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wildly insane 03-06-2009 12:03 AM

Triggered

*offers hugs round*

*hugs Lucy* I love swimming, such a sense of achievement when you push yourself hard, sorry you can't find an outlet. You have to look after yourself as well as your mum though.

*hugs Arwen* ooh ice-cream yummy, hope you had a good day. You're allowed a macdonalds once in a while :)

*hugs Cheryl*

*hugs HannahBanana* welcome back, I hope the therapy works for you and that you are enjoying home leave

*hugs Secrets* yay for the last exam, why aren't you feeling well? hope you feel better tomorrow

*hugs Kahlia* how's the wrist doing? how are you?

*hugs Amanda* I hope you are okay

*hugs Helen**hugs ShadowedSeraph**hugs Rockaroni* how are you all doing?

that's it from me tonight, am just tired and fed up, I so want to enjoy life but it wont bloomin let me.

Biba 03-06-2009 12:16 AM

its pretty bad.. it hasnt stopped.. i thought it stopped.

Kahlia1981 03-06-2009 12:28 AM

*hugs all*

My wrist is as itchy as hell. Looks like they are planning surgery on my shoulder the day before my next fracture clinic review. Aaaaggghhh. It's all happening at once.

Sorry I can't type more but my cast keeps getting in the way.

BoundNoMore 03-06-2009 01:56 AM

*hugs wildly insane* thanks for the hug dear one

what hasn't stopped lucy?

*hugs kahlia and signs cast*

rusynchick 03-06-2009 03:45 AM

*wanders in*

Ummm....I think I need to be here for a bit. I am anxious about everything right now...real things and not real things.. I'm to scared to talk to anyone in real life about this, so here I am..
*rocks back and forth in a corner*

Damnation. 03-06-2009 03:56 AM

Bleh.

I can't be arsed to cut. I can't be arsed to OD. I'm finding it increasingly difficult to talk, on or offline. So sod it. I'm just gonna let things build up, I don't care

youonlyliveonce 03-06-2009 09:24 AM

everyone thinks im doing better "theres a light at the end of the tunnel" so why arent i feeling it

wildly insane 03-06-2009 11:58 AM

still triggered bleugh!

*hugs Cheryl* maybe it's around the next corner, just concentrate on each day as it comes

*hugs Todlich* we're here if you do want to vent, take care hun

*hugs rusynchick* if you want to chat about it here, we're here to listen

*hugs Kahlia* good luck with it all

*hugs Lucy* hope things are better today

*hugs Amanda* anytime :)

MammaMia 03-06-2009 02:15 PM

Mental health assessment tomorrow, should be a barrel of laughs >.<

*hugs all*

realflifefaerie 03-06-2009 02:31 PM

Sorry I neglected you all, I've returned home to try to improve things and get some kind of pattern with food. Still feel unwell but have managed to remain concious today.

*hugs to all* I shall reply individually when my mother goes out.

*leaves chocolate yumyums*

Damnation. 03-06-2009 05:58 PM

I dreamt I cut last night O_o. Quite deeply too. I just had to check my arm to see if it was real or not

zowie 03-06-2009 06:11 PM

My little sister wont stop shouting and being childish, and my dad's not doing a very good job at controlling her.

one_step_closer 03-06-2009 06:39 PM

*hides in the corner*

Biba 03-06-2009 08:28 PM

my leg is kinda damaged, it happened yesterday afternoon, i was in delay for about a month, and yesterday when i was on my own, i tuned out, and now its a mess, i havnt seen the damage because i covered it and left, i took, my nephue to the beach and carried on with my day as if nothing happened, i am afraid to look at it, in case i feel like there should be more, all i know is its a mess, the nurse called into say that i wont get an appointment until around two weeks, i didnt tell her about yesterday, as i am finding it hard to take it in myself, now to day, i look at yesterday, with disbelife, and im not feeling ashamed, cus no one knows, iam not sorry, because now i wont be waking up in the morning, feeling like i have been for the month that has past. i dont feel glad about it either, i dont know what i really feel, all i do know is, that i never thought i would be feeling like i had to do this, because last time, it turned to a stress and i was glad, cus i belived i was ok, more like cured or something.. but no .. im back to square one feeling my aim now is to prevent it from yet again, happening.. my day was normal, i was able to carry out all that was expected of me in this day.

