*makes soup for ill wardies*

*hugs Laura* sorry your ill, hope you feel better soon.

thanks Crimson for the idea, I hadn't thought of that, my GP is amazing and so nice that she would probably be ok talking to my mum, but I still don't want that to be the outcome *hugs*

*hugs Oliver* you may not want that outcome but making yourself more stressed over it being a potential outcome won't help either. It is always good to have the option there if it comes down to it :)

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Mark*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Mara*

*Hugs Crimson*

*hugs Crimson* yes your right thanks. I'm going to try and not think about it until I have counselling on wednesday when we are going to talk about it.

*hugs Ian* how are you?

there are noisy drunk people in the flats next to me and upstairs, I don't like it

*hugs Ian and Oliver*

Iv been a bit fed up today, struggling to know what to do with myself.

*hugs Ian*

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Crimson*

*Hugs Louise*

*Hugs Ian*

*hugs everyone*

I'm so afraid that my life is going to be difficult forever. I need out of here or I at least need to cut and overdose.

*Hugs Lindsay* I know the feeling Hun, It will get better , It will .

I hope so, Mark. How are you?

I'm stressing over trying , But not succeding much with Making Dinner Reservations for Felicia and I..... Never done this before , wish people would answer their phones....

*hugs Mark and Lindsay*

*Squishes Oliver*

Maybe you could just go for a picnic, Mark!

That is a plan for one day Lindsay , But you know the weather can be changable , I want to find out where there's a park to picnic in , Thanks for the tip though (Hugs)

Have you managed to reserve a place yet, Mark?

2 , One Indian as Felicia has never had Indian food and one English,continental and East European Food .
*Hugs Lindsay*
I'm getting anxious , It's getting more and more "real".

I'm pretty triggered...........It's been 12 days though I would feel crap tomorrow if I screwed up today.
My mind is convincing me Felicia won't like me when she meets me , life woulden't be worth it without her......Sorry to moan :(

I'm sorry you're feeling that way, Mark. Maybe it would help to write down why you shouldn't self harm and also why Felicia WILL like you.

I just spoke breifly with Felicia , she brings a smile to my face :)

*hugs all*

I'm not ill anymore. yaay.

*Hugs Laura* Yey!

*hugs mark* how are you?

Getting royally confused over train timetables.....

*hugs Mark* yay for getting some reservations done :) sorry your feeling like harming though, have you got some distraction coping things you can do. and yeah train timetables are silly.

*hugs Laura* I'm glad your not ill anymore :)

*hugs Lindsay* how are you?

you two are silly <3
you'll like her and she'll like you.
end offffff.
*tickles*

i jealous of you two *sulks* :P

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Heather* :) Hehe tickles!

*hugs everyone*

I'm feeling really low today. Want to self harm badly enough to need stitches. The crisis team are coming round at 3 to do a review because they think that my crisis is over. It's only just getting started. :(

*Squishes Lindsay Tightly*

Thanks, Mark.

I saw the crisis team but didn't manage to tell them how i'm feeling because they were so focused on doing the review.

PM box always open for you Lindsay hun , Or If you would like I'mm PM you my personal e-mail?

That's ok, Mark. I probably wouldn't bother you but thank you very much for the offer.

How are you doing?

I'm.........here Lindsay *Hugs*

*hugs back*

I wish there was more I could do to support you all. I wish we didn't have to go through so much pain.

*hugs Lindsay Mark and Heather*

*hugs Oliver* How are you today?

*Hugs Lindsay*

*Hugs Oliver*

I don't think I want to live any more. If only my brother wasn't around.

I'm starting my volunteering tomorrow and i'm not sure if i'll be able to keep my face on for the whole time i'm there.

*cuddles everyone who wants*

but yush. you and felicia both is silly peoples mark *tickles more* you'll both love each other loads. and both of you better go on skype with meeeeee :P

<3

*Hugs Heather*

*hugs back*

how you doin

*hugs Mark, Heather and Lindsay*

*hugs all*

I'm at Monis this week, so I probably wont be posting much.

*Hugs Heather*

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Laura* what's monis

*hugs everyone*

I'm sorry to keep complaining but i'm feeling really low. My life means nothing to me. I want to be in a constant state of overdose where it takes me to a world where nothing is real and nothing hurts. I am currently in some sort of limbo between life and death and I have no idea how to start living. I know how to die. I just wish I could do it. If my brother wasn't around I have no doubt that I would be dead by now.

*squishes Lindsay lots* I'm so sorry your feeling so low, I wish I knew what to say to make it better, trouble is I feel pretty much the same.

*hugs Oliver* I'm sorry you're feeling bad too.