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Doikers 25-04-2010 12:08 PM

*Hugs Julie* you don't need to be quiet , we are here if you need to talk ok:)

xxjuliexx 25-04-2010 12:19 PM

*shakes head* it's stupid no need for me to talk me stupid

MammaMia 25-04-2010 01:02 PM

*cuddles everyone lots*

JK, glad you had a good weekend.
Oliver, hope you have a good day
Laura, massive cuddles
Julie, you're not stupid & we're here for you x

Scarletdreamer 25-04-2010 01:36 PM

*cuddles everyone*

Sorry, no individual responses right now. :( I'm in a **** place and am so frustrated with myself. Just want to curl up and let this week go by and not do anything. :'( I HATE MY LIFE.

*hides in shame*

MammaMia 25-04-2010 01:39 PM

April, you can get through this week, it'll go in a flash. Don't give up at the last hurdle darling. We're all here for you *cuddles tight*

Scarletdreamer 25-04-2010 01:47 PM

*cuddles Hels back* I know it's the last hurdle, but I can't do it... or so it feels... there's so much to do and so little time to do it and I wanted to make this semester my best ever... and my bestie is going to "outperform" me in terms of grades... I don't care that I have/had things to deal with that she doesn't/didn't... it's just not fair!! :crying:

I'm struggling so much... and life doesn't seem fair at all - well of course, because it ISN'T fair.......... and I just want to cut and cut BADLY. :'(

*hides again* :'(

Doikers 25-04-2010 01:53 PM

*Hugs April* 5 more days , you can do this , I have totall faith in you . You shoulden't compare yourself with your best mate , everyone is different , just because she is doing well doesen't mean you are not .

*Hugs JK,Nicole,Oliver,Crimson,Laura,Helen,Kahlia,Julie, and everyone else here *

Kahlia1981 25-04-2010 01:55 PM

*hugs all*

Almost shaking with anger now. Was on another forum earlier and made a flippant comment about the shopping centres here not being able to decide when they were going to take the ANZAC day holiday because it was today. And that the fact that they couldn't decide was stupid. And someone blasted the living **** out of me telling me that I should learn more about a countries national holidays before making degrading comments.

It's funny, when you take things out of context, you can make anything sound like whatever you want.

So damn over this life. Just want it all to end.

MammaMia 25-04-2010 02:03 PM

April, I'm with Mark on this. You shouldn't compare yourself to your best friend. You can do these next five days. I know it seems a lot. Take it hour by hour or minute by minute. But you can do this & think how amazing it'll feel to be finished. *cuddles tight*

Kahlia, don't let the bastards grind you down. Keep going sweet. It can't rain forever *cuddles*

*cuddles Mark* How are YOU doing?

Doikers 25-04-2010 02:09 PM


Kahlia, don't let the bastards grind you down. Keep going sweet. It can't rain forever
Thinks Helen is right^^ *Hugs*

Kahlia1981 25-04-2010 02:28 PM

Thanks Hels && Mark.

Just so damn angry now. Really trying hard not to let it get to me. I even went and made what I had originally said even more clear. But it really irritates me when someone reads something, jumps off the handle, has a go at you and it's all about something that has absolutely no meaning in a forum that's supposed to be a safe place!

Meh. Sorry, I shouldn't rant. I don't think I'm going to get a lot of sleep tonight. It's 11:25 and my brain won't switch off. The damn thing keeps going around in nice depressed circles filled with SI urges and su thoughts.

On a positive note though: I reached my 20 month milestone at 9:00 this morning. Yay me.

*walks around the ward, finds everyone and gives them a hug, takes Puppy SinClair for a walk, and leaves some watermelon, rockmelon, honeydew-melon, lychees and rambutans in a basket on a table*

Scarletdreamer 25-04-2010 02:40 PM

I am so ****ing angry right now.

I think I need to update my r/v thread... again. It's coming in handy these days when I just seem to be boiling over with rage. I'm NOT smart, I'm NOT doing well in school, and I've run up against a brick wall in terms of my senior sem paper. I have NO idea where to go from here, I just want to cut, and my husband is out of the house right now so I can...


I was shaking I was so angry just a little bit ago... now I gotta calm down some... :crying:

Jetforce 25-04-2010 02:48 PM

Been extremely busy the last few weeks but *hugs all* hope ur all looking after urself. If you haven't....do try and tc of urself there!

*leaves some Orange juice and a few apple danishes*

Scarletdreamer 25-04-2010 02:50 PM

*hugs Jet* How're you doing? :) Good to see you again.

