Thanks, Heather. It's just, I...don't feel alive or connected to anything. I think I am going to overdose to get away from the world for a little while, if it even works because I don't have as much medication as I usually overdose on. I need to be careful though because I can't go to hospital because I will have no excuse for my brother.

*hugs lindsay and Heather*

I'm not good, really want to OD, trying to keep myself distracted.

What's making you want to OD, Oliver?

I'm not sure, the urge is there and its so strong, can't seem to think of much else.

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs lindsay*

*hugs Mark* how are you?

Oliver, remember that you don't have to act on these urges. You have the strength to get through this. It won't help you in the long run if you OD.

*hugs all*

just came home. last week was exhausting.

Heather: my cat used to look like that but now she's grown up and sadly a bit fat.

*Hugs Lindasay*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Oliver*

*hugs Mark* how are you?

*hugs Mark, Lindsay and Laura*

ok I'm running out of things to distract myself with, I'm trying so hard to keep myself busy, but the thoughts of wanting to OD and end my life are really strong.

PM open guys n gals

*Hugs Oliver* Sorry your struggling, im here if you need me

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Heidi*

*Hugs Heather*

*hugs Ian* how are you?

****ed up... I really am...

Now going to get drunk. Safest out of the options.

I'm ok thanks Oliver :)

*Hugs Phoenix* Whats wrong? Do you want to talk to us about it?

Just flashback after flashback after... Oooh. More flashbacks.

I'll bed ok. Eventually

Today sucks. I'm pretty much over everything. Biding my time until work ends so I can go home and do some light SI. Just enough to take the edge off.

*hugs everyone* sorry to hear so many of you are struggling.

*cuddles heidi, pheonix, oliver, lindsay, ian, mark, laura, heather, and everyone i missed*

I signed a lease today for a Sept 1 apartment!!! yay! I'm so ready to move!

*snuggles Laura* Thanks darlin. Just a really rough day. Congrats on signing the lease! I'm excited for you