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one_step_closer 30-05-2010 12:24 PM

How are you today Owen?

jonikd 30-05-2010 12:53 PM

Wanders in, reads 10 pages of posts and sits quietly to digest it all.

Seems a bunch of ward members are suffering right now, big hugs and strength to you all
JK

MammaMia 30-05-2010 01:00 PM

*jumps on JK and gives a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig cuddle* Are you okay sweetie? :(

*hugs/waves everyone else*

Doikers 30-05-2010 01:11 PM

*Hugs JK*

*Hugs Helen*

*Spots Kat and hugs*

katnovia 30-05-2010 01:19 PM

*hugs mark back* caught me lurking! Well done on keeping SI free for a day! I know you've really been struggling with it recently, so i'm proud of you! How are you?

Just attempted to read through all i've missed, but there must be about 12 pages there, and I just don't have the mental capacity to handle it right now. So, i'm going to be really lame and give everyone who has posted a great big cuddle

*runs around the ward and warren cuddling everyone who wants cuddles and waving at everyone else and giving out boxes of safe love and blessings*

phew. now i'm worn out.

I have a post to reply to, that was directed at me, but i've gotta go back and read it before replying because it's gone completely outta my head!

one_step_closer 30-05-2010 01:23 PM

I wish I had never been born in the first place. *hides*

Doikers 30-05-2010 01:28 PM

*Finds Lindsay and Huggles*

Kat I'm triggered , but trying to distract myself , the football is on in the background , I'll keep checking the F1 but I'm not overly intrested in either , darn lack of focus , I phoned my sister but no answer hmmm , I may plat WoW later , not played for days

katnovia 30-05-2010 01:33 PM

*huggles lindsay* but then you couldn't have cuddles!

*hugs mark* I have no focus either, I went to the GP on thursday and couldn't focus on what she was asking me, I kept drifting off into thinking about what she was 'really' asking, you know? I'm getting intrigued in WoW, only because there's so much talk on here. What's it like to play? I must admit I tend to build plots on the sims or play theme hospital...sad I know.

*spots an april and hugs*

Scarletdreamer 30-05-2010 01:46 PM

*hugs Kat back* WoW is... addicting. Haha. And you can really get lost in its world(s). It's pretty amazing... but of course I would say that as I'm a complete WoW nerd and have been playing it for almost a year and a half. I haven't played any other computer games/RPGs before though... just WoW. As Jarrod put it, "I got her straight into WoW-crack." Lol. I thought that was funny... that was at Hot Topic, talking to one of the staff who also plays WoW. :P

Anyway.

*cuddles everyone*

taz35 30-05-2010 02:17 PM

Sorry, I'm being kind of lazy on the replies right now. I'll see if I can remember everybody in the 2 pages I read...

*hugs Mark* 1 day is incredible given how much you've been struggling. I'm really proud of you :)

*finds & hugs Lindsay* The world would be a horrible place if you hadn't been bored.

*hugs April*

*hugs Laura*

*offers hugs to Julie/Owen*

*hugs JK*

*hugs Helen*

*hugs Hannah*

*hugs Kat*

*hugs Heather*

*hugs everyone else that I might have missed*

MammaMia 30-05-2010 03:58 PM

*squishes you lots*

Doikers 30-05-2010 03:59 PM

I cut on my left leg , not bad , I ****ing hate myself this afternoon, I deserve to bl**d - are you ****ing happy now life? huh

Edit : Sorry if this upsets anyone I'll remove it

shadowedsoul 30-05-2010 04:15 PM

hugs doikers (sorry dont know your name) sorry you cut. please try and stay safe. huggles

Doikers 30-05-2010 04:17 PM

Hi Shadowedsoul (I don't know your name either) I'm Mark , Thankyou for the huggles *Huggles back*

shadowedsoul 30-05-2010 04:23 PM

hey mark im jil, just read what i wrote sorry if that sounded shitty or something.you manging to keep yourself distrated (sp)

Doikers 30-05-2010 04:26 PM

Didn't sound shitty at all Jill , I'm doing my best to keep distracted , it's hard when I've got no focus or concentration . how are you doing?

shadowedsoul 30-05-2010 04:33 PM

hmm okay i guess, better than yestarday. still feel numb dont see the point in all this, i feel im keeping alive to please other people. that im stopping cutting so people will stop worrying, so i wont see the dissapointment in my perents eyes.