R/v thread updated... :'(

MammaMia 25-04-2010 02:54 PM

YAY Kahlia on 20 months, am proud of you :D I'm 2 months free today, you just reminded me LOL. Not that anyone has remembered, well I only told about 3 people in advance. Oh well :P even I didn't remember bahahaahaha.

April, take a break sweetheart & BREATHE!!! You're getting yourself more wound up than necessary *cuddles tight*

Scarletdreamer 25-04-2010 03:08 PM

I can't focus, I can't stop to breathe, other than posting on here... I want to play WoW or read a fun book, but I have SO MUCH TO DO!!! I have my W&S presentation on Wednesday, and I STILL haven't finished that up yet... I have to do work in the health psych lab with a volunteer that's not being very helpful on Monday and Tuesday during the times that I would normally do homework... I have my senior sem presentation tomorrow but I have to finish my paper for that... and it's not done yet so I can't print off the notes and have that be done and okay... **** **** ****!!!!!!!!! :crying:

Sorry... :o

*hides in shame*

Kahlia1981 25-04-2010 03:15 PM

Helen: Thanks, and congratulations for your 2 months. *throws confetti*

Sorry it's not more ... I just don't have the words at the moment I'm afraid. I do have hugs though, so I'll share those.

*group hug*
*hugs everyone*

MammaMia 25-04-2010 03:24 PM

Thanks Kahlia, you're the only one who's said that.

April, please try breathe sweetheart or it'll seem even harder to get the work done. Try break it down into bits??

katnovia 25-04-2010 03:35 PM

thanks for the welcomes a few pages back. sorry it's taken an age to reply, life got in the way, like it does. To who asked, please call me Kat. I can't remember why I felt the need to check in. Too numb to remember.

*hugs kahlia* I stole a hug as I was in the room but quiet, so here's an extra special warm hug back.

xxjuliexx 25-04-2010 03:37 PM

y the hell am i still awake

MammaMia 25-04-2010 03:39 PM

*cuddles Kat & Julie*

katnovia 25-04-2010 03:59 PM

thanks mammamia. *hugs back* feeling better already knowing there are people out there

MammaMia 25-04-2010 04:06 PM

Call me Helen :)

I'm glad you're feeling better already :) *cuddles* We're a friendly bunch. All here for each other, even when we're not up to supporting.

katnovia 25-04-2010 04:15 PM

thanks Helen. i hope that i can be of good support too, i'm just feeling a bit too overwhelmed by everything at the moment *snuggles into cuddle*

MammaMia 25-04-2010 04:20 PM

It's okay darling *cuddles*

katnovia 25-04-2010 04:24 PM

Is it? i feel like i shouldn't be feeling bad, that i should be keeping it all hung together. i feel like i've fallen apart but i just cant stop to take the time to undo the sellotape and collapse for a bit, you know?

Doikers 25-04-2010 04:53 PM

*Hugs Kahlia* 20 months is HUGE , I'm so pleased for you thats quite an acheivment :). Whats are rambutans ?
*Hugs Helen* Well Done on 2 months , thats awesome :)
*Hugs April* You'll do this , it will all be ok :)
*Hugs Kat*
*Hugs Julie*

katnovia 25-04-2010 04:55 PM

*hugs doikers back*

Doikers 25-04-2010 05:03 PM

Hi Kat , You can call me Mark :)

katnovia 25-04-2010 05:07 PM

Ok, thanks for the hug mark. Wish I could say something more. But i don't know what i'm feeling right now. What about you? *grabs a duvet and snuggles down in a heap on the floor*

Doikers 25-04-2010 05:14 PM

I'm just pretty numb Kat , *sigh* I don't know how I feel either. *Returns to his corner*

MammaMia 25-04-2010 05:22 PM

*cuddles you both*

I see a Laura

katnovia 25-04-2010 05:23 PM

*frantically rubs eyes* *picks up duvet and walks over to the corner mark is in* *stands fiddling with duvet* wanna talk?

Doikers 25-04-2010 05:25 PM

Sure I could use a friendly person :)

katnovia 25-04-2010 05:25 PM

*cuddles helen back* I think i feel overwhelmed by life, restless and fidgety and lost in numbness, but my emotions wont work *flomps into random space on floor*

katnovia 25-04-2010 05:26 PM

friendly i can do. lets do random. what have you done today mark?

Doikers 25-04-2010 05:32 PM

Today not a lot , I fell asleep on the sofa in front of my whole family lol . On Friday it was my new Brother in laws birthday so we went and looked at Hereford cathedral and lunched out as the car had to be seen in Hereford. I've been staying at my parents since thursday night so as to be here for my bro in law's b'day, apparently they don't really celebrat them where he is from (The Gambia) so it was his first with all the gifts and cake and stuff . How about you ? what have you done recently? :)

SoMuchMore 25-04-2010 05:33 PM

*throws some confetti around for kahlia and helen* great job you guys!

