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Doikers 11-08-2010 08:26 PM

Hey Felcia , Hmmm I'm sorry you've been so nervous today :S
I'm just numb (yep , still) and a bit bored , eaten WAY too much , but what do I do eat tons or cut? , I am going on a diet from next Monday , I'm going to be really strict with myself , I hope I can do it :S I bought loads of carbonated drinks and I figure the bubbles will help fill me up , works in theory right? Needless to say they are sugar free drinks .

shadowedsoul 11-08-2010 10:16 PM

Cuddles everbody. Hmm don't feel very safe . Curls up in the corner crying.

misskitty112 11-08-2010 10:29 PM

gahhh
*runs off to scream in r/v again*
please, someone, make life be nice to me.

Scarletdreamer 11-08-2010 11:32 PM

*cuddles Felicia* Sounds like you've got a lot going on right now. Maybe take out some time to "just be" and maybe read a book you enjoy, or listen to your favorite music, since I know you like that a lot, or go for a solitary walk (as long as you'll be safe). You deserve to feel better, as do we all!!

*cuddles Hels* You didn't sound attention-seeking at all, sweetie. I'm so sorry that things are so bad for you right now... wish I could help you feel better. :( I hate feeling so helpless, watching all of you struggle... honestly wish I could really be a superhero and make it all okay for everyone. :(

*cuddles Mark* Be careful with the sugarfree stuff at first, if you have a lot, it'll probably give you the runs. ;) But after awhile you'll get accustomed to it and will be okay with all sugarfree drinks. I'd suggest interspersing the s/f drinks with milk or that lower calorie/sugar orange juice that Tropicana has out now (if you get Tropicana products in the UK??). Anyway, just some thoughts. :)

*cuddles Crimson* How're you doing, love??

*cuddles Laura* I'm sorry that dreams are messing with you, sweet. They do me too, and it really really sucks. :( How else are you doing?? Feel free to PM me if you need/want to.

*cuddles Jill* What's going on, hon?

I'm... exhausted. And going lower & lower on that slippery slope. I hate this. I hate the cycles... I hate the knowledge that no matter how good I feel, I will be going lower again in awhile - who knows how long though... I hate knowing that if I feel really good, it's probably just part of my illness... damn it all, I ****ing hate bipolar!!!

Anyway.

It's been a busy day, spent mostly in cleaning and baking a pizza. Yes. A whole ****ing day cleaning. My sister came over and is totally anal about cleaning, and she even cheerfully acknowledges this fact. >_< It is NOT fun cleaning with her, because nothing I do is good enough. :(

*hides in the warren and cries*

taz35 11-08-2010 11:41 PM

*cuddles everyone tightly*

Finally heard back from the psychiatrist's office today about a referral for an evaluation submitted by my doctor. My appointment is for next Tuesday... and my anxiety level has skyrocketed. I'm super paranoid about him thinking I'm faking all this, or saying there's nothing wrong with me, I'm wasting everybody's time, etc... I'm half tempted to call and cancel ><

*tackles April & hidingme because I spy you both!*

Side note, I'll be online for the rest of the night and I'll do individual replies continuously as well as first thing tomorrow morning :) My apologies for the lack of replies thus far.

hidingme 11-08-2010 11:42 PM



**may trigger- SH**

Havent been here is a while but feel like we belong here again. Sadie cut last night.. same place as before. not too bad but still.

sarah is sad and scared, sadie is generally quiet and "hiding"i guess, and I am very depressed and exhausted.

life sucks..

hidingme 11-08-2010 11:43 PM

*smiles at Taz* hi

taz35 11-08-2010 11:49 PM

Hi Hiding! Is that what I should call you? :S
What made Sadie cut last night? And care to talk about why life sucks so much right now?

*tackles Laura* I see you too :)

Scarletdreamer 11-08-2010 11:55 PM

*glomps Taz & Laura, as I spot them!!* :D

I'm... so frustrated. :(

*hides again* :'(

Scarletdreamer 12-08-2010 12:03 AM

Updated my r/v...

*hides yet again* :'(

hidingme 12-08-2010 12:03 AM

yeah calling me Hiding is great..

Sadie cut cause we got super depressed.. we are the only one working and paying bills..hubby has chronic depression and has been out of work a few months now.. we are tired of work..rather stay home for a while but cant. plus sarah was writing in journal and I guess she hit a trigger spot cause she wrote how maybe hubby and daughter dont love us anymore. ..after that sadie took over..
daughter wont help much cleaning house and im just too tired and depressed to be motivated to do it.
then she satarts school soon which brings up a whole new set of worries.
just seems like nothing good ever stays good.
just very sad..
sorry.
Hiding

MammaMia 12-08-2010 12:25 AM

*cuddles everyone*

I just wanted to explain something, the post I wrote earlier about wanting to give up. The suicide stuff etc isn't how I am now. Well I am slightly suicidal but not to the extent I was a few months ago. But I still meant every word. I don't want to be like all that. I don't want to be low constantly. Uggggh >_<

I've had a better evening actually. I saw my Dad & he gave me lotsa cuddles. We had a good chat, well mostly a rant and he agreed with me about stuff. Then spoke to Jane (his partner) about earlier, she was a star, as always ^_^ So...*gulps* looks like I might be having counselling again or something, not 100% certain with what 'help' she was thinking of getting me :S We shall see. Feel DEAD guilty as she was out drinking and stuff & me sending a depressing texts. But she said I could talk to her...so...yeah. At first I found it hard to start typing it, then pretended I was texting Jade (one of my besties) and it all came out. LOL, magical.

I'm rambliiiiiiiinggggggg. Anyway came home, spent bit time upstairs then been with my sister (well one of them), her boyfriend, mum (til she went to bed) and when my other sister got home for a wee bit til she went bed too. Been giggling too much aha.

Detour. Derail 12-08-2010 12:43 AM

Hiding, Im sure Sadie is loved so so much by more people than she could possibly ever know but I understand how difficult it can be to believe it sometimes...its the story of my life! If you need to chat Im here for you as well as everyone else!! *hugs and love*

Helloooooo to everyone else! Sorry I tried to read all the posts but my head is mashed :(
I hope everyone is ok.
I brought magic pizza and chips and chocolate cake!! *puts plates down so everyone can share with me :)*

I feel really affectionate right now...although earlier on the way to work I wanted to break someone or something :(
But theres no one here to hold me....
I just want to be held.

MammaMia 12-08-2010 12:47 AM

Aleeeeeexxxxxxx, I wrote you a reply darling, it's a couple pages back I think. I looooooove you <3 *cuddles tight and holds you*

Detour. Derail 12-08-2010 12:51 AM

i just found it.. it made me cry :'(
Hells..I just want to be wanted
Is that too much to ask?

SoMuchMore 12-08-2010 12:57 AM

*cuddles helen, alex, hidingme, april, taz, felicia, mark, crimson and everyone else*

*brings in loads of treats for everyone* (non-cal treats of course)

I think I could take on just about anything right now! hahaha. Dunno why so hyper/goofy. I think i'll just float away now. If anyone needs anything I'll be on and off all night for as long as my concentration will let me. You're all awesome.

MammaMia 12-08-2010 01:00 AM

You are wanted darling & people will want you in the future Alex. Please believe in that *cuddles* I know what you mean though :(

Laura, float away where missy????

Detour. Derail 12-08-2010 01:10 AM

I just looked in the mirror...and now I cant stop crying

MammaMia 12-08-2010 01:11 AM

Why? :( *sits with you and holds you*

Detour. Derail 12-08-2010 01:17 AM

i hate myself so much.
I cant hate ANYONE else....yet I hate myself so much


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