Doikers 30-05-2010 04:36 PM

I know it's hard to see the point in all this , especially when you are numb , I am numb a LOT of the time too *Hugs Ya* I'm a going to bed for 20 minutes only now , just to rest and be safe

katnovia 30-05-2010 05:43 PM

*cuddles mark tight* I'm so sorry that you felt the need to cut sweetie. You sound like you're having a rough time right now and I really feel for you. I hope that you take good care of that injury. Lots of love and prayers coming your way.

*huggles Jill* Hi hun. How are you?

*hugs taz back* how are you doing?

I spy Sefka *hugs*

*hugs april* I think I might have to look into it..I quite enjoy RPG, and I certainly could do with somewhere to escape.

*huggles hels just because*

I'm tired. Haz is up every hour at night again. wasn't this supposed to have stopped by now? I mean she's nearly 9months old, what's going on!?

I've got child services coming round to check up on me on tuesday. I need to get some sleep so I can tidy up a bit. Yeah, I'm terrified they'll take her away.
Gp wants me to stop breastfeeding so I can take anti-depressants...i'm swings and roundabouts over wether I want to or not..
Oh, and I've been referred to the CPN..again..maybe this time we'll get somewhere.

shadowedsoul 30-05-2010 06:43 PM

hey, iam hmm got no idea, trying to keep myself busy so i wont do anything stuiped. how are you today katnovia

Doikers 30-05-2010 06:54 PM

Jill *Hug*

taz35 30-05-2010 07:43 PM

*hugs Mark* Sorry to hear you cut again. Hope your nap helped a little bit. How's your day going otherwise?

*hugs Jill* I wish I could say something helpful... but it's not like it would be anything you haven't heard before :( If it makes you feel any better, even a little, I know what you're going through in terms of not wanting to cut for the sake of your parents... I'm trying to do the same thing right now, but it's not exactly working. I just do it in different places so they can't see :( But I hope you can hang in there <3

*hugs Kat* I would think at 9 months she would be sleeping longer periods than that =/ Why would they take her away from you? I'm sure you're a wonderful mom <3

I'm alright. Majorly tired... we had a young husky show up at our house last night, obviously ran away and got lost, so we took her in. I was up at 7am looking after her and our own husky, and haven't been able to get any more of my chemistry done. I just feel somewhat dazed today. Not having a bad day, but not a "good" day either. I can't even explain it. Maybe I'll update my r/v.

Doikers 30-05-2010 08:45 PM

Hmmmm Taz I too am not having a "good" day . My sister invited me over for tomorow , (My parents are away and bro in law at work so it would be just the two of us , baby neice and Scooby(Lurcher) ) it might be nice , she said she will call tomorow morning . Despite the fact that it's broad daylight here it's 8.45pm and I am going to water my plant pot , drink my camomille tea and go to bed , I'm tired (Constantly) and hope sleep helps .
*Waves and hugs goodnight*

EDIT: Oh and April, Hayley and Crimson might like to know I got my little dude to level 15 and a half this evening and finished all the quests I took out when I was too low a level I did them :)

Kitkat :) 30-05-2010 09:03 PM

Can't deal with all the memories of it, had urges to SI today for the first time in a while but I can't do it...
I'm so FRUSTRATED

xxjuliexx 30-05-2010 09:23 PM

i havent cut in 2 to 3 years and 2 days ago i got trigger by a cardboard box paper cutting my arm how lame is hat i didnt cut tho coz i was at work

Kitkat :) 30-05-2010 09:26 PM

I got triggered by a cat scratching my arm... And all the scars going purple where it was so cold today.
And same, I was at work too...
A book I'm reading is triggering me too, it's called "Today I'm Alice" and it's about someone who's got Multiple Personality Disorder... But the voices are saying bad things to her and of course Ayka's reading it too and she's getting all riled up and whatnot.

