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shadowedsoul 24-01-2010 08:51 PM

curls up and crys. my mind is in overdrive, keep thinking something happened to my freind, god not now, please dont tell me she died. cant keep that thought out of my head. hides under blanket. crys

Scarletdreamer 24-01-2010 09:21 PM

*holds Jill, Vicki, Helen, & LauraStar* Group cuddle time... sorry, can't offer any more than that at the mo, am feeling pretty crap myself.

SoMuchMore 24-01-2010 11:26 PM

i am officially a horrible person... i hurt everyone around me. Even when i dont mean to

Scarletdreamer 24-01-2010 11:46 PM

You are NOT a horrible person, Laura. Why do you think you hurt everyone around you? what happened? *gentle cuddles*

SoMuchMore 25-01-2010 12:04 AM

well... its kinda a long story... but apparently when i was drunk last night i made a few comments about being gay when i was drunk... (i was like.. o i can be such a lesbian when im drunk.. or something i guess.. i dont remember saying anything at all)... and apparenlty it upset my friend, who just came out to me a few days ago... she thinks im an insensitive bitch and my boyfriend.. he says he agrees and is embarrassed. I sent a message to the girl apologizing but everyone is so mad at me now.... I am horrible.

Scarletdreamer 25-01-2010 12:09 AM

*cuddles Laura some more* You're not a horrible person... you just said something you oughtn't have when you were drunk. Drinking impairs sense(s). Your friends should realize this & not take what you - or anyone else who is drunk - say to heart. Your boyfriend agrees with you?! that doesn't sound very good... And I'm glad that you wrote a letter apologizing to your friend. That was a wise move, I think.

risenfromperdition 25-01-2010 12:17 AM

*cuddles everyone*

*curls up* gotta see a nutritionist tomorrow... she gonna think i too fat to be ill and laugh and :(. blech.

MammaMia 25-01-2010 12:18 AM

*cuddles everyone tight*

Scarletdreamer 25-01-2010 12:57 AM

Awh Heather, I'm sure it will go okay. I saw a nutritionist from July 2006 to this past December, and he never told me I was "too fat to be ill." They're professionals, they should know better than anyone that you can't tell from a person's weight whether or not s/he has an ED. Hope that helps some... & good luck!! *cuddles*

*cuddles Helen* Hope you're doing okay, love...

Bedtime for me... think I'm going to see about reading a bit before bed though. That ought to relax me a bit as I'm pretty uptight right now, back is in knots. :(

risenfromperdition 25-01-2010 01:02 AM

night april <3

SoMuchMore 25-01-2010 07:15 AM

Does anyone else shake uncontrollably when stressed? just wondering... b/c ive been shaking for hours, but im not cold, except for my hands so i'm figuring it is stressed related...

Kahlia1981 25-01-2010 07:56 AM

Hi all,

I am currently in the Psych Ward and it looks like I will be there for quite some time.

This message was posted by a friend of mine.

SoMuchMore 25-01-2010 08:05 AM

*cuddles kahlia*
Im sorry you are in the psych ward, but im glad that you are getting some help now. Stay strong hun.

MammaMia 25-01-2010 09:21 AM

*cuddles Kahlia* I hope they help this time, I really do.
Laura, my hands sometimes shake, not sure it's related to stress or not
April, hope you had a good sleep

Scarletdreamer 25-01-2010 12:40 PM

Thanks Heather. *hugs* :) How you doing this morning?

*cuddles Kahlia* I hope that you get the help that you need in there... I'm so glad that you got a bed before things had a chance to get any worse. Take care of yourself & know that we are thinking of you!! ♥

*squishes Laura* I shake sometimes when I'm stressed AND cold but not usually just when I'm stressed. However, I think I've heard of that possibly being a "side effect" of stress. Hope you're feeling a bit better now, sweetie... what's stressing you out so much? ♥

*huggles Helen* How're you doing this morning? BESIDES doing a prime job of evading the question. ;) We don't mind if you say how you're feeling/what's going on in your head/life... so please feel free if you want to. If you don't want to that's okay. ♥

I'm really tired... slept in until 7.10am!! so that was marvelous... and I feel all spiffy in the clothes I'm wearing, so that's kind of a good feeling, you know? :)

It's going to be a long day today... therapy this morning, tutoring this morning/afternoon (it overlaps), classes this afternoon, & then violin lessons (I teach) at 6pm. GRRRR. I'm going to be uber exhausted after all of that... :(

*more cuddles for everyone*

MammaMia 25-01-2010 01:02 PM

I should stop avoiding that question. I'm really sleepy and feeling quite ****. Promised myself today that I'd stop avoiding my calls and make my appointments but failing miserably at that. Sorry I didn't really answer the question of how my best friends were, it wasn't the best of days yesterday. But today seems to be better :)

