Hello all. I'm apologising in advance for not doing everyone in individuals as I'm still not that good myself.

Oliver - I had almost this exact same experience last year. They put me in with a new doctor and she freaked out and overreacted (yes I was extremely depressed and suicidal and only gave her the facts). This doctor immediately ordered me to go to the hospital. If that wasn't enough (could have been ignored) she fought with the director of the practice to get me an ambulance!!! Not that the psych ward here did anything much, but I do have some understanding of the situation. Whatever you reply, I hope that you get what you need.

Okay, I know that I'm seconding the opinion of many others but Mark, you are definitely not ugly inside. Being "ugly inside" can be said to also refer to your personality. You have shown compassion to many of us in here and you are trying to improve your situation. You are not an ugly person. I'm not going to start on "unlovable" because I'll end up quoting my mother and my fiance and they might someday find out I actually listened. :tongue2:

Crimson: 1) I hope you manage to find a new GP that is okay with your insurance, and 2) I hope you can find a new job easily that severely reduces your stress! You've been fighting for so long with the housing situation and work especially. I am really hoping that you can finally get some relief. Really seriously crossing my fingers for you hun.

We are moving. We got approved for a place $20 a week cheaper and it has just been renovated to boot! We take possession on the 5th of May and are trying to find people to help us move (given that my R shoulder has nerves that are damaged and keeps cutting out my R hand).

I got a phone call from the psych ward (which really freaked me out to be honest) saying that my psychiatrist had organised scripts for two of my meds I wouldn't otherwise have been able to afford. We had to catch the bus to the hospital and wait about an hour before they were ready but $11.20 per month versus $200 per month. Whatever currency you use that is so much better.

It looks like things might be finally looking up for us, but I would not like to say that too loud at the moment! Really missing you all and very sorry that I've been pretty distant since I got home from hospital. :-)

Yay Kahlia Hun , *Very quietly whispers that I'm happy things are looking up for you* And Thanks Too :) *Hugs*

hugs everyone

*Hugs Louise* How are you hun?

soso, How are you?

Numb from Lithium I think , It stops me being upset to much but it stops me being happy , *Dusts off my happy mask for the weekend*

hugs mark, i know this is a bit late, but i second what other people are saying. you are no way shape or from ugly inside. you are amazing, caring guy. who even when he is struggling still helps people. i think the world of you mark. you will find the right person mark. huggles

*hugs everyone*

Mark - I echo what everyone else has said. You are in no way ugly.

Sorry. That's all I can do right now. I have really not been myself the past few days. I need to SI.

*Hugs Jill* Thanks Hun :)

*Hugs Laura* Thankyou too hun ,please stay safe .

Thanks Kahlia. I think I found a doctor office that is decent and seems to take both insurances... Their hours are the same as my work hours though :( I suppose missing a couple hours of work for it is okay though. I have the leave time and at least they'll take my insurance.

Glad you found a more affordable snazzy new place and hope you can find someone to help out/ And I'm especially happy for you getting your meds in a way you can afford to be on them.*hugs*

*hugs Mors* We may all have stuff going on but we're all here if you wanna talk to us. *turns into ward mum* Now be sure to keep those wounds cleaned and cared for! *snags a white chocolate macadamia nut cookie*

*hugs Louise, Laura and Jill*

*hugs Mark* I got your PM and will reply properly a little later today (have to clean up my office and such from yesterday and don't have time right now) but I said to PM if you need so it is not dumping it on me. *extra hugs*

P.S.~ I may be a bit hyper later... I had already been drinking a soda and Kelley insisted (actually said she wouldn't leave me alone till I agreed) on getting me a coffee as a thank you for her file the other day... I finally gave in and told her what drink I'd like and she got me a 20 oz latte... seriously... 20 oz. Oy vey. But the Milano Chocolate is delicious.

*waves to everyone*

*Hugs Crimson* Thanks Hun :)

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you hun?