MammaMia 03-06-2009 08:48 PM

*curls up in a ball*

I feel so low. I really do. Have my mental health assessment tomorrow, am dreading it to be quite honest.

youonlyliveonce 03-06-2009 09:16 PM

gud luk or 2moz mammia mia. it will be ok hugs

lucy may hugs ur not back to sqaure one. its just a lil slip up but u can keep going well done for gtoing the month.
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its a matter of time. its when not if. ts 2 hard to keep fighting im desperate. wish someone cud take it all away

MammaMia 04-06-2009 12:12 AM

Thank you :(

rusynchick 04-06-2009 12:24 AM

The random hallucinations are back. I havent had them in so long, I thought it was over- why can't it be over? I was out and about the other day and saw some stuff. It wasent there- I knew that but it freaked me out anyway. AND I couldent say anything 'cause if I did they will try to send me to the psych again-and I wont go I tell you-I wont! I'm just scared again...I hate it.

wildly insane 04-06-2009 12:53 AM

*hugs**hugs**hugs**hugs*

still triggered, still a waste of space

shadowedsoul 04-06-2009 09:37 AM

*hugs wildlyinsane gently.* you are deffently not a waste of space, you have help me and whole load of other. you are a really kind and careing person, there is no way in hell your a waste of space. big bear hugs.x

MammaMia 04-06-2009 09:47 AM

Hannah, you are NOT a waste of space!!!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRGH mental health assessment in 14 minutes :'(

ravynsoul 04-06-2009 11:04 AM

*hugs all*
Hannah, as Helen and shadowed soul said, you are definitely not a waste of space. *hugs you*

Good luck with your mental health assessment Helen.

*leaves lots of hugs*

is Puppy Sinclair still around?

MammaMia 04-06-2009 12:50 PM

Yay we have results at last, only took me two ****ing years nearly to get it but hey ho *rolls eyes* Being referred to CBT :)

zowie 04-06-2009 12:54 PM

Ravyn, I want to pet puppy sinclaire too :)

I'm glad you're getting CBT Helen, did they give you a diagnosis?

I'm hungover and pretty sure I'm still drunk.

MammaMia 04-06-2009 01:06 PM

Did they ****? Just was blabbering on how I don't have mental illness (since when did I say to them I had???) but had elements of depression and how I need to unlearn my behaviours (self harming/overdosing) and stuff.

~Kaytee~ 04-06-2009 01:43 PM

Hi everyone.. just a quick note.. am having my last day at uni tomorrow then I'm free (almost). Should pop in more after tomorrow =] Haven't felt the best lately though so sorry for neglecting you =[ *huggles all*

youonlyliveonce 04-06-2009 03:42 PM

so my exams are over i have finished the first year at uni so y arent i feeling better

~Kaytee~ 04-06-2009 10:51 PM

Aw well done on finishing your first year.. don't worry... I kinda feel the same.. I actually feel like dropping out.. hmm. *hugs*

Damnation. 04-06-2009 11:19 PM

@__@ Feeling triggered and spacey. Want to give in to both

youonlyliveonce 04-06-2009 11:20 PM

same meeting with my cpn and my OT 2morrow to sort out a plan to get me sorted hopefully find more bout the dbt assessment when it is etc. i feel like they r wasting there time.

wildly insane 04-06-2009 11:46 PM

Hey guys thanks for the hugs, much appreciated, I've just gone into a complete self-confidence black-out, but ignoring that fact I had a great day trip to London today to see a friend, we had great fun laughing at random wrongness in paintings in the national gallery :)

*hugs Shadowedsoul back* I'm here to help anytime you need me :)

*hugs Helen* hope the cbt works, when's the first session do you know?

Puppy SinClair is happily bounding around barking his little socks off at all the attention.

*hugs Arwen* I find that a real wierd sensation when I can't work out if I'm hungover or still drunk, hope you are doing okay.

*hugs Katie* YAY!!!! what are your plans now? you haven't been neglecting us, you've been busy :) don't drop out that's just the negativity talking, you can do this and you'll be great.

*hugs Shell and doesn't let go* thanks hun

*hugs Cheryl* don't worry hun, give yourself time, you're not wasting their time, honest, things will get better.

*hugs Todlich* don't give in hun, is there any reason you want to talk about?

Damnation. 04-06-2009 11:47 PM

*Hugs back* <3 Glad you had fun with your friend.