Scarletdreamer 25-01-2010 01:06 PM

Don't worry about evading the question. *hugs* It's just something that after awhile I "confront" people on... only because I care about you - please understand that. :) I'm glad that today is looking a little better for you - you've had such a rough time lately with life in general!! *cuddles gently*

I don't want to eat breakfast... because I told myself that I'd purge if I did... and I don't want to purge, damnit, because I know how bad it is for you!! But at the same time I really DO want to purge... argh. I need to talk with my therapist about this... good thing I'm seeing her this morning, I guess. :-/


MammaMia 25-01-2010 01:55 PM

Oh believe me, I have and obviously I don't post about everything that's **** (contary to popular belief :p). I know it's only because you care :) It's sweet. I care about everyone in here. :) Please try not to purge hun anf glad you're seeing your therpist today :) *cuddles*

MammaMia 25-01-2010 04:20 PM

OMG :/ I have two job interviews all of the sudden :O :D

Scarletdreamer 25-01-2010 04:35 PM

I didn't purge... woohoo... :-/

Had a very upsetting therapy appt. Going to write about it in my venting spot if anyone would care to read as I don't want to have to repeat myself in a lot of different threads.


MammaMia 25-01-2010 04:38 PM

*cuddles April* I'll have a look. Glad you haven't purged :)

Scarletdreamer 25-01-2010 04:54 PM

Thanks, Helen. *cuddles back* I just posted it a bit ago so hopefully you managed to get to it after I wrote it... How're you doing? ♥

SoMuchMore 25-01-2010 05:06 PM

*hugs helen* good luck with your job interviews.. they can be so scary. but ultimately a good thing :-)

*hugs april* I'm sorry your therapy session was upsetting.. i read your venting page and can def see why... it would be confusing to hear what she said about you being better. Good job on not purging.

Stressing over everything... Now i'm extra worried about how people are percieving me b/c of the thing with my friend and then my other friend is coming over tonight to talk to me/get me to talk to him... so i'm worried about that... and then there is just everyday life stress, classes and whatnot, which can already be at a high level...
I'm still shaking this morning.. i managed to relax for a few and fell asleep last night but as soon as i woke up i went right back into it.

MammaMia 25-01-2010 05:22 PM

April, I couldn't find your thread when I went into the R/V forums, but came back here and went to it from your link :) I can understand why it was upsetting, it might help though? I don't know obviously. *cuddles*

Laura, sorry everything's so stressful at the moment sweetheart. *cuddles* Thank you for the good luck, they are immensely scary :(

To answer your question April..I'm feeling quite low. Bleh, I'll get over it. I really hope I get one job interview in particular. Really scared. ****ing loser...

Scarletdreamer 25-01-2010 05:59 PM

*cuddles Laura* I'm sorry that you're so stressed... is there anything that we can do to help? And maybe you could take out some time for yourself tonight, have a good soak in a tub with salts or bubles or a long hot shower with special shampoo or shower gel? Maybe do your nails, or take some time to read a fun book. Just little "destressers" that you can do inexpensively. I hate seeing you as stressed as I am (lol) if not more *gasp* heh... so please try & take care of yourself!! *more cuddles*

*squishes Helen* Yes, good luck with the job interviews (sorry I didn't say that earlier!!)... you're not a loser, I think everyone would be scared with 2 job interviews coming up. When are they and what jobs are they for? I'm sure that you will do fine... just remember to breathe deeply if you get too scared - hyperventilating only makes the anxiety worse. *gentle hugs* You'll be fine. :)

Thanks for reading my thread, girls... yeh it was very upsetting, might be beneficial in the long run but I really don't know. I'm really upset/angry at my therapist right now... want to text her to let her know that but I don't want to sound like a whinging three-year-old. :( She said she expects a lot of texts this coming week about how I want to cut/purge or how many times I've cut/purged, so I am ****ing DETERMINED to not text her - or anyone, if I can help it - when I am struggling. If I'm not sick, then I obviously don't need support.

**** THIS. *angry*

MammaMia 25-01-2010 06:25 PM


Must ignore my brain. Must ignore my brain. MUST IGNORE MY GODAMM BRAIN. I WON'T LET IT DO THIS. I WON'T I WILL NOT LET IT HAPPEN.


AMCarmody 25-01-2010 06:26 PM

*cuddles Mamma* Awwwrrr sweetie. What's wrong?

MammaMia 25-01-2010 06:28 PM

Jut stuipd feelings, I can't let them win this time, I can't.

AMCarmody 25-01-2010 06:30 PM

*more hugs if OK* I'm a PM away if you need to vent, ok? Cheer up honey.

MammaMia 25-01-2010 06:32 PM

Thanks xx

risenfromperdition 25-01-2010 06:33 PM

*holds everyone*

stupid day.
hafta meet with nutritionist person [am on and eated lunch.. gonna weigh even more :/]
woke up at 9:30 [class at 8 that had paper due for that meant to wake up at 6 for... heh.]
and now have to write that paper/do all the incomplete stuff at latest by tonight :/

AMCarmody 25-01-2010 06:35 PM

*more hugs*
what's the paper about? Maybe I can help?
In any case, big hugs and cheers your way.