*cuddles april* I agree with helen, please try to breathe. You can make it. I really believe that. I'm sry things arent going your way right now and that you are stressed out, but you can do this.

*hugs mark* It does make sense when you say that you don't know how to feel. I get like that sometimes... its not a lot of fun.

*hugs kat* I dont remember if i said welcome or not earlier.. if i didn't, Welcome! *hands over some welcome cookies*

*hugs julie*

*hugs JK* I was wondering where u went! lol. I'm glad that you were having a good time. Hope that you get to stay in a good place for at least awhile.

*hugs oliver* how r u doing now? Hope you are alright.

*hugs everyone else hiding around the ward*

I HAVE to concentrate today. I need to get stuff done. Trying to keep calm. I wish i could just sleep forever. That would be nice.
*finds a corner in the ward to do work in... but still close enough so that i dont feel lonely*

nicole94 25-04-2010 05:54 PM

*cuddles everyone*
sorry for lack of individual replies, i'm feeling nervous about school tomorrow.

Doikers 25-04-2010 06:03 PM

Why so nervous Nicole ? *HUG*

nicole94 25-04-2010 06:04 PM

*hugs mark* i get major panick attacks at school. i hate it, cant wait to leave

Doikers 25-04-2010 06:07 PM

Oh I'm sorry Nicole :( are you leaving when you get your GCSE's done over with?

Scarletdreamer 25-04-2010 06:28 PM

Hi Kat *waves & hugs* I'm April. Didn't read a few pages back when you came in, wasn't up to it at the time... but welcome. :) I understand that feeling of not knowing how you're feeling - frustrating, huh?

*cuddles everyone*

I'm doing a bit better now, but still in a crappy mood and don't know where to go with uni stuff. I really don't want to have to focus and get stuff done... just want to play WoW, read my books, and relax!! but no can do... at least, not really. I can do those things each for a short period of time between doing work, but... not really much other than that. :'(

I just want to sleep... am so exhausted. Had a huge lunch (well, it felt like it was huge!!) and wanted to purge soo badly after that. :'( I hate struggling so much... I just want to feel better, is that too much to ask?

*hides again*

frenchhorn 25-04-2010 06:39 PM

*skips around the ward, waving magic rainbow wand to pass out happiness*
sorry just had a great day, we went to a museum and then ate our picnic in there because it was raining, I think a lot of people hated us, cos someone had a big gay pride flag round there shoulders and a few couples in the group, some people gave us death stares, but it was a fun queer day.
its been 4 pages since this morning and I've got a headache, read most of it, but looking at the screen is making my head worse.
*comes round and hugs everyone and offers a hot drink of their choice*

MammaMia 25-04-2010 06:44 PM

*cuddles everyone*

Nicole, hope it goes well. We'll be there in spirit holding your hand <3

CrazyHayley 25-04-2010 06:47 PM

wow 7 pages in 52 hours, been a busy ward! I've got some reading to do...

*goes around the ward checking up on the latest gossip*

katnovia 25-04-2010 06:52 PM

mark: I had a boring day at my parents place after going to church this morning. I'm tired and headachy, and sorry I didn't reply for ages, my baby girl needed dinner. *rubs eyes* I so need to stay and recover for a bit, but mother-hood calls and I've got to take muppet and hubby home. Might be back later tonight, if not tommorrow I'm sure. Talking to the curate about our marriage tommorrow, so sure to be emotional. *hugs everyone*

Scarletdreamer 25-04-2010 06:57 PM

I spy an Oliver, a Hayley, and a Laura!! *tackle hugs*


Laura, I hope that you manage to get your work done too. I'm struggling so much with mine at the moment... :-/

Oliver, so glad that you had a good day. :) You deserve to have MANY good days... so I hope that you manage to retain a bit of today's happiness for awhile. Maybe take some and put it in a large jar and take little bits out when you need to smile? :) (too bad it doesn't work like that... lol)

Hayley, yeah, there were like 3 pages in 24 hours or something like that... utterly crazy (no pun intended!!) how fast this place flies!! :D I love it though... :)

*cuddles all and goes back to working on her paper* *gag* :'(

MammaMia 25-04-2010 07:00 PM

I'm going to remember that I don't exist

*hides even more*.

Scarletdreamer 25-04-2010 07:16 PM

Hels *finds and cuddles* What's the matter? If it's me not spotting you at the bottom of the page, it's because of your invisibility cloak!! *more cuddles*

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