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Auburn Shadow 21-01-2009 08:41 PM

*sigh* everything's slightly ****ed

MammaMia 21-01-2009 10:30 PM

Sorry evryone's doing so **** *cuddles*

I'm also ****ed. Have a meeting tomorrow about missed assignments/lectures. Crapping myself. Everyone's just like explain it's been due to depression & what not like I did in the email. Still scared though. Trying to tidy my room & pack my bag for tomorrow but keep rembering things I need to do/find/etc. >>.<<

wildly insane 21-01-2009 11:18 PM

*hugs MammaMia* good luck with the meeting tomorrow, remember to breathe :)

Kahlia, I think that would be such a great thing to be able to do, although if I could take my head off, I'd lose it somewhere, scatty me, *hugs*

*hugs everybody who's having a shitty day, provides a good shower of endorphins, rainbows, sunshine, tea, cookies, ooh and a puppy, in a vain hope that it may make somebody feel slightly better*

ravynsoul 22-01-2009 12:00 AM

Hannah - did you say puppy? and a fire?.. i don't think i ever want to leave here! what's the puppy's name?? Good luck on the interview; it seems like you've been preparing quite well for it. I'm having brain freeze though and can't quite remember what it's for... i'm fairly certain you told me... let us know how things go!

Helen - good luck with the meeting; I think you need to be honest and let them know what's going on, that way they can offer help... i would be scared too; but just think tomorrow this time it's all over; good or bad, it will be behind you and you will be able to move forward.

Hana - what's wrong? Do you want to talk about it? *cuddles you*

Emma - *hugs you* that's frustrating... it sucks that it's taking so long for them to help you.. it doesn't mean, though, that they think everything is ok... unfortunately waiting games are part of it all :S It'll be over two months of waiting by the time I get to see my psych; and earlier this year I had to wait two months before i could see the psychiatrist.. not fun when you're not feeling well. Can they put you on a waiting list, for if there are cancellations?

Kahlia - wouldn't it be nice if we could do that? *hugs* Hope things get brighten for you.

Dayna - *hugs* what's going on? do you want to talk about it?

Kat - *offers lots of safe hugs* that sounds like a frustrating/scary situation you have with your alter... wish I could offer some help; but i don't know what to say... but am thinking of you muchly.

Arwen - Glad to hear you had a great night! What did you do? Hope things are good tonite too!

Mary Anne - mmm brownies! thanks! sorry to hear you are in a low spot; i know it may seem hard to believe right now, but you will find a way out.. it's just not necessarily gonna be great in the interim. *hugs*

*leaves lots more hugs* *stokes fire* *offers the puppy treats*

--
today was fairly well other than that I'm coming down with a sore throat. :S But it could be worse, I guess. My mom was in my room yesterday and I'm scared she may have seen a book I have about SI/SH... don't know what to do/think.. am worried about it.. :S

Damnation. 22-01-2009 12:50 AM

Ravyn: My...friend. The one I've had the issues with. He...was stringing me and three other girls all at the same time...

Telling us he loves us. Saying he loved me, then being cold with me. Then moving onto another. Bugging us all for...pictures. Things like that. I genuinely, genuinely loved him, so much that it hurt knowing that I'm in England and he was in America. And now I don't know if anything he said was true. I know it's not my fault, that he's to blame, he was manipulative and got several of us under his spell, but I feel stupid, and a whore

Damnation. 22-01-2009 12:51 AM

OH. And he tried to use MY ****ING EVICTION as an excuse for not telling us all about it

ravynsoul 22-01-2009 12:56 AM

*hugs Dayna* First off, you are NOT stupid and NOT a whore! That is incredibly awful of him!! don't know what to say.. so just sits with you and offers hugs.

ravynsoul 22-01-2009 12:57 AM

i wish I could yell at him and hurt him for hurting you...

Damnation. 22-01-2009 01:22 AM

*Hugs back tightly*

I told my housemate, as well, 'cause she'd end up finding out sooner or later, and my God. She's normally a wonderful, wonderful woman, but she got so angry, it scared me o_o;.

Housemate: How are you?
Me: Eh, I'm okay
Housemate: Are you sure? You don't seem it
Me: It's just problems with [name]. ...He's been stringing all three of us along
Housemate: *Angry* ...What?
Me: He's been stringing all three of us along
Housemate: *Practically explodes and demands to have his email address and saying she's gonna kill him*
Me: O_O!!!! We'll manage it ourselves! We've all been talking. Seriously, we're gonna handle it ourselves o____o;;;;;
Housemate: *Hugs instead*

Scary housemate is scary when angry

ravynsoul 22-01-2009 02:23 AM

wow! ya, does sound scary!


