Is Casualty a show about a hospital?

My new glasses have been ordered. Hopefully they will be here in two weeks. We have just scheduled our vacation/holiday, we are leaving Memorial Day weekend and planning to go to New Mexico and look for and photograph ghost towns for two weeks.

My hands are shaking today so the shirt i need to take in for a client will have to wait until tomorrow or Monday.

Yes it is :)

It really does show that. I'm sorry to hear you've been called manipulative (I have aswell....but over the internet hmmm).

My god. I'm slowly spacing out. I want to die. I don't want to die. I want to leave the earth. I don't want to hurt people. WTF do I want? Confused. Confused. Confused. Flashbacks. Bad memories. I want more good memories. But I want to be dead even tho i don't. I'm not making much sense am I?

:( Sorry

I'm...just confused...
everything is confusing me...
why is he talking to me...what does he REALLY want...because it isnt my "stunning" good looks or personality...
why are you all putting up with me...
Why does my dad makes sucj cruel jokes and jibes...
why do they treat me like im 7 instead of 17...
why am i bothering...
why do i want to carry on fighting...

*retreats to a dark, dusty, abandoned corner of the denial tent to be out of the way*

*sits and snuggles with Ally*

I love you sweetheart. Don't let anyone bring you down okay??? We CAN and WILL get through this. I promise you that. It's a hard long jounrey at times...but we'll have each other and everyone else in here....*squezes*

VBCN\GIKR H8OMYGTRLJUVBGYNJKJFDLNHTVUP06NH7IOUKLXZDFq!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*SCREAMS AT TOP OF MY LUNGS*

(Sorry about caps)

It's okay Carole, want to talk? *hugs you lots*

Btw I need to re-add you back on msn...x

Helen - How are you holding up atm?

I dont know what one thing is wrong. It's all a mess and at the same time it isn't. I hate it because I feel like such a pathetic moaner. I have a loving bf - I love him too in my own weird fashion. I'm away from my family. Yes, I am lonely but apparently that isn't anything to be suprised at because I am alone. All I really have (to talk about anything that gets me down) is my bf and this site.

In actual truth I feel fat and covered in scars.
I'm working on the scars but the fat is another matter. I tell myself I will but nothing ever comes of it.

Just added you back on msn :)

I'm glad we're here for you hun. I'm sure you're not fat sweetie xxx

carole...is your surname carter?:)
can i add you too?
and you really ARE NOT fat hun!!!

yea, that is my surname and of course you can add me :)

The sad thing is...I am fat. I've never been heavier and I have a chubby tummy which I try to hide whenever I can. I have stretch marks on the back of my thighs and (I think) on the sides of my breasts.

hehe thats my surname toooo :P
alex_carter192@hotmail.co.uk

Ick...I have stretch marks...but you can get rid of them...but your boyfriend loves you just as you are...so why worry hun?
I know its hard....but trust me?

I'm sure a lot of you can relate to this but it isn't that he judges me - it's that I judge me. He doesn't think I'm fat - he thinks I'm scrummy and (aside from the scars) have the perfect figure. He would be over the moon if I kept my figure and lessened the appearence of the scars. Truly. It's just me that isn't happy with it.
Admittedly my family don't help. They commented in November, at Christmas, in January, in March and last month that I had put weight on and not lost any.

ouch :/
tbh...i think its the media portraying stupidly thin girls...and my family does that too so i fully sympathise with you. but maybe...try looking for things you DO like....and focus on them...rather than the negatives?

I agree with you there. And it is very much a cultural thing because I know for certain that in parts of Africa fuller figures are favoured over the skinnier figured women.
I am a lot better than before - at one point there wasn't a single part of my body that I liked. Now, I will admit that parts of me are found to be attractive by others. It's nothing fantastic, but it's a step I guess.

I think i need stitches gain but have feeling wqpnt be ennough. N ever enough, wide but not enough. never enough. it's not ok. will never be ok. ever. could cut off arm and would never be enough. ****.

Baby steps Carole...thats the best way...:)

you ok Emma :(
*hugs*

Nope, not ok. Sat here with a stupidly wide cut, measuring it. It needs a+e for stitching but I just want to keep hacking. Why is this not ok?

Right, have had enough for sure, Why do I not have the strength to end this? Why do I keep holding on to the fact that at one point I had so many hopes and dreams? I was *that girl*. the smart, happy and funny one* who had everything at her feet and gradually let it all slide away. Scholarships, friends, money, loving grand parents etc etc. All gone. Because of what? My need to self destruct? My mothers need to destruct? My Dad's need to have everything ok, hence denying all thats not ok? My Grandparensts ability to ignore the blatent obvious? My friends progressing whilsgt I stay the same??? Who knows! Things are not ok and I have had enough. I am scared.