*hugs all*

*sits under a table with teddy*

*Hugs Laura*

-gives everyone a hug- yeah im alright i guess, just got a bad head

*punches the wall a few times and sits in a corner to cry*

i'm really getting frustrated with feeling so angry all the time over stupid crap... none of what's pissing me off should bother me this much... feel like i'm going a bit crazy :(

also hate that i'm on a different time schedule than most of you... i miss having home internet and being able to be on in the middle of the night when most of you'll are on to talk to... *sigh*

sorry, Lyria *hugs* wish I could help, but i really feel the same way right now. at least we don't have to feel alone in it.

*Hugs Lyria*

*Hugs Kelly*

Hi!
hello everybdy

huggies to evyrbody

*Hugs Running Silent*

Goodnight My Wardies :) *Hugs*

I want to cry forever and ever :(
Inside its quiet and nobody talk to me

*Huggles Running Silent*

thnk u for hug.
its quiet in here

*hugs all*

I've had a long week with a lot of s**t and a lot of fun. Funny how it is always more exhausting when things are changing a lot.

I change lots too...know how that feels.

Hope u feeling alittle better :o

It's not me who was changing, it was the situation.
I was dissoziated from Monday afternoon till Wendesday afternoon when I was having a really bad time (lots of crying and hyperventilating) and my best friend had to dress me to get me to my therapist (I didn't even have an appointment), but then we went on a 3 day trip and I had a great time.
Usually I'm not as tired after an eventful week, but if the things that are happening are so different it makes it a lot more exhausting.

oh no :( Im sory it was so bad u had to go to your T even without appointment.
Im glad at least u had a good trip.
((hugs? if ok?))

~Rosie.

*Hugs Laura*

*Hugs Rosie*

****. I'm falling, i'm falling. I need a real safe place to be. Panicking. Triggered. Images. Hurt.

*returns hug(s)*

feeling better today... :) hope all is well with all of you...

im so confused :(

actually ... to tell the truth I'm confused 90% of the time because I'm not on enough and it's easy to get lost... don't feel bad.

*Hugs Lindsay* How are you this morning?

*Hugs Kelly*

*Hugs Rosie*

thanks :)

huggies bak

*returns hug* one of these days I'll have net at home again and I may actually catch one of you all online long enough to have an actual conversation ... lol

as it is I'm working hard this week getting inventory up for my home business. I don't see me being up late enough to catch anyone though which makes me kinda sad... anyway... I'll be checking in daily this week so hopefully I can at least keep up with what's happening. Miss ya'll and hope you are all doing well. If not... hold in there, I know it's rough, but no one is alone in this. <3

*Hugs Rosie*

*Hugs Kelly* I'll try and be with you whilst dreaming :)

How is everyone else?

*jumps into ward* Hey, I've not been in here for a while, sorry for that. For those who don't know me I'm Oliver *waves hi*

I'm not doing very good at the moment, been very depressed for the past few weeks, paranoia also getting slowly worse again. Scared to tell my psych how bad I am, incase she suggests the crisis team or hospital.

*hugs for all who want*

how is everyone?

*Curls up with a book* so need to get away from everyone right now :(

Why must I change so much in one day.
who am I :crying:

The really angry inside of me says im bad and stupid and ugly and that Im nothing.

Hi runningsilent and Lyria. *offers hugs* here if you want to talk

k the angy is gone now..
phew -_- she makes me so sad and makes me upset.


now all is ok.

:]

awww, mark, that sweet... *hugs back* lol

Hey, Oliver! Sorry things aren't going so well for you right now... and I understand being afraid of letting them know how bad you are... I was always scared of being hospitalized to... *shivers* still scares me...

hospitals can be scary. depending where u go.
One time I went to a childrens hospital that was so cool it was like a big toys are us..the walls were colorful and they had movies playing on the walls through projectors :D

*Hugs Oliver*

*Hugs Kelly*

*Hugs Rosie*

*Hugs Lyria*

*Puts Fruit and cookies on the table*

*hugs everyone* why is it my body wont let me be awake for more than 5 minutes without going on a down fssss

hugs!

*Hugs Lyira*

*Hugs Rosie*

How are we all today?

*returns hug(s)*

It didn't work, Mark.... didn't see u in my dreams at all last night ;) lol
sorry... kinda in a weird happy mood today. I'm sure the fabulous sunshine and 60 degree weather has something to do with it...

since the kids are out on spring break starting tomorrow I plan to hit the zoo either tomorrow or Thursday... it'll be my 1 yr old daughter's first time! :)

hi hi hi

HI! :)

*hugs all*

My sister is driving me crazy. I think I have low self esteem because of her. Thanks a lot.

Sorry, Laura... i have an older sis who used to drive me crazy to. She was always better at everything and is much prettier than i am so I understand where you're coming from... I'm here if u need to talk

dont think those mean things about Yourself Ljmeep

you can call me Kelly... lol. I try not to think like that, but it's hard not to some times. My sis and I get along so much better now that we're not living in the same house, but even now we can only be together for short periods of time.
I really just meant to point out that I understand feeling as though a sis can be one of the reasons one has low self esteem...

Right now I'm actually in a good place so the low self esteem doesn't affect me so much... but it comes and goes.

Im glad its not affecting u as much :)
It hurts when others say mean things. *hugs if oki*

hugs are always ok here... :)

and yes it does hurt... my sis doesn't like my hubby so she's constantly putting him down and that hurts me just as much as if she were putting me down... most of the time i can ignore it, but when i'm not in a good place to begin with it's really hard not to take it to heart.

:( thats not right, maybe u shud not be around your sister too much :( its not nice

I know it's not, but I've never really been good at the whole confrontation thing... i ignore it the best i can and really we only see each other a few times a year for extended periods of time... the rest is just her running in and out of my parents place (she lives next door to them) when I'm visiting over there

If I'm honest about it though, my dad's not much better about it... he's a lot harder to deal w/ than she is about it. *rolls eyes* We've never had the best relationship, but I keep in contact because he's really good with the kids even if he's not so great with me

Hi i really really need to be here. Sh has been out of control lately & I'm depressed & sleepy constantly but struggle to be awake at night. Dunno why.

Cut really bad day before last..Saturday. need stitches but know if i go to get stitches..they will put me in psych & i cant. Only $ for house bills is mine. So if i am put in psych i will worry so much about bills that i wont be able to concentrate. Well on other things :( need help.
I'm also multiple. Afraid our dangerous. One is getting free :( scared.

I know bills are always a worry, but your health is so much more important than $ issues. If you need stitches you need to go get them to avoid infection. I'm here if you need to talk. I'm sorry things are going so rough for you... :(

*hugs Kelly* thanks. I'm jealous of my sister on top of it, because she is 2 years younger and she achieved more in live than I did.
*hugs RunningSilent*
*hugs L* It sounds like you could use some extra support and help to keep things under control.

*returns hug* I know that feeling too, but not with my sis... some of my friends though. Just remember there's still time to do more with your life. I'm sometimes jealous of my sis too though because it seems she's my grandparents and aunts favorite... most of it's just me needing to get over it though. I think jealousy is just a part of sisterhood.