[and might I add.. your facial expressions in text definitely are awesome!]

Damnation. 22-01-2009 02:32 AM

Yeah...and lol, thanks. The stupid thing is, I still feel like I love him x_x. I just want to be comforted by him, even though it's his ****ing fault I'm so hurting in the first place >_<

ravynsoul 22-01-2009 02:36 AM

I don't think that's stupid.. think of it this way.. he's been your support for a while, and when you feel bad you're used to being comforted by him and it helps. Now, you're hurting, and even though it's because of him, your old patterns [i.e. seeking comfort from him] aren't gone to change instantneously [although that would be nice].. so in a way it makes sense that you would want him to comfort you, cuz that's worked in the past.

don't know if that makes sense.. it made more sense in my head..
but ya, feelings don't often change as quickly as we'd like.. :/

Damnation. 22-01-2009 02:45 AM

Yeah, it makes sense. I just hate it. I wondered earlier if finding all this out instantly made me hate him but no, of course not. No, I still have to have feelings for him. And ugh, he was trying to emotionally blackmail us and **** as well.

He was going on about killing himself to one of the other girls. And he said something about he didn't want to hurt anyone, so I laughed myself stupid, told him exactly why I thought that was bullshit, and he gave me a longwinded reply that began with 'then kill me'.

I won't tolerate emotional blackmail, especially when said emotional blackmailer is the ****ing one in the wrong in the first place. The only reason I think he didn't try it with me was because when he said that 'then kill my' reply, I retorted with an eye-rolling emote and said something like 'my apologised if I can't sympathise with your 'pity me' **** right now'.

URGH

ravynsoul 22-01-2009 02:50 AM

urgh! emotional blackmail is evil! [imho] Good for you for not taking it from him... i hope your feelings get sorted out sooner rather than later.. from a past relationship, it took me a long time to get it sorted out [but then i don't deal with my problems to begin with] but once i did, it felt so much better.

well... i have to head off to bed or i'll be not able to focus at work tomorrow... *hugs* i hope he stops being so mean soon!.. take care of yourself! I'll try and check-in in the morning.

Damnation. 22-01-2009 02:56 AM

Well, when he discovered that I knew about his lies, he eventually IM'd me. We had a rather awkward conversation, and he said he was going to take his leave. He hasn't IM'd be since, and that was several hours ago. I wonder what's going to happen tomorrow.

*Hugs back* Speak to you tomorrow, and sweet dreams

Damnation. 22-01-2009 06:22 AM

*Rocks in the corner* It feels like everything's crumbling to pieces >_<

wildly insane 22-01-2009 09:06 AM

Thanks Shell, will let you know how it goes :-)

*hugs Dayna* sorry to hear he's been such a ****, you have got to give yourself time and don't beat yourself up about it, sorry not more help *offers more hugs*

*hugs all round* gotta go though *stokes fire and feeds puppy* anybody any ideas for a name?

zowie 22-01-2009 10:42 AM

*Hugs Dayna*

Names for a puppy? I like calling my animals SinClair. I had a rabbit called Rabbit SinClair and think that you should call your puppy Puppy SinClair *Nods*

Went to an appointment at a day hospital yesterday, it went okay and I've been invited to the art therapy on Tuesday. I spent the rest of the day sleeping.

*Leaves hugs for everyone and thinks it's about time for a cigarette*
xxx

mouse in darkness 22-01-2009 11:06 AM

Hi all. The mouse is back and online, Yey!

Just checking in hope all are ok and doing well.

*Leaves hot chocolate and chocolates for every one. Hugs*

ravynsoul 22-01-2009 11:28 AM

Hi Nicole! Good to see you again! thanks for the chocolate and hot chocolate. How are you doing?

Arwen - I like Puppy SinClair. :) Glad to hear that yesterday went ok. Art therapy sounds cool... have you been before?

Hannah - Hope the interview goes well! Looking forward to an update.

Dayna - *cuddles and sits by you* don't have words, but i'll stay by you.

*leaves hugs for everyone else* Hope everyone is doing okish.. Have a good day/night.

take care.

*stokes fire and sets out dog food*


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