*gives you cookies*

I didn't wash my hair before I went in the end because I couldn't get my ass out of bed til 20 mins before we left lol.

I know yyou did hehe, I need to reply to your comment. xxx

Awwww kools =]

*snaffles a cookie* so how does the hair look now?

I just wanna curl up in a ball and cry like a baby.

Amazing, I will have a photo but my digital camera has no power and i haven't been arsed enuff to charge it up :wow:

*dives into the corner of the ward with pillows and a blanket and hides from everybody*

I dont wanna be on crutches for my birthday *cries* they hurt my hands and shoulders

Why are you on crutches Emily? *hugs*

*hugs carole and emily*

Hope u manage to sleep well tonite carole

Yeah, y r u on crutches emily?

I hate this :(

Wats wrong dancedance?

Hugs all around!!!
*creeping in and hides under the table*

hi i thought this might be a good place to start posting in this forum, it seems to fit me well. hopefully i'll be around to post more and not in a real one :op

hi all

thanks ally and carole for comments

sorry for being a pain

need to curl up and be kept safe as in self destruct mode-want to drink myself into oblivion and never return

i hate me

I ****ing did it.

****ING SLIPPED.

*shudders*

*hugs*

Don't let a slip let u down dance!dance!...keep holding in there :)

oooh blood... ****!
I hate my life and everything about it.
Thank godness I'm going to my psych tomorrow

first off...*snuggles to all*

AND NOW..................
I AM STRIPPING!!!!!! SOMEONE FIND A STRAIGHT JACKET...AND FAST!!!!
WHOOPS...THERE GOES MY SHIRT....OOPSIE....THE PANTS FOLLOWED....I'LL KEEP MY UNDIES FOR NOW!!!!!!!:jumpin::jumpin::jumpin::jumpin::jumpin: :jumpin:

* secondly cookies for all!!*

THEN..........STARTS TO STRIP, OUCH!! TRIPS OVER SHIRT ON FLOOR, LIFTS SKIRT UP AND TIES ROUND NECK AND STICKS RACHELS 'PANTS' ON MY HEAD................(OH FOR THE LANGUAGE DIFFERENCE HE HE HE HE!!!)
WAAAAAAAAAY TO GOOOOOOOOO!!!

*takes blanket and sits infront of fire rocking*
somone please show me the emergency exit to this life!

........I DONT WEAR SOCKS. THEY WERE TUCKED BETWEEN MY TOES!! HA HA!!

MMMMMMM CHEESEY CHOCOLATE COOKIES, WITH ADDED CRUNCHY TOE NAIL CLIPPINGS!!! PLEASE HELP YOURSELVES!! YUUUUUUUUUUUUMMMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYYYY!!

*waves hello to the fellow RYLers*

*waves to Jetforce* Hi guys. Had a ehish day friday, so I staye over my friends house to let the urge I was feeling pass. I'm back, so yea. Hi.

TRhanks :D

sorry everyone

need to hide before i do more damage than what i've already just done

*hugs everyone*

Sorry, my laptop gave up on me.

*hides in a corner*

>.<

****ing can't handle all of this alone, gonna have to talk to Jess least about some of it. As I don't know when I'm seeing m counsellor...

Thanks Kim :)

Anytime.
How is everyon tonight?

hi

hope everyone's ok

i'm not to wonderful-harmed quite abit hiding in here to try and hide from life

I'm really pissed off, today has hacked me off badly. So off to bed. Night all.

*cuddles everyone esp Kim*

gah
 

21 lb in three weeks is not enough. have to loose more.

(edited pill numbers) temaz and 20 odd gashes on my arm and wrist is not enough.

because im still alive.

iv lost my best friend because of this.

i do not want to be alive

*hugs*
You might not always feel this way hunni.

Dance - sorrydont know your name - Sleep well.

I have felt this way for over 10 years with very little release.

I have lost friends before. i dont trust people easily.

with steph it was different. we understood each other.

he first words after finding out about last night were. 'you were going to leave me'

all i could do was admit it

Sounds to me like your friend is hrting right now. Perhaps they dont know what to do with their emotions. There upset and scared at the thought of losing you. This shows that they love you a great deal.
Give them a little bit of time, they will come around. But they wont if you keep doing it to them.

i should just be out of their lives for good.

then they wouldnt have to come round to anything

They would. Every day they would need to some around to th fact that they would never see you, a personthey obviously love, ever again.
Dont underestimate this. They care for you. They would never be better without you. Thats just your own minds way of trying to battle against logic.

what logic.. what is the logic in this. all that seems logical is death.

i am not supposed to be alive now

*drunk...again*
I just want to die...
Really...
If God really loved me He't take me instead of making me live this way...
Trying not to take my knife to my wrists...trying really hard...it sucks...
I just want to die...
Please...
...
I'm sorry...
I'm so sorry for this post...
*curls up in her corner and prays for death...Job 3:20-26*

hugs Ally and Charcoal

sorry i cant do more

i dont want to live anymore i dont want to feel the breath in me anymore

i want to feel the life leave me

i want out of here

but im useless i cant even do that all i can do at the moment is hurt myself and feel the pain im putting on my body but its still not enough i need something more painful

i wish someone could help me die

*sobs in corner*

*give hugs to ally, charcoal and newlife*

Hang in there guys..i know it's hard but u can do it :)

*jem hides in the corner* man i feel like **** tonite

*hugs Jo, Ally, Jetforce and Charcoal*

hugs carole








cries into the corner

**hugs carole**

Look after urself there

hugs to everyone.

i have psy app in 3 hrs.

ek.

he'll want me to go back on meds.

i just cant.

Well..can u explain to him y u can't go back on meds?

**hugs carole and leaves some cookies for her to munch on**

Hang in there mate!! the feeling will pass

Tis Helen :) I did thanks =]