*hugs Mark*
*hugs Becca*
*hugs Laura*

brings in pillows and blankets. and just curls up in a corner trying not to cry..

Hey all *gives all hugs*

Sorry I haven't been around lately, been really busy and on vacation with family.

*places some fresh cookies and brownies on the table*

Really triggered and depressed right now... haven't been like this in awhile. Trying to be good, but its really hard right now. *rocks in the corner*

Has anyone heard from Oliver? He hasnt been around for a while. I wondered if he was ok as im worried about him.

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs Laura*

*hugs Ian* Oliver is in hospital for a few days, with very limited access to his phone. How r u doing?

*hugs Matt* Do you know what has triggered you? I hope you are feeling better soon

*hugs Jules* I'm Laura :) I don't think we've been introduced...Whats up hun?

*hugs Laura* How are you?

*hugs Mark* good luck with the detoxing. Hope you are okay.

I am not totally sure Laura. Its often different things that combine together. I think it was built up emotional pain I have had for a while that has boiled over. I am quit tired of being the overlooked child in my family, even though I am the oldest. I wish I had the love of others and my family like I see my friends and siblings. What does that feel like to be wanted, to be needed, the such? Just to hear the words, "I love you?" :(

Sorry for the vent... just had to get that lil bit out. I am trying to go sleeps, but its tough right now for me to ignore the voices, the urges to hurt myself. But I will try not to.

*hugs Matt* No need to be sorry, hun. Always around if you need to talk. I'm so sorry that your family makes you feel that way. You don't deserve that at all. I hope you are able to sleep. Please try to stay as safe as you can.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Jules if okay?*

*Hugs Matt*

*Hugs Ian*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs everyone*
That was a crazy camping trip...

*Glomps Charlie*

*hugs all*
sorry I'm not doing individuals.
I don't really have much time today. Have to visit my grandparents, go to the store and buy soy products for mom and I have to pack my things for tomorrow.

*Hugs Laura* I Hope tomorrow and your stay go really well for you :)

I just decided that it can't be too bad. They wont let me die and they prob are trying to make it so I don't want to die, right?

how's your detox going?

hugs everyone

Right Laura :) *Hugs* Well it's coming up to when I start drinking but I'm expecting the withdrawels tomorrow and Wednesday :(

*Hugs Louise*

hugs mark

*hugs everyone then heads out to the garden with puppy sinclair*

*hugs Mark*
*hugs Louise*
*hugs Crimson*

I'm wondering how bad it's going to be when I really need to injure but they wont let me.

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Laura* Try talking to a nurse when that happens hun , that is why they're there :)

right... and they are going to snap their fingers and it disappears.
I don't see the point in telling them. It's not like they can do much. It's too late once I have to injure. I didn't injure once for days and the feeling didn't go away till I gave in.