Scarletdreamer 30-05-2010 09:26 PM

I'm so ****ing anxious... :'(

Am going to a youth group thing tonight with Jarrod, my bestie, and her fiancÚ. I'm worried about that... I don't know why, probably because I'm shy around people I would guess? and there will be a lot of teens there that I don't know. I know a few of them but still, not a lot... grrrr. And we're being driven there by a girl that makes me uncomfortable, she's only 17 or 18 but dresses "foxily" and has ever since she was 15 or so. I don't know if that makes any sense and I know it sounds judgmental, it's just that she's so much prettier than I am... and I know I'm married and she's not, but she has freedom I don't, and... ****, I'm sounding like a selfish, jealous bitch again. :crying: I'm sorry.........

And I'm warm again - anxiety makes me warm - and I just want to hide in a hole and never come out. :'( I hate being this way. I HATE IT!!!! And I guess another reason I'm scared of going to the thing tonight is the food... :-S I don't want to have to eat in front of people I don't know, especially since we just finished lunch at a friend's house (today's a busy day for social engagements... and I just want to go to bed!!). GAHHH!!! *screams inside her head*

Sorry for the long ramble and no individual replies, am just doing crap right now. :( Also really really want to cut................ :'(

Kitkat :) 30-05-2010 09:29 PM

*hugs Scarletdreamer*

There's so much in my head that I'm trying to deal with but I can't do it all at once...

I feel like a freak...

Why am I the odd one out all the time?

Scarletdreamer 30-05-2010 09:33 PM

I feel the same way, sometimes, Kathryn. :( The odd one out, the one always cast aside... :( It's not a fun place to be. At all. *cuddles* I'm sorry that the book you're reading is triggering you, maybe best to not read any more of it for a bit? It does sound interesting though... I'll have to check it out sometime.

Oh, and you can call me April. :) Easier to type out.

xxjuliexx 30-05-2010 09:36 PM

Kathryn ur not the odd one out here hunny

Kitkat :) 30-05-2010 09:38 PM

Cool.
It is really fascinating though, thought it might help with my alters... Skye seems to be enjoying it.
I feel the odd one out though... My life has just been so screwed up.
Most of the time I keep forgetting that I tried to kill myself when I was 9... I didn't even know it was possible for someone that young to try but I remember doing it...
*sits in corner and sighs*

shadowedsoul 30-05-2010 10:00 PM

*Curls up into a ball in the corner * damn it I hurt, my head
and my whole body, hmm tommorow going to be fun
when I can't move in the morning. Damn I'm such
a muppet.

katnovia 30-05-2010 10:06 PM

*hugs Jill* I'm just plain tired, and worn out, sick to death of hubby's shift patterns, and hating not being able to answer people honestly when they ask, "oh, he's a big guy, what does he do?" I hate hiding our lives. it sucks not knowing who's a criminal out there and who's not. I hate not knowing if some weird guy is going to come up to us when we're out and go "Oi, you *****, that's the guy who arrested me, ***" wow, that was an uncalled for rant, sorry about that, it just kind of came out.


*hugs taz* she should be, I just don't know what's going on. I dont think she's teething. I'm just afraid that they'll look at my mental health, and decide that a madwoman who runs around her front garden with a knife to slash the tyres on her hubbys car, isn't fit to be a mother.


*cuddles kathyrn* Stay strong sweetheart. I had urges today too, but it's going to be week for me tuesday, so i'm keeping that in mind, oh and I'm doing the butterfly project, which is really helping. maybe you can give it a try. You're not the odd one out, but i know how it can feel that way, i do all the time. It's a hard place to be where you and I are, and I want you to know that you are not alone. at all.


*hugs julie* its not lame, i know how you feel. I technically stopped 4 years ago, but i've slipped time and time again. I don't think it ever truely goes away, not while we are still unstable.

*cuddles april* Stay strong lovely. I'm sorry you're feeling anxious. Cup of camomile tea maybe? I wish i had better words to offer you, but cuddles and prayers I have.