BTW: so totally not stalking you. Really.

risenfromperdition 25-01-2010 06:51 PM

lol =]
eh is on a project so cant help but thanks

right am off :/

Scarletdreamer 25-01-2010 06:51 PM


'Bout time for me to go to my next class, am thinking I'll get a white hot chocolate for it, dunno though... :-X

Talked with my husband about the therapy appt as I was very upset (& still am) and he thinks I really am on the brink of recovery. I am not half as excited as he is. I don't want to be better. I'm TERRIFIED of being better!!! :crying:

risenfromperdition 25-01-2010 06:52 PM

and april- *cuddles*
i can understand how what your psych said would be upsetting- i prolly woulda thought same as you... so annoyingly have no advice, but pm if wanna chat. loveee x

risenfromperdition 25-01-2010 06:52 PM

know how you feel ><

shadowedsoul 25-01-2010 07:45 PM

walk in leans againt wall, hugs knees and rocks. i feel very numb, i should feel angery, all i feel is sorry for him. i shouldnt tho. argh screw it.

risenfromperdition 25-01-2010 08:06 PM

*cuddles shadowed*

in other news... im loads more than i thought :/ ew. :(

Scarletdreamer 25-01-2010 08:59 PM

*cuddles everyone*

Brief pop-in between classes, just wanted to say HI and that I'm a bit calmer now, although still frazzled & really stressed out. :(

Heather, I'm sure you're not as bad as you think you are. Anyway - remember - the number on the scale DOES NOT MATTER. (easy to say hard to believe >_<) It may be muscle not fat. *hugs*

Helen, LauraStar, how're you?

Jill, what's going on, love? *huggles*

*runs off to Intro to Soc*

~*Rainbow*~ 25-01-2010 09:48 PM

*walks in - runs to corner* - anyone got any spare drink - think i need it

I HATE MATES who pretend and ditch - think a tour about in a car might help

risenfromperdition 25-01-2010 09:54 PM

*cuddles rainbow*

doubt is muscle but meh. i dunno... i'll live.
hows you

Scarletdreamer 25-01-2010 11:24 PM

*cuddles everyone*

Rainbow, what happened with your friends? if you care to talk about it, that is. :) We're here to listen.

Heather, when do/did you see your nutritionist? Hopefully it went/goes okay.

I'm still miffed about my therapy session. *growls* I think I need to get my mind off it & uni as they are both causing me extreme stress... :(

Didn't get the white hot chocolate... oh well. Soc was boring.


MammaMia 25-01-2010 11:25 PM

I need to get drunk. Then can pretend it's not happening. :'(

SoMuchMore 25-01-2010 11:43 PM

*hugs everyone*

heather - i echo what april said earlier about you probably not being as bad as u think... everyone sees themselves more negatively then others do.

rainbow - u okay? wanna talk about what happened with your friends?

april - its understandable that you are still upset. Try doing something distracting like watch a funny movie or something..

helen - unfortunately getting drunk does not always work... I know its tempting though.

*hides in a dark corner and tries to turn off the bad parts of my brain*

MammaMia 25-01-2010 11:44 PM

It is tempting.
*curls up, cries and then hides in denial tent*

shadowedsoul 25-01-2010 11:46 PM

thanks for the cuddles guys. feeling very numb, just found out my granda in hospital. we havnt spoken in ages.had a massive arument ages ago,not spoken since. not sure how i should feel sad, angery. all i feel is numb, he has a bad heart as well. all i feel is angery and sorry for him. man i sound like a **** person. =/

risenfromperdition 25-01-2010 11:54 PM

cant say numbers on here but... is so much :/ and saw nutritionist earlier today ><

Imaginary_friend 26-01-2010 02:27 AM

i;m so dunrk. and i shouldnt be. and i texted him....argh. :( and he still doesnt want me :'( why does it hurt so much?
*cries in the corner*

*hugs to everyone*

brndedhero 26-01-2010 03:02 AM

*Hugs Imaginary_friend* Wish I could get a drink then perhaps I could actually get some sleep.

If this guy doesn't want you that's his problem and he can't be worth your time. Sorry I can't be of much hope other than a hug and horribly generic sounding advice but the sentiment is certainly sincere. Hang in there

SoMuchMore 26-01-2010 03:43 AM

*cuddles Helen*

*hugs laurafriend* yea I know its generic advice, but I agree w/ brndedhearo… its probably his problem that he doesn’t want you. Try not to let it get u know, I know its hard..

*hugs brndedhero* hope you manage to get some sleep.

*hugs jill* im so sorry about your grandpa.

*cuddles heather*

I talked to my friend tonight. It was nice to have someone that is on my side of some issues. Guess i didnt have to be worried.

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