Feelings so alone n scared...

I knew i was enough so y try n make me feel like i was, just to drop me from a greater height when u decide that im not enough...

Scared of myself and what i want to do

Sorry

*cuddles lia and anyone else who wants*

*Hugs Needhelp*

*Hugs Heather* How're you?

*shrug*
how're u mark?

Coping Heather , Just about *Hugs*

*Hugs Heather, Mark and Needhelp*

Needhelp, I don't know what happened, so I don't know what advice to give, but I do know the feeling. Try and do something distracting that you like. Reading perhaps, or watching something pointless on TV.

*hugs all*

*hugs all and puts brownies on the table*

Things haven't gotten any better... in fact they feel like they are getting worse again. I would like to give up, but I can't. Sigh. So everyday I get to go through all of this in my head... oh so fun it is XD

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Matt*

*Night Time Hugs My Wardies*

As the above post *Hugs* :)

*huggles everyone*

*Huggles Laura*

I went on my bike for the first time since the accident yesterday. I only managed 2.5 miles and had to stop for 10 mins as i felt all dizzy. I rode home and almost collapsed. Had to lay down for an hour or so after as i felt so dreadful. Now i didnt sleep, i feel so tired and i cant seem to put my finger on just how i feel but all i can say is its liek a deep exhaustion.

Ive promised to go to the gym twice a week and im suppoosed to go today and i can barely get dressed.

Im trying though and its a start i guess. I just wish recovery wasnt so ****ing hard. Its so unfair and painful. I feel the effects of illness so much more now than when i was really bad. I guess it proves just how much it takes over your life.

*burps on everyone*

http://www.addictinggames.com/life-s...thepenguin.jsp

*hugs mark* how r u doing?

*hugs matthew (if okay?)* Good for you for getting back on your bike! That's super important. An injury can make the effects of illness a lot worse... you will start feeling better. Just takes time and patience... something I struggle with when it comes to MH issues heh. I hope you can make it to the gym, but if you can't, don't beat yourself up about it. Give yourself a little bit to get back on track.
I'm Laura, by the way, I don't think we've ever been introduced :-)

*Hugs Matt* Hi I'm Mark :) Getting on your bike seems a big step , Thats great!

*Hugs Laura*

I'm tired (7am Kick off anyone ? hehe) but feel okay otherwise :)

I would like to take sanctuary in this virtual ward....
if that is okay... it would be lovely.
I have all my own blankets and pillows and I promise I won't cause trouble...

*sneaks into the corner and curls up*

*Waves to Mouise* Hey , I'm Mark :)

*hugs mousie if ok* welcome I'm Crimson. :)

*burps back on Matthew (always was a bit of a tomboy :D )* I'm proud of you for getting back on your bike and while it may not seem much to you 2.5 miles is nothing to sneeze at! *hugs* you'll get there... babysteps will help!

*huggles Mark and Laura*

Thank. I'm ok with hugs. *waves back to Mark and accepts hug from Crimson*
I just need some place where I can breath... this seems like the right place. Thank you

*inhale... exhale*