*spies kahlia, and mobs her with a huge cuddle*

EDIT: *cuddles shadowedsoul* (name crisis again) how? and why? are you alright hun? *cradles you*

Kahlia1981 30-05-2010 10:07 PM

*huggles/waves at everyone*

So cold ...

Kahlia1981 30-05-2010 10:11 PM

Thanks for the cuddles Kat. How are you today/tonight?

katnovia 30-05-2010 10:15 PM

I'm not too bad, trying not to think of things that are going to trigger a bad night. Also praying Hazel stays asleep better tonight because I just want her to get better, and I could do with some decent sleep. Hubby sleeps during the day on nightshifts, but I have hazel day and night and no sleep is a nightmare. literally, because i get woken during them and can remember every one..:S

MammaMia 30-05-2010 10:18 PM

*runs in, hides and cries* It'llbeokay.

katnovia 30-05-2010 10:22 PM

*uses magic helen-finding device and gives her a great big squishy cuddle* you are right, it probably will be, however, would you like to tell us what will be alright? *hands you special tear-absorbing hankie*

katnovia 30-05-2010 10:31 PM

me frwitened of nowses ostide and me want to hide in bed but kat not let me cos she stay here and she fwigtende too but nt want say cos she say she silly. *hug hele*n helen feel bettter soon?

MammaMia 30-05-2010 10:40 PM

Thanks for the cuddle & hankie back :'( Are you okay Rosie? The noises will stop soon. Nobody's silly, I promise. Can you accept hugs?

taz35 30-05-2010 10:56 PM

*hugs April, Kathryn, Julie, Rosie, Kat, Helen, Mark, Kahlia, Jill*

Sorry, not up to replying much more than that right now. Probably gonna go grab a short nap... or try to.

shadowedsoul 30-05-2010 11:01 PM

thanks katnovia. Yeah I'm okay sortoff just in pain
my own stuiped fault, not doing somthing sombody
asked. Instead i try and argue. Stuiped little girl, hits
head with hand. *clings to katnovia and cries*Sorry
iam sorry

xxjuliexx 30-05-2010 11:32 PM

*yawns and sits* i want to go back to bed

risenfromperdition 31-05-2010 12:13 AM

doooo it :P

gah bbq tomorrow =\ scary icky lotsa cals =[
bright side... i actually felt ok with outfit today til dad say was too tight and should be walking 4 miles a day and =[ but no one else say is too tight... just ugh.
i cant fcking DO this =[

got to see 'my' kids today tho :) they're moving soon :(

Kahlia1981 31-05-2010 12:23 AM

*huggles/waves at everybody*

Heather: That does sound good - with the outfit. Try not to let your dad get too you, though I do realise that's easier to say than do. Sounds like he has mental issues with your size. Like maybe he thinks it reflects badly on him maybe? Just thinking out loud ... or with my fingers. He just reminds me of the dude who started me on my ED path - he started me off two weeks after his daughter was dx with anorexia. Is it okay if I offer hugs?

Julie: How are you going hun? Other than feeling like crashing out in bed.

Sorry for not replying to more people, my memory isn't all that crash hot this morning and those are the only two I can remember. *feels really bad and crawls into a corner to disappear*

risenfromperdition 31-05-2010 12:27 AM

yus, i likes hugs. *takes hugs gratefully*
how're you <3

xxjuliexx 31-05-2010 12:35 AM

*sits next to heather* ur daddy is just being mean

xxjuliexx 31-05-2010 01:03 AM

i'm.... i'm fine i guess

Scarletdreamer 31-05-2010 01:41 AM

No, no "fine" ... we "banned" that word from being used in here... lol... it's okay though *cuddles Julie* What's up, sweet?

Am feeling exhausted myself, just got back from the outing and it's 8:45pm. Didn't really connect too much with the girls I'm "mentoring" (like I'm in any place to mentor!! >_< but they don't need to know that)... didn't talk a lot with my bestie til the end... just kind of stood there and watched the interactions. :-/ Immaturity reigned for awhile. :-/

*hides in her hole* :'(

xxjuliexx 31-05-2010 01:42 AM

*shuffles into a box and eats lunch*


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