food is good *nods*

hope you have fun at the movies - let me know if the spiderman one is any good!

Since the early hours of the morning I've had this idea that I need to get rid of my ribs otherwise they're going to reach out from inside me and strangle me. I am so unsafe right now. I need one of my tools but it means I've got to go upstairs and get one.

all i do is hurt ppl. not gonna post anymore. so sorry to everyone i hurt. thank you for everything.

sapphire we're all here for you, please keep talking (hugs)

katie honey *snuggles* talk whats up? you havent hurt us we love you *snuggles more*

*makes kitty wave paw back* hes good to me really lol. I didnt bake in the end haha. My mum is dragging me out 2mz :( i dont want to go. I did random stuff now im chilling watching twilight getting my fix of edward and teaching my mum how to use ebay which is fun...

I hurt sum1 in the Safe Room. I'm poisonous and thoughtless and insensitive, and evry1 here has been thru 2 much for me 2 do this to them. im so so sorry

*hugs everyone* sorry everyone is having a rough time lately.


*lays in bed staring at the ceiling*
I feel pretty sucky physically today. Last night I ended up binging and purging, so naturally today I have a horrid stomach ache and a headache, that just adds to the fact that last night I laid in bed for 2 hours trying to sleep because I was tired but nope my mind apparently had other plans. So I was stuck awake all night and no amount of medication was getting me to sleep which sucks. So today I feel sick and am in a very very pissy mood and keep snapping at everyone around me because of it. I want to calm down but I can't and just feel annoyed and can't stand anyone.

Katie honey, i had a look. The person understands it was a mistake you didnt know, they are ok and not upset or angry. You dont do anything to hurt us. Honestly its all sorted and fine now :D

Hey makesomenoise sorry your having a hard time, maybe you could have a nice bath and take some paracetamol and get into bed and just try to relax with music or reading and then maybe drop off to sleep?

*leaves cuddles*

No you're not insensitive sapphire :rose:

Thanks happiness,
I tried to lay in bed and relax with some music but it just isn't working.
I am just exhausted, I want to have a nice cup of tea but since I am out of my lactose free fat free milk I can't. I just haven't been getting much sleep and it really is wearing on me because I am already having a lot of trouble with my eating issues and the lack of sleep is turning me into a moody, grumpy, mean person. Also added stress for me is that tonight my mother decided we are having pizza, so yay now I get to be extremely anxious and stressed about that. On days like these I really shouldn't be around people because I tend to snap at everyone for the littlest things.

I am, all I do is hurt people. I'm so sorry, to everyone, here and in the Safe Room. I'm the person that you all want to hide from, the thoughtless, insensitive poisonous person that caused you all so much pain. I'm so so sorry.

*hugs sapphire* Youre not that person at all.

I'm now planning how to harm and hide it - I feel like this is a whole new, bad, stage of SH

*walks in; settles in corner with a good book*

*hugs all*
welcome to the ward bluedustedeyes.

*hugs everyone then goes into corner of ward and curls up shaking* it's all my fault

you dont hurt anyone sapphire <3 you not poisin. nope. <3

Sapphire your lovely sweetheart you always listen to me when your struggling. You are a kind caring considerate loving person *hugs*

*leaves hugs for everyone*

could do with some safe cuddles please feel scared and frightened and alone.

*Hugs and snuggles Happiness*

thank you midnight star x

*hugs midnight-star*
*hugs Heather*
*hgus Faye*

cuddles laura, how are you today?

I have to stop posting. I am poison. Everyone I know I hurt. Even when I try to help it goes wrong. I am so so sorry to everyone here.

not true hun, you're not gonna be able to know everyones individual triggers every second. *sits with* i hope you dont stop posting :/ you're lovely.

I can relate sapphire. I'm feeling the same way.

<3 sorry you're feeling the same solo :(

*hugs everyone in the ward*

*leaves hugs*

today is so unproductive :( i just want a job

Today was a Monday... I still want to cut

Please can I sneak in here? Need some safety right now, I can't trust myself. Hope everyone is doing alright? x

walks in i dont feel safe really want to hurt myself :( seeing bad things

I hope you can keep safe Saphire, can you do anything to keep distracted? Take care x

i have been trying and i cant stop thinking about it :( im scared there going to get me

*hugs saphire* no one's gonna get you hun.

hope it's ok I post here? if not, so sorry.

needed stitches the other day, for cuts I don't remember making. I didn't do it, I didn't want to hurt myself. don't know what happened :(

ok to post here. sorry needed stiches, i understand <3

No one can get you here, this place is safe. Its good that youre reaching out and talking. Keep fighting through xx

And hi sapphire hearts, sorry to hear you had to have stitches. please try to be as careful as you can xx

I feel so guilty about what I did in Safe Room. I feel awful. And logically I know it was an innocent mistake and no one hates me for it, I still feel so terrible for what i did :(

I hurt someone on RYL. I didn't mean to, I promise, but I feel awful. I made someone feel upset and triggered, and I will hate myself forever for it. I'm so sorry.

If no one wants me to post here anymore I understand

No one is infallible, we all do the best we can. Take strength and fortitude from that :)

hun, no one can know every trigger for someone. its not your fault, k? i promise.
<3

thank you. just feel so awful. i know im bad, just dont wanna spread my evil through this site...

you ARENT bad sweetie, i promise, kay?

settles in for the day, *leaves hugs*

really not feeling safe i have pills just feel like taking them...im suh a failure i dont have anything t live 4 its just beter this way :( all i do is hurt and upset people im bad :(

*gently hugs everyone*

It's coming to get me *hides*

whats wrong? <3
*sits with*
you're safe here.

*crawls into bed*

Today is a bad day with my depression. I just feel the utter hopelessness and emptiness of my life. *sigh* I am exhausted and sick of everything. I can't sleep, can't eat, and can't even gather up the energy to care.

The trains are coming to get me and they're going to cook me over a fire

I want to climb up onto the roof but if I do the trains will get me

*hugs midnight* honey, no one's coming to get you. Stay safe here with us, ok?

*hugs Noise* depression is awful, I know. But your life is not meaningless. I know you can beat this hun :)

*hugs saphire* you're not bad, and you don't hurt people. Please don't take any pills *gentle cuddles*

*curls up in corner of ward behind couch*
sleepy.

checking in

settles in for the afternoon

*leaves hugs for everyone*