And I'm not sure. Just came out of nowhere x_x

wildly insane 05-06-2009 12:04 AM

sorry to hear that, I hate it when that happens cos you're less prepared for the fight. How's it going?

wildly insane 05-06-2009 12:54 AM

*hugs Lucy* I think you are a very amazing person, keep fighting my dear and I hope the nurse can help

~Kaytee~ 05-06-2009 01:00 AM

Thanks Hannah.. at the moment I need to finish my essay (btw, staying home today.. stupid anxiety got the better of me :() and study for my exams but I'm also going home to see my family in a few weeks! And yeah, I'll be on more. I have kinda been neglecting you guys coz I've been posting elsewhere but here. *hugs* Hope your feeling better, glad you had fun with your friend!

rusynchick 05-06-2009 02:19 AM

*hugs* to all of you, hope everyone is doing ok.

I tried to get rid of my panic by cleaning today, it only worked while I was activly cleaning though. So now my kitchen is cleaner than when I moved in here, but I am panicked again. :(

Damnation. 05-06-2009 03:42 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by wildly insane (Post 1663683)
sorry to hear that, I hate it when that happens cos you're less prepared for the fight. How's it going?

Yeah, it happens a lot. Managed to fight the void off, but still triggered. Really close to giving in actually x_x.

I hate the way I can't get certain issues/people off my mind

wildly insane 05-06-2009 09:21 AM

*hugs Todlich* I completely understand, I'm glad you managed to fight the void off, think of that as a positive, hope you didn't give in. people get into your head and don't go away,but if they're causing you such distress then they're really not worth it *hugs*

Damnation. 05-06-2009 12:14 PM

*Hugs back* I was able to fight off the triggeredness as well - just. I ended up tool in hand, looking in the mirror and thought '...I just can't be arsed with this', and didn't do anything.

On the plus note, I'm still vaguely amused by the dream I had the other night of science teaching giraffes

Jetforce 05-06-2009 12:49 PM

*cuddles every1 in the ward*

wildly insane 05-06-2009 03:43 PM

goes and hides, sorry guys, not coping well :crying:

zowie 05-06-2009 07:46 PM

*Hugs everyone* Sorry I'm not leaving individual replies, I get confused when the thread gets longer than a page.
I've just eaten way too much, and I just want to sleep.

Ileana 06-06-2009 08:42 AM

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Kahlia1981 06-06-2009 01:04 PM

*hugs all* ~ can't write too much as cast keeps getting in the way

zowie 06-06-2009 04:04 PM

Where is everyone? Enjoying their Saturday? Wish I was.

wildly insane 06-06-2009 04:51 PM

*hugs Arwen* I'm staring at the rain, the only thing I wanted to do was ride my horse but she doesn't like the rain :P you okay?

*hugs Kahlia* how long till it comes off?

*hugs Ileana* do you want to talk about it?

*cuddles Jem back*

*hugs Todlich* science teaching giraffes huh? I like that kinda dream :) how are you?

*hugs Katie* how are things going?

*hugs Rusynchick* hope you're doing okay

*hugs anyone else skulking around who needs or wants a hug*

I'm still not doing well but have resisted and am feeling more up for fighting, am ballroom dancing tonight, see how much my feet have forgotten, lol.

zowie 06-06-2009 05:05 PM

Hey Hannah. It's not raining where I am, but it's still not very nice weather. My dad and sister have gone to Brighton but I decided to stay home, felt too tired.
Glad to hear you're feeling up to fighting and that you've resisted. Keep it up, I know you can do it!
Have fun dancing tonight :)
xxx

CrazyHayley 06-06-2009 06:16 PM

Hey guys, sorry I've been away for a bit and thanks to those that gave me the huggles when they were needed after the fiasco with my best mate. There has been far to much for me to catch up on but huggles all round!

I'd been staying with my partner and my mum for a bit but had no internet access or cutting kit, I came home yesterday but my mate had borrowed my laptop whilst I was away, so I didn't have the safety of the psych ward and cut myself after managing 4weeks free. muppet.

Anyhoo, think I'm gonna put the news on in the background and see what coverage of the d-day rememberance services may be shown as I missed anything after about 11am as my mate came round.

Whats anyone else been up to? xx

MammaMia 06-06-2009 06:25 PM

I'm not doing so well, had an extremely bad day and ruint the meet, go me :D Oh and I've started collaspsing again **** **** ****.

CrazyHayley 06-06-2009 06:35 PM

oh sweetie, I'm sure you didn't ruin the meet on purpose. Do you know what makes you collapse? I suffer with the occassional blackout due to NCS and its horrid and rather embarrassing depending on where and when it happens. Hope you were safe and looked after. *Special huggles and snuggles for you Helen!*


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